All my life, everything has been in secrecy.
As a ninja; secrecy is essential. You need to be soundless and untraceable; not giving away your position until the moment of attack. As a Hyuuga; secrecy is everywhere. We cannot let anyone know the truly barbaric inner workings of our society, where if you are not an asset for the leader of the clan, you are tossed aside and labelled as trash. As myself; a shy girl that is extremely guarded because she is afraid of what people truly think.
Everything in my life revolves around this simple trait.
Except him.
He amazes me, with loudness I find startling and yet reeling in for being brought up in such a quiet world. He cares what no ones thinks, with bright clothing as bright as his personality and bright blue eyes. The only time he cares about what everyone thinks is when they are assessing his power, and is not guarded with his words as he launches at anyone who questions him because of his short temper. He disgusts my household, from both his personality and being a Jinchuriki. Yet he does not disgust me, just the opposite really. I find myself unexplainably attracted to him.
So yet another aspect of secrecy is added to my life, as I bring in all my practice of the trait to use by following the loud boy, watching him for signs on how to let loose of it all like he does. I have learned little, but still I watch him, telling myself that it is merely curiosity and the will to learn how to be myself.
When he gets close to me, I feel at a loss for words, and my tongue and stomach are tied in knots that seem impossible to undo, and sometimes I get so dizzy I pass out. Still, he remains oblivious, much to my relief.
So, I continue to watch him, with eyes that see everything.
No one ever said obsession wasn't good for you.
Just because no one says it, doesn't mean it isn't true. A voice in my head speaks.
Shut up, I tell it, just shut up.
The voice chuckles, but says no more.
Stupid voice, all it does is doubt me.
Technically, I am you, so you doubt yourself.
I thought I told you to shut up!
You did, and now I am speaking again.
I mentally groan to myself, and resist the urge to smack my head against something.
Wait, I have voices in my head, which tell me they're me, and annoy me?
Hinata, you have sunk to a whole new level of insanity.
I look over at my team mates, which are watching me with curious glances. Well, Kiba is. You can never tell for Shino with those sunglasses of his.
I laugh nervously, trying to brush away their glances. Kiba raises an eyebrow, but turns around and says no more. Shino watches me for a moment longer, before he too turns around.
Maybe it's better to stay in secrecy. Then no one knows that you're crazy.