Hi there :) Long time, no see. Sorry bout that, school's killing me.

I came up with this idea while in the car on my way to Austin. Disclaimer: I don't own any of this song or TVD. I do this for fun.

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I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

Bonnie felt numb. She couldn't feel. She couldn't think. She couldn't move. Ever since a week ago when she found out the worst, heart-shattering news of her life. A week ago, Bonnie Bennett found out that her best friend and her brother killed Kol Mikaelson, Bonnie's boyfriend.

When she heard the news, Bonnie's broke down. She screamed, she yelled at both Elena and Jeremy, and she sobbed. Hard. For three days until her dad gave her a reality check. Even though it's been a week, Bonnie was still numb and still felt like he was still there alive.

A few nights ago, Bonnie was having a nightmare of him being staked when she heard Kol's voice called out her name, which in turn woke her up. For a split second, Bonnie saw Kol kneeling beside her. She turned to face him and he took her hand then said, "I love you," and disappeared with Bonnie in tears.

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face – it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice – it chased away all the sanity in me

Bonnie always reminisced on their amazing moments they shared together. Yes, Bonnie thought for a while that Kol was an evil, murderous bastard but after he continued to chase after her affections and since he was also extremely attractive, she accepted Kol's offer for a date. As Bonnie went on more and more dates with the original, she began to see the light in him. The good light.

She always sees his face and hears his voice now, too. A few nights ago, Bonnie was having a nightmare of him being staked when she heard Kol's voice called out her name, which in turn woke her up. For a split second, Bonnie saw Kol kneeling beside her. She turned to face him and he took her hand then said, "I love you," and disappeared with Bonnie in tears.

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

Even though Bonnie was trying to move on with her life, she still felt like her heart was missing. She felt pain when she would remember memories or when someone would mention his name or his death.

Why did he leave her in this way?

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

Every morning was hard for Bonnie to get the day started. Kol would always bring by her favorite morning drink, hot green tea and she missed that. She missed everything he did for her, he was even her first. She's tried telling herself he's gone and never coming back, but it never works.

Bonnie still cries over him.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years

Bonnie still loves him.

But you still have
All of me

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