well, surprise! lol, no one exept my beta knew i was writing this story :D did I surprised someone? I hope I did! So, this is after 'Joy', althrough the kiss never happened in this story. It's more after Cuddy lost Joy. But don't worry, there will be loads of Huddy ;D and oh yeah, I HATE THOSE RULER THINGIES, they never work with me. *sigh*

She normally wasn't someone who would get drunk, she lived healthily. But today it didn't matter, today was different. Today had been a day of happiness, the day she would finally get to adopt a child. But then the mother changed her mind, said she wanted to keep the child to show she could be a better mom than her mom had been. It had smashed her world to tiny bits, to small to pick up and put together again. She thought about what House had said. Making her believe she was a bad mother. He had been right. What kind of mother would get drunk if something wasn't going like she wanted?

She ordered another drink, but didn't touch it. What was the point of getting drunk anyway? It wouldn't help her. But she was here now, so she could try. Try and drink away the pain, to forget everything. She knew it wouldn't help, that she would have one hell of a hangover in the morning, but she didn't care. Not now.

"Cuddy?"

Great, it was him. Why had the bastard just happen to be walking in the one bar she was trying to forget him?

"Go away." She took another sip of her drink, hoping he would catch on and leave. She didn't know how she would get home later, but she figured she would call a cab.

"You're drunk! Pay for your drinks, I'm going to take you home."

He sighed when she did take another sip and ignored him. Than he grabbed his wallet, paid for her drinks and dragged her outside.

"You're going to pay me back for that later, now I'm going to take you home, where are your keys?"

He managed to drive to her place and get her to the door. So far so good. He got it open easily, but couldn't get her inside, because she didn't want to. Eventually he convinced her that he would make her sleep out on the porch while he would take her bed if she didn't move and she came with him.

"Where's your bedroom?"

She got angry at him before she realized he wanted to tug her in, give her a proper place to sleep this of instead of the couch, or the floor. The anger was replaced with another feeling and after a few seconds she realized she felt rejected. She told him where to go and let him help her. He took her shoes of and tucked her in. He just wanted to leave when he felt her grab his wrist.

"Stay…"

He looked into her eyes for a moment before turning away, seeing which emotions played through it.

"Cuddy, no, you can't think clearly"

She didn't let go and turned his head to face her.

"Lisa, no…"

She sat up and faced him, only inches from his face.

"Greg, tell me no, like you mean it. I know you can't."

She was right, he couldn't

And then she kissed him.