Clarity Chapter 1, a card captor sakura fanfic

Author's notes: I don't own Card Captor Sakura. The song Clarity belongs to Zedd and its better if you listen to the piano version of it than the original one that's why I made this story.

Dearest Kay-kun,

You know even in dreams you still haunt me. I couldn't imagine that you would chase me there. Hahaha. Just kidding. You know naito-kun you would always be my Eriol Hiiragizawa in a flesh one who is always thrifty with words. Hahaha. Do not worry I do not imagine myself as Tomoyo Daidouji. I'm not wealthy. I don't have a good voice. I don't get a straight A in my card but you are very workaholic and Eriol-kun is like that. Gomen…I dream too much that sometimes it hurts. If it's for you I guess it's okay. I know at the end of the day you would always be there for me. Arigatou na naito-kun.

Itsumo,

Hime

Tomoyo Daidouji sighed again looking at the lyrics in her notebook. Five years had passed since Eriol left Japan and study in England again. She wanted to be a singer one day, that's what she told him and he had put melody on the first song that she wrote, the same notebook that she held onto five years ago.

Looking outside in the Daidouji mansion she was apparently waiting for Touya Kinomoto, Sakura's elder brother. She didn't know what made her decide to sing the song again. She vowed she never wanted to do anything when it comes to the blue-eyed boy that she had adored long ago.

Adored is such a strong word. Nevertheless the words falling in love too. Another sigh was escaping her lips. If not for him this song would never have its own melody.

"Yo kiddo!" a voice said from behind. She looked around and saw Touya Kinomoto looking handsome as ever as if he hasn't aged through the years. It was a miracle as what Sakura told her that she and her elder brother would be so close. Her excuse was he is the only one who can play piano aside from that blue-eyed boy.

"Touya-niichan", Tomoyo began. At first it was awkward calling him "Touya-niichan". It was supposed to be a teasing remark but as time goes by Touya had gotten used to her calling him that. He saluted.

"Am I late?" he said as he messes her hair fondly, one of the gestures that Touya always used on her. She laughed softly.

"Iie. I was just looking and staring out at the window", she replied as they went to the piano that was in the room.

"Thinking of him again kiddo?" Touya asked as he opened the piano. Tomoyo leaned on it and smile wryly.

"I hate it that you can see right through me".

"Oh please aside from my dearest sister who is head over heels with that little brat", he began as he opened the piano. "Knowing you for these past few years made me realized that somehow I get to see the depth of your feelings".

"Uh~huh you and your speech Touya-niichan", she replied as they both laughed. He didn't have to look at her as he sat down and glide his fingers on the piano.

"You are still in love with him aren't you?" she cupped her right cheek and places a smile on her delicate face.

"Oh you knew? Who told you? I didn't even know about that".

"For a girl who will sing the song of the guy who made a melody to her lyrics I doubted that the girl is still in love with him". Touya looked at her a smile on his face. "It's okay Tomoyo. I understand".

"Arigatou na Touya-niichcan", was all she could say her face blushing.

"Shall we sing your composition then?" Touya said. She nodded.

Tomoyo Daidouji was in first year high school and she was glad that she was still classmates with Sakura Kinomoto along with her grade five school mates. Li Syaoran, Sakura's love interest decided to study in Japan which she knew made Sakura happy. And she knew she had to be happy for her. Whatever she feels for her second degree cousin and best friend she knew she had to just let her go.

High dive into frozen waves where the past comes back to life
Fight fear for the selfish pain, it was worth it every time
Hold still right before we crash 'cause we both know how this ends
A clock ticks 'til it breaks your glass and I drown in you again

She was apparently busy writing something in her notebook that she didn't even noticed that Tereda-sensei, now a high school adviser, had introduced someone to class. All she could hear were the "Ohhs and ahhs" in the room. She was not the type of person to get interested on things or persons that easily especially if it's not Sakura.

"I'm sure my grade five students knew who this handsome young man be", Terada said as he could see some of the girls eyes were in heart shape already. "Eriol Hiiragizawa. A transfer student from England". Eriol took a bow as Terada was looking for a seat for him. "Ah you can sit right next to Daidouji-san, Hiiragizawa-kun".

"Hai sensei", Eriol said his blue eyes were on the raven haired lass. She had grown to be beautiful now. Was all Eriol could think of. Tomoyo was still busy writing something in her notebook when she sensed a certain presence stopped in front of her. "Hisashiburi desu Daidouji-san".

"E-Ehh?" her amethyst eyes looked up and were greeted with warm blue eyes. She blinked her eyes. "A-Anou…namae wa?" the class started to laugh as she had the grace to blush. "G-Gomen I was busy with something".

"Trust Daidouji-san to always be busy and always a straight A student", Tereda began, shaking his head. "Want me to introduce him again?"

"A-Anou…"she looked at him again. His face was apparently familiar to her. Where did I saw him before? Blue eyes…before she knew it Eriol had apparently kneeled down in front of her that made the girls shriek. And then without further ado took her hand and kissed it. Memories when they were in grade five came rushing back in an instant.

"I hope you do remember me Daidouji-san. I always read your letters". When he stood up he smiled at her one that nearly made her cheeks flush.

"E-Eriol Hiiragizawa-kun".

'Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn't need
Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don't know why
If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

She wasn't expecting that she and him will get close. Close enough that they shared some secrets that somehow she'll never tell Sakura. That day they were headed to the music room as they met Sakura and Syaoran along the way. "Tomoyo-chan".

"S-Sakura-chan", Tomoyo said with a smile. "Going home?" the card mistress of long ago smiled happily at her.

"Haaiii~aren't you going home too? We can go together if you like", her cousin replied. The raven haired shook her head.

"I can't for the moment. Hiiragizawa-kun promised me he'll play a song before we go home so", her eyes softened and looked at Syaoran. "Syaoran will do. As usual". Sakura pouted.

"All right then maybe next time?"

"Hai. Next time will do", said Tomoyo. Syaoran's amber eyes turned to Eriol. "Hiiragizawa make sure you escort Tomoyo home okay?"

"That's a piece of cake for me my cute descendant". Syaoran rolled his eyes, smiling.

"You never change". Putting an arm on Sakura's shoulder and turning to leave he added, "We're going".

"Take care", said Tomoyo and Eriol in unison. Tomoyo didn't have to look at Eriol as she added, "Let's go Hiiragizawa-kun". She entered the music room as Eriol trailed after her but before she could go far he had already grabbed her wrist. "N-Nani?"

"You don't have to pretend", was all the blue-haired boy could say. "If it hurts then you just have to cry".

"You gotta be joking. Crying is for the weak", Tomoyo said as her head slowly turned away, biting her lower lip. Why does he always see right through me? Before she even knew it the mage had already pulled her to him in embrace without her knowing that she was already crying.

"It's okay to cry. It always means you were strong enough and handled the pain well", Eriol said in a whisper, his arms around her. "I've known you through your letters and I felt that I could see right through you even if Sakura can't".

"Eriol…Eriol…"she began sobbing, burying her face in his chest and lightly hits it. "I hate you…I hate you…"his arms around her waist tightened.

"I understand Tomoyo".

Walk on through a red parade and refuse to make amends
It cuts deep through our ground and makes us forget all common sense
Don't speak as I try to leave 'cause we both know what we'll choose
If you pull then I'll push too deep and I'll fall right back to you

How he made her trust him so well that she doesn't know. Slowly and surely she had let go of the feelings she held for her dear cherry blossom. Ever since that fateful incident in the music room on how Eriol had calmed her feelings and how she opened up to him changed for the better. She was thinking to finish her lyrics and wanted to ask Eriol's help by putting melody in her lyrics. When their dismissal bell had ring she turned to him with a smile on her face. "Eriol-kun I have a favor to ask".

"Oh? Anything for you my dear Princess, I'll do anything", Eriol replied as he put some notebooks in his bag. She laughed softly.

"Stop teasing will you? Your fan girls will kill me", she said smiling. Eriol looked at her. He knew she wasn't faking her smiles unlike she used to.

"Not if I can help it". He carried his back pack on his shoulder and tilts his head. "Nani desu ka Tomoyo-san?" she blushed before she even replied.

"I wanted to finish the song I made a long time ago. I hope you can put melody in my song?" she blushed more as Eriol smiled at her.

"I will my Princess but not now though. I got a visitor". He kissed her forehead lightly as she blinked her eyes. He was about to leave.

"V-Visitor? One of your fan girls?" she laughed on her statement but stopped laughing when she heard his reply.

"Iie. It's Kaho Mizuki".

Three is a crowd. Just when she had started to be comfortable with Eriol's company she knew she had to step back when Kaho Mizuki arrived. She sighed. It was not easy to be alone. I've never felt so alone in my whole life before. She sighed as she was done writing her lyrics one that inspired her because of Sakura and the rest was because of Eriol. I guess I'll just ask Touya-niichan to put melody in it.

"There you are". Upon hearing that familiar voice she looked to who it was that entered the music room. "I've been looking all over for you".

"I-I was finishing my lyrics", she replied as Eriol sat right in front of her. "You needed something from me?"

"You", Eriol began as he pinched her nose fondly. "Had been avoiding me for the past few weeks and days if I remember correctly".

"T-That's absurd. That didn't even cross my mind", Tomoyo said praying that she can pretend one more time.

"Did something happen?" she shook her head. "Tomoyo…"

"I feel like I wanna be alone for a while". He sighed hearing her reply. Seeing her notebook he grabbed it from the table. "E-Eriol!" his eyes scanned to the lyrics then his eyes turned to her.

"Tomoyo-san are you in love?"

"Iie!" she replied without thinking twice. "I just felt like writing one". A smirk was playing on his lips as he stood up.

"A promise is a promise. I will put melody to this. Give me time. Okay?" And what broke her heart more is that he couldn't see through her lies, not anymore…

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

Why are you my clarity?

Someone had applauded as she sang the last line of the song. She and Touya looked to where the source was. It was Sakura nonetheless with Syaoran next to her. "Your voice never fail to amaze me", Sakura began.

"What are you doing here?" Tomoyo asked as Touya began to cover the piano.

"Nii-chan told me he'll be visiting here and we thought we'll dropped by".

"Along with a surprise", Syaoran said, winking. Tomoyo chuckled.

"My dear Syaoran I'm too old for surprises. What's on your sleeves neh?" before the two could reply they stepped aside as Eriol Hiiragizawa came forward, smiling at her. "H-Hiiragizawa-kun".

"Long time no see Tomoyo-san".

To be continued…