Title: Far From Okay
Author: MissAnnThropic
Spoilers: Season 4
LiveJournal: miss_annthropic(dot)livejournal(dot)com
Summary: Sam was so damn glad to have Dean back that he pretended he didn't notice all the things that were wrong with his brother.
Disclaimer: None of it's mine. I'm just a sad little fangirl that spends her days writing fanfic and watching DVDs of her favorite shows :(
Sam was so damn glad to have Dean back that he pretended he didn't notice all the things that were wrong with his brother.
Sam acted like Dean waking up screaming and crying in the middle of the night was just par for the course. He made himself believe that Dean shutting him out and telling him to leave it alone was normal for his brother.
Sam faked seeing Dean when he looked in his brother's eyes, willfully ignoring the mask of a tortured soul that was really there. He didn't let himself find it peculiar that the only time Dean didn't look like he wanted to come undone was when an angel was there to hold him together.
Sam convinced himself he wasn't disturbed when he glanced across the diner table at Dean and saw his older brother with a red pen doodling bloody patterns absently on a photo of a recent poltergeist victim. Sam told himself it wasn't damn exact and down to a fucking art where Dean dragged the pen over two-dimensional flesh.
Sam confided in Ruby, once, just how worried he really was about Dean's behavior. The demon cocked her head slightly, smiled like she wanted to jump his bones or pick them clean, and Sam decided that pretty much summed it up pretty damn well.
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