Blip...blip...blip...blip...
"He's waking up, somebody call his family."
"Doctor Toro to ward 19"
"What's his heart rate?"
"His brain waves are picking up..."
Voices, terrible, terrible noise. I wonder where I am. Can I see? How do I open my eyes? Maybe I'm blind?
Light floods in and quickly I shut my eyes again but I can still see the dancing white dots on the inside of my eyelids.
"Gerard? Mr. Way? Can you hear me? If you can hear me open your eyes."
I don't want to, its too bright out there.
"Sir if you can hear me please open your eyes."
I squint so that the brightness isn't too much to handle all at once. Its still blinding though. It makes my poor brain ache.
"Very good, we're just going to sit you up now okay." Someone says. A woman's voice somewhere to the right.
The area where I have been lying moves beneath me and I grip the edge of it desperately with my unsteady hands. The area appears to be a hospital bed and they've moved it so that I'm sitting up facing them.
Them, doctors and nurses floundering around me. Too many voices. A sharp pain radiates through my skull.
"Docter Toro!" That shrill woman's voice again.
"Give him some space, if you could leave us for now please?" A mans voice now, a little less alarming, shoos the other people out of this room.
"Can you hear me? If you can, show me by blinking three times."
I still can't see quite right but I blink anyway. It helps a little actually so when he's sure I've heard him I give a few more blinks to help my eyes adjust to this strange new brightness level.
I'm definitely in a hospital. This man appears to have big 'fro hair but its tucked away. I don't think I've ever seen hair like that. I haven't seen a room like this either. Or a bed. Or these machines around me. How do I know what they are if I've never seen them before? Wait...I? Who am I!?
"Follow the light with your eyes..." This Doctor man shines a torch in front of me and I instinctively close my eyes and cower away.
"Sorry to shock you." He takes a short pause. "Ready to try again?" No. I am most certainly not. I. Who am I?
He runs some little tests and says silly nonsensical things as he writes them down like "pinna response normal" and some other things. I think he's making these words up. I. Can't he just tell me who I am? I don't know, I don't remember.
Honestly, all I remember is waking up here just now.
"Alright, can you just tell me your name?"
He clicks his pen, making me flinch.
"I...don't remember"
"I see. What do you remember before what happened just now?"
"nothing, where am I ?" I have many questions for this Dr. Toro.
"Yes you're in Bellville Central Hospital."
He explains calmly.
"Your family should be arriving any minute, they have been waiting quite some time to see you, Gerard."
Gerard. Gerard Way right? Is that what he said earlier? That must be me then. I wonder what 'me' looks like...
"What happened to me?" His face droops sadly when I ask.
The door clicks and three people step inside. Dr. Toro ignores my previous question and takes this opportunity to explain something to them and leave.
Where does he think he's going? Who are these people? Didn't he say that...are they my family?
The woman squeals my name and hugs me so tight she may have snapped every bone in my upper body. She plants a kiss on my forehead and cups my face in her hands.
"My boy...we've missed you so, so much." She bubbles, tears in her eyes and a huge smile on her face.
It feels wrong to ask her who she is, so I don't. I think she must be my mom. I don't really feel any sentiments at this situation because, I don't know these people. Apparently they know me well, the father-like figure pats my shoulder in greeting, he has tears in his eyes also.
"Do you remember me Gerard?" The third person asks. His voice monotone, his expressions hidden in an indifferent mask. He looks to be around my age.
"I didn't think you would." His lips remain in a solid, straight line, showing no telltale signs of his emotions.
" Its just good to have you back bro." He pushes hid glasses back on the bridge of his nose and tucks his hair in.
"Your my brother?" I ask pathetically.
"Yes, I'm your brother, Mikey." He sighs, sitting onto the end of the bed and patting the blankets where my calf is.
"I can't believe you've forgotten everything."
"Neither can I." I can't quite grasp what's going on.
"Mikes, your my brother right?"
"Right."
"So you'd tell me something if I asked right?"
"Yeh, I guess? Why?"
"What happened to me?"
The woman's, I mean, mom's tears froze mid-fall.
"We have to leave now. Its getting late."
She smiled squeezing me with another bone crushing hug.
Dad just nodded and ruffled my hair. Its long and black, I can tell by the bits hovering in front of my eyes.
"We'll be back soon Gerard, then we can take you home." Mikey smiled softly before reverting back to poker face as he left.
Home. I wonder my home is.
I hear terrible noise again, voices and chatter as visiting hours commence. Luckily I'm in this room alone, no other patients.
I single out Dr. Toro's voice. I can see his shadow outside through the tinted glass panel on the door. Another shadow stands across from him, exchanging words I can't hear.
The door opens, not completely, just a crack.
Then my heart just stops and I know it really did because the machine next to me made an awful noise.
I swear I'm seeing an angel. His skin perfect and pale and he has these dazzling hazel eyes that words will never capture the true beauty of. He's just...so...pretty. Pretty...and familiar. I swear I know him. How can I know him? I don't remember a thing...his beautiful face appears to be an exception.
The monitor starts beeping quietly again.
I faintly hear 's voice ask if he's going to come in, this makes my heart skip another beat.
The guy that I can now only think of as and angel shook his head quickly and walked off.
Maybe he is an angel. Maybe I saw him before I got here because I was being denied access to heaven? I doubt that. I don't believe in heaven.
I wish he had come in. I wish I could speak to the angel.