Title: Our Little Game
Fandom: Code Geass
Pairing: Lelouch + Rolo (Rolo X Nunally if you look hard enough, I guess)
Rating: G. Depressing G, but G.
Warnings: Shounen-ai ish? Maybe? I mean, it certainly can be interpreted that way. It's all up for your interpretation
It was a little game we'd play. He'd pretend I was someone else, and I'd pretend that I didn't notice. And when it was all over, I'd pretend I didn't hate her a little bit more each time.
The times when he called me by her name were too many to count. Who was to blame him though? She was his real sister, after all. Nunally- the picture perfect sister and the personification of beautiful innocence.
No, I couldn't blame him at all. Would I have been able to kill her if I had actually gotten there? I'm not so sure. I probably would have fallen in love with her too, had she had the time to speak. So did I deserve to take her place in his heart? Probably not.
But even still, after FLEIJA nearly leveled Japan, I called him. And even then my heart clenched when all he wanted to do was speak to her. His apathy towards whether I came out of the conflict alive nearly broke my heart as badly as the terrible things he said to me the next day before I left. I was only a doll to you, you say- a doll onto which you could project your image of your precious sister.
But you know what? It's not Nunally's name you're calling at me now. It's not Nunally that you're begging to stop risking their life for you. It's not Nunally that you're crying for as I slowly kill myself to save your life- my heart physically stopping. Funny how that works, Lelouch; even when you cry my name, you still manage to break my heart.
What did I even feel for you? Was it the love of a brother? Friend? Romantic? Does that even matter anymore? This isn't part of our little game, Lelouch- this was my choice. A choice I can make because I know that behind our game, I know that you had to have loved me- even if it was only a tiny bit. You just don't cry for the death of someone you didn't love.
Nunally? Wherever you might be- he's all yours again.
Take care of our Nii-san?