All love shifts and changes. I don't know if you can be wholeheartedly in love all the time.
Julie AndrewsAll love shifts and changes. I don't know if you can be wholeheartedly in love all the time.
-Julie Andrews
Natsume's loss.
Chapter 1
"What did you say happened to your alice?"
A masculine voice asked. Her eyes voluntarily opened wide with shock. She tilted her head and forced a smile and there he was.
He sat on the branch of the tree as his thoughts trailed to a certain brunette. He thought about the girl with her smiles annoying him to no end. He heaved a sigh.
Mikan…He scowled at the thought of her name. His eyes penetrating which ever direction he was looking at. But soon his eyes softened as he remembered what took place below this tree a few hour ago.
"What did you say happened to your alice?" he asked the girl.
"Nothing." She answered back trembling out of nervousness.
He knew she lied to him. He heard what she said a few minutes before he disturbed her. This day just came too soon. He couldn't deny the feelings he felt right now. Anger, pain, sadness and…
Love.
He wasn't able to help himself. The girl has grown more beautiful since they first met. She has laid back her hair that beautifully framed her face that has grown more mature but still very dazzling. Each of her smile had somehow been sending him messages that he could not fully understand.
"Do you plan on telling your friends anytime soon?" he asked her again.
"Yeah, why do you think I won't?" she asked teary eyed.
"Cause you don't want them to get hurt." He stated simply.
He felt unsure of her answer. "Will she really tell them." It wasn't a question nor a statement but it was simply said to the wind. He felt troubled. He knew his feelings but unsure of what to do with them. What pained him more was that he left her in pain to think about what he was feeling.
She stared at him while clutching her chest. A bead of sweat trickled down her cheek as she held that painful expression. She couldn't move and he did not do anything to help. She let out a small scream which was nearly unnoticeable and started dragging herself away from him.
He clutched his fist trying to control his anger. He cared too much for his pride to stop himself from helping her and now regret is taking over him.
"Why didn't you help her?" asked a voice.
He looked down and saw him. His best friend with that rabbit of his.
"Ruka, Do you think she will tell anyone about it?" he asked in almost a whisper.
"I'm not sure." He said as he sat below him. "Do you intend to tell her before she leaves?"
"Maybe." He stated simply and leaped off the branch. He put his hands in his pants and started walking away for more thinking leaving Ruka on the hang.
Words were never spoken…
But actions said it all
Ruka stayed under the tree after Natsume left. He looked down and watched the rabbit playing, to forget his thoughts about a certain brunette. It was shocking when he heard the news from a little squirrel. It was worse when he found out what Natsume did.
He knew of his best friend's feelings for the brunette. He understood his confusion. He also fell for the said girl but has long given up on it knowing she liked someone else. He tried remembering when she told him about it.
"Ruka-pyon?" her younger voice asked.
"Yes Mikan?" his voice asked back.
" Do you think If I ever tell Natsume I love him, would he take me seriously?" the girl asked as she looked straight into his eyes.
That day he felt heart-broken but it soon passed when he found a new fascination for another girl. The girl that always remained unnoticeable, unapproachable but always stayed beautiful.
Hotaru…will you change after she goes away?
He was worried not only about Hotaru and Mikan but everyone. Things will change when she goes away, that was certain. He knew he did not love Mikan but losing a person like her was very hard. He couldn't help but think about Natsume. It was far more painful for him than anyone of us.
"Ruka!" a voice interrupted him.
He looked up and saw no other than a breathless Iinchou and Her.
"Imai-san, Iinchou? Why are you here?" he asked from his sitting position.
"It's Mikan." Iinchou answered as calmly as possible.
And helped me understand…
That not everything was meant to be lost
She slowly opened her eyes. Everything was blurry but after a few seconds it cleared up. She looked around and saw her best friend beside her , Iinchou in front of her and Ruka-pyon on her other side.
"What happened?" she asked while rubbing her eyes with her hands.
"The doctor said it was because you have already overused your alice." Hotaru said still as emotionless as ever but much colder than the usual. Her eyes opened wide in shock.
"Mikan-chan?" Yuu's voice interrupted her and gave her a very worried glance.
"I was going to tell you but the pain got the better of me." She whispered as she lowered her face hiding her tears.
"When? When you were leaving?" the girl said still with no emotions.
"Just like what you did?" She snapped back a bit cold.
"Ruka wanna go outside?" Yuu Interrupted feeling the discomfort in the air.
"Yeah!" Ruka answered back. He knew what Yuu meant by doing that.
"Look Hotaru I'm sorry…I was on my way to your room when I fainted, I guess." She said wiping the tears away from her brow.
"Idiot you were already in pain but you decided to ignore it." She stated a bit angrily.
"It wasn't my fault, I only found out about it yesterday." She said pleadingly and did not dare look at Hotaru.
"I'm not mad Mikan. Why didn't you tell me right away?" She said calming the other girl down. Her eyes softened as the brunette just gave a weak smile.
"I was a bit confused first." She said while scratching her head and letting out a small giggle.
"Hey Hotaru?" she asked and received a simple nod as an answer.
"What do you think will happen to all of you when I leave?" she asked.
"Life here will change and were not sure what we will do, not right now anyway." Along silence enveloped them after that was said.
"When will you leave?" Hotaru asked out of the blue.
"Two days from now." She answered and started feeling weak again. A knock was heard and the doctor appeared by the door.
"Visiting hours over." He stated and started walking away revealing another person behind him.
"Natsume?" she said to no one. She focused on the person and saw two flaming ruby eyes staring at her.
Hotaru stood up and left her when she noticed Mikan was in her own world again.
Cause your actions found me…
And my words are here for you
He was pacing around his room. He looked at the clock and saw that it was already midnight and decided that it was now or never. He jumped out his window and stealth -fully ran through the campus and stopped when he reached the window of a certain hospital room. He looked up and saw that the patient of that room was still awake.
"Still awake aren't you Mikan?" he said as a devilish smirk played on his lips.
To comfort you …
and let you know I love you…
She couldn't sleep and so decided to leave the light open. She couldn't stop thinking of random subjects but mainly about her future and everyone else's. She tried closing her eyes but thought just kept disturbing her. She opened her eyes and in front of her appeared dancing balls of fire. There was only one person arrogant enough to show off like that and in the middle of the night.
"Natsume! What are you doing here?" She half screamed as she opened her window looking for the young teen.
"Little girl up here." His voice said. She looked up and there he was standing on top of the three one floor taller than her room. "What are you doing up there Natsume?" she asked in a whisper not wanting to wake anyone.
"Move away from the window sill." He commanded. Mikan just followed knowing best not to anger him. He jumped off the tree and landed safely on the smooth floor of her room.
"They do say cats always land on their feet." She said and giggled at her own remark.
"Whatever." He said in an annoyed tone.
"So why you here Natsume?" she asked as he looked at her. He still wore that devlish smirk of his that made Mikan a bit uncomfortable.
"I was…" He started and suddenly pinned her to the wall. "gonna do this." He said smoothly and stared at her. She couldn't utter a word. She was too shocked by his sudden action.
"Mikan?" he asked in a whisper.
"Natsume?" she asked back a little timidly.
"I Love you." He said and she was dumbfounded.
Why did this happen only now?
Why today…
Just when you said "I love you".
Winter fall: Sorry if some of you got confused! My friend uploaded this chapter but accidentally deleted my previous one . Damn him! Oh well still here I edited it! Sorry for the inconvenience! Any way hope you still review! This will now only be a three-chapter story, I will update soon! Please review!