EMOTION

SUMMARY: Seth has always loved Jacob, but after he finally confesses; Jacob rejects him and the pack turns on him. Will Seth fall into despair or will his dreams come true? (Jacob/Seth- slash) also (Leah/Sam) and (Embry/Collin)

AUTHOR'S NOTE: This is my very first Twilight fan-fiction so I don't know if it's any good but I worked really hard on it. Please read and review and let me know what you think. Criticism is loved, as long as it's constructive.

SETTING AND CHARACTERS: The main focus of this story is (Seth/Jacob) and the Quileute characters. Breaking Dawn does not exist in this story (Let's burn every copy of that book!^^) This story takes place two years after Eclipse. The first chapter begins one year after Eclipse, and then the story continues in chapter two another year later. Basically, the majority takes place two years after Eclipse. Therefore, the characters' ages have been modified. Seth just turns seventeen and Jacob is nineteen. (Sorry, I know it is confusing but I'll explain later in the story) Furthermore, characters may be VERY different from their counterparts in the books in terms of personality and characterization. I changed many things about them to fit the story.

WARNING!!!!: The rating is categorized as (M) for homosexual material, language, alcohol use, sexual material and adult situations so if you are offended or disinterested in such material, please TURN BACK NOW.

DISCLAIMER: Unfortunately, I don't own the Twilight saga, or any of the elements associated with it. If I did, Breaking Dawn would have NEVER happened, the Quileute wolf pack would have THEIR OWN SPIN OFF SERIES, there would be NO SUCH THING as imprinting and most importantly; JACOB AND SETH WOULD HAVE ENDED UP TOGETHER, hahaha. ^_^

Main Cast: Seth Clearwater, Jacob Black, Leah Clearwater, Sue Clearwater, Collin, Sam Uley, Embry Call

Supporting Cast: Bella Swan, Emily Young, Quil Ateara Jr, Jared, Paul, Brady, Kim Connweller, Rachel Black, Claire, Billy Black, Quil Ateara Sr, Charlie Swan, (unnamed wolves from BD): Logan, Elijah, Michael, Kyle, Wyatt, Nathan, Trent (I wanted to give them names because it always pissed me off that SM couldn't be bothered to give them names, but she named all the vampires. Also, I know they didn't appear until "breaking dawn" but I want to include them here anyway.)

Special Guests: The Cullens?... maybe? (undecided) I'm not sure yet because I really just want to focus on the Quileute. (Yes I'm biased, I know ^^)

Chapter One

ONE YEAR AFTER "ECLISPE"

Seth looked out from the window, taking in the orange setting sun and the dark amber sky that would soon bring in the twilight. Seth looked absentmindedly over his shoulder to see Jacob striking poses while looking in the mirror, his open laptop blasting loud music while he rapped along to the perverse lyrics. Seth laughed to himself. He originally came over to help Jacob pack for his departure for college in the morning but so far they hadn't got much done.

Seth raked his hands through his short raven hair, although his hair was getting past his ears now and he knew he would have to cut it very soon. Turning to Jacob, he started giggling again at the sight as Jacob continued striking poses as he looked at himself in the mirror, flexing his muscles like he was a weight lifter. Seth rolled his eyes as he thought how Jacob could probably give even a professional weight lifter a run for their money. Jacob noticed Seth giggling and smiled at him as he walked over to him. As Seth took in the sight of Jacob, shirtless and muscled, sweat glistening on his russet skin , his short raven black hair spiked up and that cocky and yet kind smile, Seth began feeling his blush creep into his cheeks. Seth knew he shouldn't be having thoughts of his best friend in this way, but at the same time he's been telling himself this for years now. Jacob approached closer and closer to Seth until he had Seth backed against the dresser, their chests touching and Seth could almost feel the heat radiating off of Jacob's bare chest. Seth gulped as Jacob reach out to him.

"J..Jake?" Seth questioned nervously, but before he could say anything else, Jacob reached over Seth's shoulder and grabbed something from the dresser behind Seth. Pulling his hand back, Jacob revealed what he had grabbed. It was a black tee and he quickly pulled it over his head to cover himself up.

"Oh..uh…a tee shirt..um…" Seth stuttered, feeling stupid and embarrassed at thinking his darkest fantasy was about to come true. Jacob smirked at Seth, playfully ruffling the younger man's hair.

"Gotta cover myself up, don't I? Don't want you gawking at me all day or we'll never get anything done." Jacob said chuckling with his husky voice.

"Me?" Seth whined. " You're the one showing off in the mirror. Shouldn't you finish packing before tomorrow morning?" Seth asked incredulously. Jacob started laughing as he pushed Seth playfully.

"I guess you're right."Jacob said as he returned to his luggage which was on his bed, as he began to randomly pull clothes from his closet and stuff them messily into his bags.

As Seth turned back to looking out of the window he smiled to himself, memories of the sixteen years of his life creeping up and pulling him back through all of his emotions and experiences in a mere few seconds. He felt himself straining to keep a smile on his face as the many beautiful and painful memories of the previous sixteen years flashed before his eyes. From his early days as a child, playing with his best friend Jacob to the day he first transformed into a wolf and lost his father to the day that he fought alongside his fellow pack mates and the Cullens against Victoria's army up to today.

Seth walked back and forth from the closet to the bed, helping Jacob put more clothes into his bags, all the while trying to keep a smile on his face. Seth realized that this day would have come sooner or later. But it seemed to have come all too quickly for Seth. It had been a year. One whole year since Victoria and her army of newborns were defeated and Jacob had run away after the battle. However, after Bella and Edward had postponed any talk about marriage, Jacob returned. Seth later learned that it was because Bella had written Jacob begging him to come home. After Jacob returned, he continued his senior year at the reservation high school and now Jacob was eighteen and had just graduated from high school. Today, Seth could never have been more proud of his best friend as he prepared to head off for college, however, being sixteen, Seth felt sad at being only a sophomore and feeling left behind in school without Jacob there with him. Still, Seth couldn't have been happier for Jacob, but he couldn't help a small part of his heart from breaking at the thought of losing his best friend. He knew Jacob would be back someday but Seth couldn't shake the feeling that after today, he would lose his best friend.

"Gosh, I can't believe this is actually happening." Seth said in quiet voice. Jacob, who was busy stuffing his clothes into various suitcases stopped and looked up from his current task and studied Seth, who had drifted back to his solitary place at the window. All of a sudden, Jacob felt a bit remorseful for the entire situation. He remembered the day he had told Seth he was going away to college. Jacob had been so excited and the entire pack as well as other friends and families from the rez threw a party for him, but Jacob could clearly see how much the news of him going away was hurting Seth, even though Seth tried to hide it with his smile. Jacob felt a need and a desire to touch his friend, to embrace him and comfort him.

"Seth, you okay?" Jacob asked, walking over to Seth. Seth just laughed nervously, trying to hide his watery eyes.

"Of course. It's just…well, you're going off to college." Seth answered. Seth hung his head low, blinking furiously to keep the tears from coming from his eyes. Seth would never admit it, but he made a conscious effort to keep his tears out of sight around his fellow pack mates, including Jacob, even if he was his best friend. Seth just didn't like to be seen as the weakest, but Seth couldn't help the emotions he felt bubbling inside of him. He knew Jake wanted to go to college, but a part of Seth didn't want to let go of his friend.

"You know, it's funny. I wasn't even sure if I wanted to go to school." Jacob said, laughing as he scratched his head. This made Seth perk up with interest. He never thought he would hear Jacob say that and in a way, it gave him hope that Jacob may not leave.

"Really? But…what about football?" Seth asked curiously. Seth knew how much Jacob loved football. Jacob had played all throughout his high school career and it was one of the sole reasons that made him so popular at school and on the rez, besides being one of the best mechanics on the rez and the alpha of an entire pack of shape-shifting wolves.

"Well, honestly I always thought I would just have my fun with it while it lasted in high school. Then after graduation, I figured me and the guys would open that mechanic garage Quil and I always talked about." Jacob explained.

"Yeah, I remember Sam always talking about how much money there was to be made in a garage, especially here on the rez." Seth agreed, reminiscing back on the many times Quil and Jacob would talk about their future mechanic business.

"Yeah…but Bella kept ranting my ear off about how these are the best years of my life and I should see what else the world has to offer me outside of the rez." Jacob said.

At the mention of Bella, Seth felt like a deep hole was growing in the pit of his stomach.

"What's wrong with the rez?" Seth asked.

"What's not wrong with it?" Jacob countered, cocking an eyebrow up challengingly, smiling his cocky and yet adorable smile at Seth. Seth blushed involuntarily, trying to find the right words to counter Jacob's question.

"Well….. I know it's not perfect here but…it's still our home, I mean, we grew up here. Besides, there's a community college right here in Forks, how come you want to go all the way to Seattle? You can just go to school right here." Seth questioned. Seth knew he must sound pathetically desperate but he just couldn't understand why Jacob wanted to go and be so far away from his home…so far away from him.

"Guess I just want a change after everything that's happened these past few years. Besides, Bella's going to Seattle too. She even found some scholarships for me. It's amazing how much money people throw at you for an athletic scholarship." Jacob answered, shrugging the question off.

"So…um….you and…uh...Bella…… are friends again?" Seth inquired, trying his best to mask the emotions in his voice and his face. Jacob's face hardened a bit, as he felt his frustrations at his relationship with Bella, boil inside of him.

"Well….more or less. We're just hanging out a bit these days. Besides, it's never as if she would really date me anyway. She says she loves me, but all she wants is friendship. Though, I'm starting to get the feeling that whenever that asshole Cullen isn't fucking her, that's the only time she runs to me. I don't know…I mean…you know more than anyone I've liked her forever but……" Jacob explained, his hardened facial expression never fading as he turned back to his luggage, harshly shoving clothes into his luggage. Seth continued to stare at Jacob. Seth hated seeing Jacob like this, but he felt like it wasn't his place to say too much regarding Jacob's relationship with Bella.

As pleasant and kind as Bella seemed to be, Seth hated to admit to himself how much he felt like she had stolen his dreams. Seth knew this was a silly and immature thought, and he would never even voice this aloud, but if there was one day in history that Seth wishes he could forget, it would be the day that Bella moved to Forks. Growing up with Jacob, Seth had heard about Bella in passing since her and Jacob had been friends as kids, but Seth had never met her in person back then. Not until a year after she had moved back to Forks. Seth knew that Jacob had always had a thing for the pale skinned brunette but he never thought much of it until Bella returned to Forks and Jacob couldn't stop talking about her. It always worried Seth because deep down in his heart, he held a secret that he had been trying to keep from Jacob since they were kids.

Seth felt his heart rate quicken as he thought back on his friendship with Jacob. A friendship that for all intents and purposes seemed quite normal on the surface, but held so much more meaning than anyone could ever fathom. Seth knew he and Jacob's friendship was special, far beyond the friendship between average companions. Seth wasn't even sure when exactly when it had happened but he was sure of when he had realized it. When Seth was ten and Jacob twelve years old, they were having one of their weekly sleepovers and as Seth laid next to Jacob, Jacob, wrapped his arms around Seth and pulled him close. Jacob always told Seth that he was protecting the younger boy while he slept. But Seth never minded, in fact; he loved this feeling of being loved and cared for by the one person he loved more than all others. That night, watching Jacob sleep, Seth felt this urge to hug Jacob tighter and place his lips against Jacob's. Seth knew in that moment as he began to cry that he was in love with his best friend, and had always been. He knew for sure that he had always been attracted to the older man , even when they were kids. But he had never fully understood how much he actually loved Jacob until that night. Shaking his head to rid himself of such selfish thoughts, Seth turned back to Jacob, concern written clear across his face.

"Jake…you know I don't mean to pry but..um…I don't know…I just……." Seth began in a quiet voice but he trailed doff, not really knowing what to say. His inner voice was screaming for him to admit that he disliked Bella because he was jealous of the place she held in Jacob's heart. But how could he say that? Besides, it was much more than that. Seth didn't like seeing Jacob give his everything for Bella and still she always treated Jacob like second best. Seth felt Jacob was far too good for Bella and didn't deserve to be used and shunned that way. But Seth refrained from voicing these thoughts, however it was much harder for him to keep the sadness from breaking through his voice and showing in his eyes. Unfortunately, Jacob could see right through Seth's façade.

"Seth, what is it?" Jacob asked, losing his previous anger and frustrations, as he turned his attention away from his bags and back to Seth. Seth sighed heavily.

"Jake….it's just..…every time you give Bella a chance, she ends up hurting you. I know you really like her and all but if you keep giving your heart to her, then she's going to keep stomping on it…..and I…I just don't like seeing you hurt." Seth spoke, lowering his head not wanting to see Jacob angry at him for saying that. "I'm sorry. It's not my place." Seth apologized, but to the young man's surprise he heard Jacob chuckle. Looking up, he noticed Jacob was closer to him now, standing right beside him, but turned toward to the window just gazing out at the twilight sky.

"It's okay Seth. I know you're right. It's just…ever since our dad's introduced us, I liked her. I mean, I just knew that things could be great between Bella and I. She's that dream girl that every guy fantasizes about. She's beautiful, caring, and I can really see us having a future together, but that future always seems bleak whenever she tells me that she's going back to her real boyfriend. She's so hot and cold with me all the time. It's like one minute she wants me, the next minute she wants nothing to do with me. …..she's so damn indecisive." Jacob explained.

"You mean Edward?" Seth asked as he recalled the reason for Bella begging for Jacob to come back. It was because she was still somewhat torn about who she truly loved, and therefore her and Edward came to the compromise that they would take things slow until she figured things out.

"That Bastard." Jacob cursed, slamming his fist into the wall, making Seth jump.

"Jake…" Seth began but stopped as he found no proper words to voice what he really wanted to say. Looking toward Seth, Jacob's eyes widened as he realized he had frightened Seth and Jacob's face softened as he took Seth's hand in his own gently.

"I'm sorry Seth." Jacob apologized, his voice gentle. Seth's heart sped up at the physical contact. He felt butterflies fluttering in the pit of his stomach at the touch of Jacob holding his hand. Jacob's rough and strong hands, gripping onto Seth's softer and smaller hand.

"It's…um…it's al……It's alright." Seth stuttered out as he felt his cheeks warm up at Jacob's touch. Seth quickly turned back to the window, pulling his hand back. He knew he wanted to hold on more but this was just another example of how different and special their friendship was. It always seemed to be more underneath the surface, and Seth knew this. He knew how in love Jacob was with Bella, but still Jacob always showed such a gentle caring for Seth, as if he broke all the rules just to show Seth special attention. Focusing on the scene outside of the window, Seth stared out into the ever growing purple sky as the sun had just set, and darkness was rising, but yet the afternoon light was still present, giving the world a nostalgic mood.

"Seth…what's wrong?" Jacob asked with concern. Jacob stepped closer to Seth, wanting so much to hug his friend and comfort him. The cocky teenage jerk inside of Jacob that still lingered in the back of his mind from his adolescent days was taunting him how gay it was to hold Seth like this, but Jacob always pushed those thoughts away for Seth because to Jacob, Seth had always been different. Seth had always been special. Even the other guys in the pack would make fun of Seth for being such a girl for being the weakest and for the special attention Jacob would give Seth, but Jacob always ignored those words because to him, when he and Seth were together, they were just in their own little world and this affection was pure and natural despite them both being guys.

Seth, finding the courage to look at Jacob again, turned away from the window to his friend who towered over him. A smile graced Seth's lips at looking up at Jacob. He practically had to crane his neck up to see Jacob's face fully, and Jacob smiled back down at him sweetly.

"Jake…it's nothing. Nothing is wrong Jake. Please…just…don't worry about me. I mean, this…this is your moment…you know…..your time. I'm just so happy for you. I'm really proud of you." Seth encourage, blinking his eyes rapidly as they begun to sting with the onset of unshed tears as he was reminded that this might be one of the very few last time they will get to spend together like this. Seth tried so hard to turn away and hide his tears, but Jacob would not allow it. It hurt Jacob to see Seth like this and he grabbed Seth by the waist and turned the younger man back around to face him.

"Seth, look at me." Jacob said, taking hold of Seth's chin and gently lifting it up so the younger man was looking up at him.

"I'm just going to miss you a lot." Seth said, feeling his heart grow heavy with the realization that he wouldn't be able to see Jacob or talk to him or hang out with him like he used to. It began to settle into Seth's mind that this would change everything.

"I'll miss you too. But we'll still call each other." Jacob assured Seth. Jacob's heart began to feel heavy. He wanted this step to happened, he knew this step had to happen sometime. He wanted to go away to school and start new and forget about the hurt and pain of the past three years but it was hurting him more realizing that he was causing someone else pain. Seth, his best friend, the one who was always there for him.

"Still….it won't be the same." Seth mentioned, looking down at shoes.

"Seth…" Jacob began but couldn't find the words, as he saw the sadness in Seth's eyes.

"Just…if you make lots of new friends and stuff….try not to forget about me." Seth mumbled. Jacob was at a loss for words as his jaw dropped.

"Does he really think I would leave him and do that to him?" Jacob thought.

"Seth, how could you think something like that? I would never ever forget you. How could I? You're my best friend Seth, no one could ever replace you." Jacob said with determination as he stared into Seth's eyes, trying to convince the younger man. Seth smiled at the sincerity and meaning in Jacob's words.

"But what if I call and text you every day, will you then get tired of me?" Seth tried to tease, trying to lighten up as he furiously wiped away the tears on his wet cheeks. Jacob chuckled, his low husky voice sending shutters through Seth.

"Seth, of course not. Although, it won't be the same. I'm going to miss having a puppy dog follow me around all the time." Jacob teased, holding on to Seth by his arms.

"Jake!" Seth whined, pouting out his cheeks playfully. Jacob laughed at Seth's cute features and felt his heart grow lighter.

"Did I really just think of Seth as cute? I can't think of my friend like this but..I can't help it…he's just do damn cute when he's like this." Jacob thought, snickering to himself. Jacob took a hold of Seth's waist and pulled the younger man in for a hug, wrapping his strong arms around his best friend.

"I'm just kidding. Seth, I would never forget you, you know that." Jacob assured Seth, holding him tight.

"You promise?" Seth asked feeling warmth spread through him as he laid against Jacob's strong muscled chest. Seth felt so happy at being in these safe and loving arms, but sadness at the thought that these hugs would soon become few and far between. Jacob lowered his lips to Seth's ear.

"You're the best Seth, don't you ever forget that." Jacob whispered into Seth's ear, hugging Seth tighter.

"Thanks Jake." Seth spoke softly as they stayed like that for awhile, both sharing unspoken words just through their embrace. Seth knew in his heart that Jacob had only one person in his heart and it was a girl named Bella Swan. This, Seth could not change. He knew that Jacob was strictly a straight man and only broke the rules of affection for him because they were best friends and knew each other inside and out. Seth knew that no matter what, Jacob could never fully comprehend just how much Seth loved him, even if it continued to kill him to not be able to say anything and Seth new above all else he could never really tell Jacob how he truly felt. Their friendship would never survive it and Jacob meant too much to Seth for him to risk what they had. But despite all these things that Seth knew, he accepted the fact that he was still blessed and lucky enough to have Jacob in his life at all, even if it was just as a friend, and he was forever grateful that he had a guy like Jacob Black to call his best friend.

AUTHOR'S NOTE: This chapter was supposed to be very short, but I have this frustrating tendency to over elaborate things. This scene is very special and important and for canonical purposes, I couldn't shove this scene in with the next chapter because this chapter occurs one year after "Eclipse", just before Jake leaves for college. The next chapter will take place one year after this, after Jacob returns home from his first year of college. I hope I'm not confusing you, hahaha. ^^ Anyway, I hope you enjoyed. Please read and review, and let me know what you think. Criticism is loved, as long as its constructive. And if you have any suggestions or things you would like to see in the story, please let me know. Thank you so much for reading.