Bella point of view
I always felt so uncomfortably exhausted I every step I took, so very uninterested in any useless way to keep my torn mind detracted from him, even for a simple thirty minutes, in my case. which to me, feels like a empty life time just being repeated over and over, which in my daily point of view, I didn't want. He had been gone for over 6 lifeless months, leaving me all alone in pain. Now and then, my poor best friend Jacob, would try to put some of my shattered pieces of me together as best as he could, with his warm and gentle hugging and with much effort of constantly comforting me, but I never felt like I had been put together properly. But he felt differently about me, how could I give him my shattered heart, when its still Edward's. I know he doesn't want anything to do with me, but I'll never find another charming and endearing man ever again, He acted, and lied to you Bella, yet you still love him? I repeated in my head time and time again. But how could I not. But even with Jacob around me for a short amount of a time to, when he, all to soon, leaves me all alone and upsettingly depressed, the pure agonizing pain would just seek even more pain into me for revenge, which killed me thoroughly through the nights of nightmares of nothingness.
" We'll Bella, honey I'm going to be gone all day with work, so why don't you, we'll call Jessica or Angela to go do some shopping or something.? . . You haven't been out with them in a while" My dad Charlie, asked me, staring at me in the eyes, glaring at me as if I had done something wrong. He just sat there fidgeting in his wooden seat at the table. From time to time, I thought my overacting dad could see right through me, realising all the agonizing pain Edward caused me, but he never admitted it, so I had to keep up my fake smile and my poor acting skills for his sake only. As I promised Edward in the forest, I tried to do my very best at acting for Charlie, Otherwise if I had my way, I would never bother to eat, talk, or even move.
" Um, I think I'm going to go to port angelus alone, if you don't mind. I need a break from all the screaming at the dresses in the shop." Which was partly true from my point of view. I walked up the flat empty stairs, turning into my room with a tear drivelling down my wasted cheek, I haven't blushed ever since he left me alone in this state in the dark Forrest near the trail, behind this house. I slowly turned on my useless pile of trash; known as a computer. It got humming in about five minutes, luckily. I answered my mums emails, which had been piling up, saying how much she missed me mostly and asking how I've been.
" Bye Bells." My dad called, from the bottom of the stairs, echoing through the house.
" Yeah, bye dad." I answered, turning of the computer, turning to sit on my all to empty warm bed.
His words buzzed thoroughly through out my head 'it'll be like I never existed' Just replaying, over and over again, making me sob heavily. I knew I had been kidding myself about, how I could survive with out him, but days felt like years and hours felt like months, how could time be so heartless to me. But he told me he couldn't survive without a world with out Bella, well that had been an obvious lie. But could I possibly survive my pointless lifeless life without out my own sun, without my own heart, I think not. What could I do?, he never did love me. I just happened to be a selfish pet of theirs, there useless ordinary girl thinking she had a family who cared as much as she did for them.
Edward's point of view
I couldn't take it any more; being away from my truly beloved Bella, it was well and truly killing me deep inside with every tick of the clock. Her soft red rosy embarrassed blush and cute pale soft warm skin touching my cold stone hand, with her own delicious scent rushing through my lips then down my throat, that I adored so much. I sitting impatiently in first class heading straight back to cloudy forks to beg her to even consider to take me back, with very much little hope on my side, in a fast white jumbo jet plane, suffering in my thoughts of her reactions to me. What if she does reject me, because eshe doesn't love me anymore, or has a incredible boyfriend that well and truly loves her as much as he's capable, as she with him. I would definitely deserve that, from all the agonizing pain caused by my selfishness in the first place. Somebody behind me hissed and slowly got out of there seat, a little pissed off. Oh dam, my stupid pen just rolled under his seat. she thought to herself, scanning the floor.
" Hello, sorry to disturb you, but I seemed to drop my pen, which kind of rolled under your seat." She had pale white skin with dark red eyes like a . . . a. . . vampire. . . She had shiny brown bouncy hair which curled round her back, with a thin curvy figure. Wow . she's extremely beautiful, and extra polite, she's perfect. Oh know, I was getting a crush on a girl who I barely knew, when I was about to beg for my unselfish ex-girlfriend to take me back. Why is he staring at me so funny? Because your extremely gorgeous and I'm also in love with you. Did I just think that? What? I pulled out the pen from under my seat slowly, without taking a look away from her perfect eyes.
" Thanks . . . Hey I'm Justine . . . And you?" she had an perfect angels voice, her lips looked so soft and comforting, moving with mine.
" I'm Edward. . . It's nice to meet you. . ." I had so many confessions to say to her, but that would properly scare her off. I'm in love you, but it still fell thing's for Bella obviously. But it could never of worked between a human and vampire though. She shook my hand and nodded politely.
" Hey. . . Your skin . . . Your. . .like me. . . " she stuttered, looking embarrassed. I nodded and smiled Bella's favourite crooked smile. We started to talk about our family and past to tense, which I found hers most exciting because she also received a special gift, like me; which was to make people think there seeing somebody dead, who they truly loved through there mind. I told her my special gift, which made her let out a massive grin, which brighten across her face like an perfect beautiful angel.