A/N: hey everyone! Wuzzup? Here is another of my poems... hope you like it.
It's about SesshouMaru as a boy and what he feels as he grows up. For all
those who have no idea what Inuyasha is.. don't bother reading this..(I'm
talking mostly about my poet friends on this site. Even though this is a
poem, it doesn't mean you'll understand it. It's good anyway!) But to all
that do understand... please R&R! w/love, Sakka
(P.S.: if you cannot stand angstness, depression, and slight romance, don't
torture yourself and read this. I wrote this extremely sad fic because that
is how I think SesshouMaru feels and lives his life. If that ISN'T how he
feels then, I'll be darned!! He sure is good at hiding his true feelings!
hehe... whelps enjoy!)
How do you feel?
"How do you feel?"
She asked me as she held me
Her calm amber eyes looked to the sky
Her scent soothed me
And I was glad
To have her as my mother
"I am... happy." I reply.
I look to her smiling
Wishing with all my heart
She will always be there
For me like this
Because I love her
How do you feel?
These four pleasant words
Imprinted in my mind
I will never forget
And I don't want it
To go away and leave me
How do you feel?
I hear those words
Everyday as I grow older
My dear sweet mother
Watching and comforting me
With her kind smile
How do you feel?
But alas, some things
Just don't last
My mother reminds me
As the days grow colder
And I grow weary
How do you feel?
She was alone
All by herself
Without me by her side
When she fell down and closed
Her eyes for the last time
How do you feel?
Humans had surrounded her
I heard her scream
And I rushed to her side
But to no avail
She was already gone
"How do you feel?"
My father asks of me
As he stands beside
Her grave, not looking at me
But down at her final
Resting place calm but sad
How do you feel?
I run those words through
My mind again, words I
Will never hear from someone
Like her because those words
Died along with her
How do you feel?
The pain runs deep
As my eyes close tightly
And I do not answer
Because it hurts too much
But my father understands
How do you feel?
I remember her face
So beautiful it was in
The sunlight and moonlight
Her voice was soothing to the
Ear and her touch so calm
How do you feel?
I will never forget her
But it is the same with
The pain I feel and
I do not wish to feel
This ever again
How do you feel?
And so from this day
Forth I vow to close
My heart from the world
Never to feel compassion for
Anyone to protect myself
How do you feel?
These days go by
Just me and my father
Together and alone but
Something is wrong
My father cannot stand it
How do you feel?
I ask myself as I learn
My father has left me
For awhile in hopes
To find a new mate
To drive the loneliness away
How do you feel?
I feel empty and shocked
As my father reluctantly
Announces the pregnancy
Of the human he had found
And mated with on his search
How do you feel?
I imagine my sweet mother
Who is long dead and gone
Breathe these four simple words
To me as I look upon the
Face of my younger brother
How do you feel?
He has strange ears and his
Eyes are closed but I
Know their color already
I don't understand what
Is this feeling inside of me?
How do you feel?
I am feeling hate toward
My own brother although
I know I shouldn't
But my mother is gone
And my father has moved on
How do you feel?
This brother of mine
Half human half demon
Half weak half strong
But to me it all seems
That it is his entire fault
How do you feel?
It's his and his mother's
His filthy human mother
How dare she steal my
Father away and bear a child
And leave me to be all alone?
How do you feel?
My life is a wreak
Feelings surround me
That I never dreamed of
Feeling before but these feelings
Are changing me – becoming me
How do you feel?
I blame the hybrid and his
Mother for all my misery now
Their attraction has changed
My father -- he has forgotten me
Now I am truly alone
How do you feel?
I have no choice – I must
Leave my father or my misery will
Become the better of me and I
Will be forced to cause more
Tragedy to this family and I do not wish to
How do you feel?
My father objects to my idea
As I slowly tell him he does not
Want to lose me his only
Remembrance of my dear departed
Mother but I tell him I must
How do you feel?
I watch as his facial expression
Goes slowly from calm to angry
To desperate but I will be strong
He has forgotten me and moved
On to other things and so must I
How do you feel?
My father reaches his hand
Out to me and calls my
Name desperately with a sad
Look upon his face but he
Cannot stop me I am already gone
How do you feel?
Here I stand alone completely alone
With naught but a toad by my side
One of my dear mother's most
Trusted servants although
I do not know why
How do you feel?
A year goes by and my father calls
Me to him once again as he
Did those days long ago
When we were a true family although
My mind refuses my heart does not
How do you feel?
I go to him almost willingly
And thankfully and his presence
Bring up memories of old both
Happy and sad and my mind starts
To regret my visit; my angst heart stirs
"How do you feel?"
He asks of me as he welcomes
Me back to my home and I do not
Look at him as I bow my head and
Answer him with an obvious
Lie – "I am fine, Father."
How do you feel?
He talks to me quickly
And I understand why
He knows how hard it is
For me to return home because
This is where my heart had died
How do you feel?
I watch and I listen
He speaks of a sword
That had been made of
Him and unexpectedly I become
Very interested for some reason
How do you feel?
He pulls out the sword
And beckons me to him
My heart beats faster
It knows what is coming
And suddenly my head spins
How do you feel?
I walk to his throne
Expecting the worst
As I kneel down before him
And bow my head
I shut my eyes tightly
How do you feel?
I am surprised
He does not strike me
Instead he tells me to stand
I conceal my shock as best I can
As he hands me the sword and a sheath
How do you feel?
So this is the sword
Given to me by right
And blood my only piece
Of my father I keep
To remind me of him
How do you feel?
My father mocks me
My heart is cold
The sword does not cut
It has no purpose
It is worthless to me
How do you feel?
I go on my way
A week has passed
The castle is attacked
Vicious and powerful
Ugly reptiles these dragons
How do you feel?
I rush to my father's aid
He is not strong enough to
Defeat the beasts and I have
Come too late once again
He is gone and our home is destroyed
How do you feel?
Blinded by anger
Pain and suffering
I unleash the full extent
Of my terrible fury
And slay the damned beasts
How do you feel?
Using my father's claw
I bind them to their death
The dragons have killed my
Father and there he lays
So still upon the ground
How do you feel?
I kneel at his side
Anger is filling my being
I cannot see, cannot feel
True passion dies within me
My heart solidifies coldly
How do you feel?
My senses tingle
My father is disappearing
All that is left is an
Orb of dark light
It flies away from me
How do you feel?
Desperately I go to
Chase the orb that is my father
No expression on my face
In this state that is truly
Quite impossible
How do you feel?
The orb is too fast
I cannot keep up
It is running away from me
It fears my power and I laugh
For I know why
How do you feel?
My sword cannot cut
Tenseiga is useless
But I know what is in the
Orb, my father's grave
I must find it soon
How do you feel?
The orb contains
The most powerful sword
Ever forged and I must wield it
Although my father did not entrust
It to me but to my filthy half-breed brother
How do you feel?
He is not worthy of such a power
So now I go in the dark
To find the orb of black light
My anger flares as my
Search leads me to the ones I hate
How do you feel?
It is InuYasha and his mother
I despise their very existence
If not for them my father would
Still be alive for he died protecting
Them and their worthless lives
How do you feel?
I meet the human and her bastard son
Demanding the whereabouts of
My father's grave because I need to know
She refuses to answer my question
As she protects her son from me
How do you feel?
I talk to her with a voice that
Seems much too old, much too cold
For me but I matters less
All my years of pain has brought
This indifference; pain caused by her
How do you feel?
That is just as well, her defiance
To me she will soon regret
And I will be able to avenge
My pain I have held for so long
As I ruthlessly end her pathetic life
How do you feel?
I watch as she slowly falls
Dead before she could scream
Dead before she hits the ground
The boy's eyes are wide and staring
As he looks on in horror
How do you feel?
He runs to her side
Crying, begging
Trying to wake her
He is a fool
She is dead
How do you feel?
He turns to me sadly
Tears flowing down his face
Asking, demanding
My reason and purpose
Anger in his eyes
How do you feel?
He does not understand
Wouldn't understand
Why does he speak?
How can he dare?
My eyes fly into an angry glare
"How do you feel?"
He yells out the question
Blood on his face
How do I feel?
Now that I've killed her
Taken away his happiness
How do you feel?
I glare harder at the boy
Yelling, "You wouldn't
Understand!" as I ran at him
And flung him into the dark forest
I melt his mother in my poison
How do you feel?
So here we are: two brothers of kin
Alone in this world with no one to
Love or anyone to love us but I do
Not care because compassion is
Behind me – I do not need it
How do you feel?
I roam these forsaken lands
Searching, still searching
For the one orb of my father's memory
And the power hidden deep inside
Not worthy for a mere half-breed
How do you feel?
Over seventy years have passed
Searching is tiring
But now I understand
The orb is hidden in my younger
Brother's eye; I am almost there
How do you feel?
What is happening?
Why doesn't it come loose to my pull?
Why does it not come loose to his pull?
But to the pull of the human girl
InuYasha carries around
How do you feel?
Pain every way
He's taken my arm
He's taken my pride
He's taken the sword
He will pay for this dearly
How do you feel?
Naraku is his name
And I accept his gifts
If they are worth keeping
I will be able to slay InuYasha
And claim the Tetsusaiga
How do you feel?
The sword's power is great
I almost accomplish my goal
But InuYasha has outsmarted me
Again and the gifts are useless
I have wasted my time
How do you feel?
Again I come back
This time with a dragon's arm
So powerful it is and once again
I almost succeed but InuYasha
Has found the true power of the sword
How do you feel?
He almost kills me with the scar
And I would have gone quietly
But two things were of fault –
InuYasha cannot kill me – he is weak
And the Tenseiga had saved me
How do you feel?
I retreat carefully to a heavily
Wooded area and I rest
My body is weak and I cannot move
How long will it be now?
I close my eyes and wonder
How do you feel?
I wake to a bustling in the wood
Who is this girl?
What does she want of me?
I try to scare her away
Pointless – she does not leave
How do you feel?
She does not speak to me
She must be mute
She brings me human food
She is wasting her time on me
What is this?
How do you feel?
Why does she bleed so?
How did she get her wounds?
I am curious, but she is strange
Why does she smile?
What did I say?
How do you feel?
Years pass by
I still chase reasoning
My brother still holds my pride
In his hands but softly
He ceases to mock me
How do you feel?
My memories of old have
Started to fade away
Making way for new ones
Most all pleasant
But my heart will never forget
How do you feel?
It is because of these memories
I shelter my feelings still
I will not allow my heart to break
Into a million pieces again
And this is why I have not changed
How do you feel?
My heart has softened, yes
But it means nothing
I live to serve and protect
Those dearest to me
........Rin.....
How do you feel?
It has been almost been
Ten years now and she has grown
I owe her so much than she'll ever know
In her quiet and soft way
She has saved me
How do you feel?
I care so much for her
But because of my pain
I cannot afford to open my heart
To her for if I was to lose her
It would certainly be the end of me
How do you feel?
So there she waits
Calm and smiling
Waiting for me to heal
She doesn't know
These wounds cannot
How do you feel?
I live in regret
But I feel it is for the best
I will stand guard
Silently watching
Over her
How do you feel?
My thoughts rarely stray
From the kind little girl
Who says she needs me
But the truth is
I need her more
How do you feel?
The day my mother's toad died
And I could not help it
I sat in silence, face indifferent
But inside of me thoughts
Whirled around so fast I could not think
How do you feel?
And then suddenly the sweet
Young woman grown up so kind so
Beautiful comes to me eyes closed
As she wraps her caring arms around me
My eyes grow wide but soon they calm
"How do you feel?"
This young woman asks me
As she clings to me tightly
An embrace I somewhat remember
How is this possible?
Who does she remind me of?
How do you feel?
In all my long years
I have forgotten this feeling
Bottled up pain and suffering
Unleashed in a smile
Now I remember
How do you feel?
She looks so beautiful
Just like my mother
Her memory smiles at me
And I smile back
It's truly genuine
How do you feel?
My heart is melting
Away are the memories
Of the pain I've harbored
For so long and I look at the
Girl and return the embrace
"I am... happy." I reply.
.....A/N: WAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! IT'S SO DARN SAD!!!! *sniff* *gasp gasp gasp*
*sniff* *is crying uncontrollably* *sniff* Isn't it sad? Huh? *sniff* Yes,
I know. Whelps, please review this poem, it's the least you could do for
me! I mean, I took all that time typing this out nice and pretty for you
and you know how long the paper thing and it was on word? TEN FREAKIN'
PAGES!!!!! So you'd BETTER review me, ya hear? hehe... please? heh...*sigh*
*sniff* now, if you'll please excuse me.. I have to pull myself together
'cause writing this was killing me. See I'm a HUGE Ses fan, otherwise I
wouldn't take so long to write this poem and I wouldn't have made it so....
heartfelt. So beautiful. It took me a week to write this if I added up all
the days not including the weeks I usually slacked off and forgot about it.
If I had worked on it sincerely, I would have posted this a LONG time ago.
I think I started working on it last month or the month before that...that's
when I got the idea to start in it in the first place. And one more thing,
when I started writing out this poem, I was writing it out on PAPER. I
didn't start typing this out until spring break started. Typing it out took
me two days, I'd say that's a record for the book 'cause I type
REAAALLLLYYY slowly, but being on a computer nearly every day has improved
my typing greatly. Yeah, I know I'm babbling, but will you just hang on for
a sec? I still have to explain this poem. So this poem starts when
SesshouMaru was just a little boy. It talks about him as he grows up and he
– well, he is supposed to be the one talking in the poem. The "how do you
feel" 's are like one of those "memory" things people do in movies, you
know, like how they have those flashbacks where people start whispering in
the background? Yeah, like that. SesshouMaru's just remembering his mother
saying those "four pleasant words" to him as he grows up. And then we all
know who the toad is, right? Well, I didn't want to talk about Jaken too
much because (1) he's an ugly worthless toad and (2) I wanted you to get
the idea that SesshouMaru was always alone up until he met Rin. Jaken would
just ruin everything. Like usual. Oh and one more thing, this story sorta
ends way after the Inu gang defeat Naraku with SesshouMaru's help. It kinda
talks about InuYasha and SesshouMaru and them forming a little bond by
working together. But, once again, I didn't want anyone to get in the way
of the real point of the poem, which was SesshouMaru and Rin getting
together in the end. (Rin's MUCH older by then... I'd say about maybe 16, but
that doesn't really help, does it? SesshouMaru's really much older than
Rin, being as he had sorta raised her. But if Sess is still hot, then,
baby, it's awright for me!^.^) Anyway, there's a little thing in here that
sorta bugs me. I read this out to my bro and he asked if Rin was supposed
to be Sess's mother's reincarnate. NO. I repeat, NO. That's the LAST thing
I want you to think, SesshouMaru getting' friendly with his mommy's
reincarnation. That's CRAZY! So NO. Okie, this is taking too long, better
finish up. Anyway, justa reminder, REVIEW ME! K? Thankx!
~bbfn – w/love from me to you, Sakka
It's about SesshouMaru as a boy and what he feels as he grows up. For all
those who have no idea what Inuyasha is.. don't bother reading this..(I'm
talking mostly about my poet friends on this site. Even though this is a
poem, it doesn't mean you'll understand it. It's good anyway!) But to all
that do understand... please R&R! w/love, Sakka
(P.S.: if you cannot stand angstness, depression, and slight romance, don't
torture yourself and read this. I wrote this extremely sad fic because that
is how I think SesshouMaru feels and lives his life. If that ISN'T how he
feels then, I'll be darned!! He sure is good at hiding his true feelings!
hehe... whelps enjoy!)
How do you feel?
"How do you feel?"
She asked me as she held me
Her calm amber eyes looked to the sky
Her scent soothed me
And I was glad
To have her as my mother
"I am... happy." I reply.
I look to her smiling
Wishing with all my heart
She will always be there
For me like this
Because I love her
How do you feel?
These four pleasant words
Imprinted in my mind
I will never forget
And I don't want it
To go away and leave me
How do you feel?
I hear those words
Everyday as I grow older
My dear sweet mother
Watching and comforting me
With her kind smile
How do you feel?
But alas, some things
Just don't last
My mother reminds me
As the days grow colder
And I grow weary
How do you feel?
She was alone
All by herself
Without me by her side
When she fell down and closed
Her eyes for the last time
How do you feel?
Humans had surrounded her
I heard her scream
And I rushed to her side
But to no avail
She was already gone
"How do you feel?"
My father asks of me
As he stands beside
Her grave, not looking at me
But down at her final
Resting place calm but sad
How do you feel?
I run those words through
My mind again, words I
Will never hear from someone
Like her because those words
Died along with her
How do you feel?
The pain runs deep
As my eyes close tightly
And I do not answer
Because it hurts too much
But my father understands
How do you feel?
I remember her face
So beautiful it was in
The sunlight and moonlight
Her voice was soothing to the
Ear and her touch so calm
How do you feel?
I will never forget her
But it is the same with
The pain I feel and
I do not wish to feel
This ever again
How do you feel?
And so from this day
Forth I vow to close
My heart from the world
Never to feel compassion for
Anyone to protect myself
How do you feel?
These days go by
Just me and my father
Together and alone but
Something is wrong
My father cannot stand it
How do you feel?
I ask myself as I learn
My father has left me
For awhile in hopes
To find a new mate
To drive the loneliness away
How do you feel?
I feel empty and shocked
As my father reluctantly
Announces the pregnancy
Of the human he had found
And mated with on his search
How do you feel?
I imagine my sweet mother
Who is long dead and gone
Breathe these four simple words
To me as I look upon the
Face of my younger brother
How do you feel?
He has strange ears and his
Eyes are closed but I
Know their color already
I don't understand what
Is this feeling inside of me?
How do you feel?
I am feeling hate toward
My own brother although
I know I shouldn't
But my mother is gone
And my father has moved on
How do you feel?
This brother of mine
Half human half demon
Half weak half strong
But to me it all seems
That it is his entire fault
How do you feel?
It's his and his mother's
His filthy human mother
How dare she steal my
Father away and bear a child
And leave me to be all alone?
How do you feel?
My life is a wreak
Feelings surround me
That I never dreamed of
Feeling before but these feelings
Are changing me – becoming me
How do you feel?
I blame the hybrid and his
Mother for all my misery now
Their attraction has changed
My father -- he has forgotten me
Now I am truly alone
How do you feel?
I have no choice – I must
Leave my father or my misery will
Become the better of me and I
Will be forced to cause more
Tragedy to this family and I do not wish to
How do you feel?
My father objects to my idea
As I slowly tell him he does not
Want to lose me his only
Remembrance of my dear departed
Mother but I tell him I must
How do you feel?
I watch as his facial expression
Goes slowly from calm to angry
To desperate but I will be strong
He has forgotten me and moved
On to other things and so must I
How do you feel?
My father reaches his hand
Out to me and calls my
Name desperately with a sad
Look upon his face but he
Cannot stop me I am already gone
How do you feel?
Here I stand alone completely alone
With naught but a toad by my side
One of my dear mother's most
Trusted servants although
I do not know why
How do you feel?
A year goes by and my father calls
Me to him once again as he
Did those days long ago
When we were a true family although
My mind refuses my heart does not
How do you feel?
I go to him almost willingly
And thankfully and his presence
Bring up memories of old both
Happy and sad and my mind starts
To regret my visit; my angst heart stirs
"How do you feel?"
He asks of me as he welcomes
Me back to my home and I do not
Look at him as I bow my head and
Answer him with an obvious
Lie – "I am fine, Father."
How do you feel?
He talks to me quickly
And I understand why
He knows how hard it is
For me to return home because
This is where my heart had died
How do you feel?
I watch and I listen
He speaks of a sword
That had been made of
Him and unexpectedly I become
Very interested for some reason
How do you feel?
He pulls out the sword
And beckons me to him
My heart beats faster
It knows what is coming
And suddenly my head spins
How do you feel?
I walk to his throne
Expecting the worst
As I kneel down before him
And bow my head
I shut my eyes tightly
How do you feel?
I am surprised
He does not strike me
Instead he tells me to stand
I conceal my shock as best I can
As he hands me the sword and a sheath
How do you feel?
So this is the sword
Given to me by right
And blood my only piece
Of my father I keep
To remind me of him
How do you feel?
My father mocks me
My heart is cold
The sword does not cut
It has no purpose
It is worthless to me
How do you feel?
I go on my way
A week has passed
The castle is attacked
Vicious and powerful
Ugly reptiles these dragons
How do you feel?
I rush to my father's aid
He is not strong enough to
Defeat the beasts and I have
Come too late once again
He is gone and our home is destroyed
How do you feel?
Blinded by anger
Pain and suffering
I unleash the full extent
Of my terrible fury
And slay the damned beasts
How do you feel?
Using my father's claw
I bind them to their death
The dragons have killed my
Father and there he lays
So still upon the ground
How do you feel?
I kneel at his side
Anger is filling my being
I cannot see, cannot feel
True passion dies within me
My heart solidifies coldly
How do you feel?
My senses tingle
My father is disappearing
All that is left is an
Orb of dark light
It flies away from me
How do you feel?
Desperately I go to
Chase the orb that is my father
No expression on my face
In this state that is truly
Quite impossible
How do you feel?
The orb is too fast
I cannot keep up
It is running away from me
It fears my power and I laugh
For I know why
How do you feel?
My sword cannot cut
Tenseiga is useless
But I know what is in the
Orb, my father's grave
I must find it soon
How do you feel?
The orb contains
The most powerful sword
Ever forged and I must wield it
Although my father did not entrust
It to me but to my filthy half-breed brother
How do you feel?
He is not worthy of such a power
So now I go in the dark
To find the orb of black light
My anger flares as my
Search leads me to the ones I hate
How do you feel?
It is InuYasha and his mother
I despise their very existence
If not for them my father would
Still be alive for he died protecting
Them and their worthless lives
How do you feel?
I meet the human and her bastard son
Demanding the whereabouts of
My father's grave because I need to know
She refuses to answer my question
As she protects her son from me
How do you feel?
I talk to her with a voice that
Seems much too old, much too cold
For me but I matters less
All my years of pain has brought
This indifference; pain caused by her
How do you feel?
That is just as well, her defiance
To me she will soon regret
And I will be able to avenge
My pain I have held for so long
As I ruthlessly end her pathetic life
How do you feel?
I watch as she slowly falls
Dead before she could scream
Dead before she hits the ground
The boy's eyes are wide and staring
As he looks on in horror
How do you feel?
He runs to her side
Crying, begging
Trying to wake her
He is a fool
She is dead
How do you feel?
He turns to me sadly
Tears flowing down his face
Asking, demanding
My reason and purpose
Anger in his eyes
How do you feel?
He does not understand
Wouldn't understand
Why does he speak?
How can he dare?
My eyes fly into an angry glare
"How do you feel?"
He yells out the question
Blood on his face
How do I feel?
Now that I've killed her
Taken away his happiness
How do you feel?
I glare harder at the boy
Yelling, "You wouldn't
Understand!" as I ran at him
And flung him into the dark forest
I melt his mother in my poison
How do you feel?
So here we are: two brothers of kin
Alone in this world with no one to
Love or anyone to love us but I do
Not care because compassion is
Behind me – I do not need it
How do you feel?
I roam these forsaken lands
Searching, still searching
For the one orb of my father's memory
And the power hidden deep inside
Not worthy for a mere half-breed
How do you feel?
Over seventy years have passed
Searching is tiring
But now I understand
The orb is hidden in my younger
Brother's eye; I am almost there
How do you feel?
What is happening?
Why doesn't it come loose to my pull?
Why does it not come loose to his pull?
But to the pull of the human girl
InuYasha carries around
How do you feel?
Pain every way
He's taken my arm
He's taken my pride
He's taken the sword
He will pay for this dearly
How do you feel?
Naraku is his name
And I accept his gifts
If they are worth keeping
I will be able to slay InuYasha
And claim the Tetsusaiga
How do you feel?
The sword's power is great
I almost accomplish my goal
But InuYasha has outsmarted me
Again and the gifts are useless
I have wasted my time
How do you feel?
Again I come back
This time with a dragon's arm
So powerful it is and once again
I almost succeed but InuYasha
Has found the true power of the sword
How do you feel?
He almost kills me with the scar
And I would have gone quietly
But two things were of fault –
InuYasha cannot kill me – he is weak
And the Tenseiga had saved me
How do you feel?
I retreat carefully to a heavily
Wooded area and I rest
My body is weak and I cannot move
How long will it be now?
I close my eyes and wonder
How do you feel?
I wake to a bustling in the wood
Who is this girl?
What does she want of me?
I try to scare her away
Pointless – she does not leave
How do you feel?
She does not speak to me
She must be mute
She brings me human food
She is wasting her time on me
What is this?
How do you feel?
Why does she bleed so?
How did she get her wounds?
I am curious, but she is strange
Why does she smile?
What did I say?
How do you feel?
Years pass by
I still chase reasoning
My brother still holds my pride
In his hands but softly
He ceases to mock me
How do you feel?
My memories of old have
Started to fade away
Making way for new ones
Most all pleasant
But my heart will never forget
How do you feel?
It is because of these memories
I shelter my feelings still
I will not allow my heart to break
Into a million pieces again
And this is why I have not changed
How do you feel?
My heart has softened, yes
But it means nothing
I live to serve and protect
Those dearest to me
........Rin.....
How do you feel?
It has been almost been
Ten years now and she has grown
I owe her so much than she'll ever know
In her quiet and soft way
She has saved me
How do you feel?
I care so much for her
But because of my pain
I cannot afford to open my heart
To her for if I was to lose her
It would certainly be the end of me
How do you feel?
So there she waits
Calm and smiling
Waiting for me to heal
She doesn't know
These wounds cannot
How do you feel?
I live in regret
But I feel it is for the best
I will stand guard
Silently watching
Over her
How do you feel?
My thoughts rarely stray
From the kind little girl
Who says she needs me
But the truth is
I need her more
How do you feel?
The day my mother's toad died
And I could not help it
I sat in silence, face indifferent
But inside of me thoughts
Whirled around so fast I could not think
How do you feel?
And then suddenly the sweet
Young woman grown up so kind so
Beautiful comes to me eyes closed
As she wraps her caring arms around me
My eyes grow wide but soon they calm
"How do you feel?"
This young woman asks me
As she clings to me tightly
An embrace I somewhat remember
How is this possible?
Who does she remind me of?
How do you feel?
In all my long years
I have forgotten this feeling
Bottled up pain and suffering
Unleashed in a smile
Now I remember
How do you feel?
She looks so beautiful
Just like my mother
Her memory smiles at me
And I smile back
It's truly genuine
How do you feel?
My heart is melting
Away are the memories
Of the pain I've harbored
For so long and I look at the
Girl and return the embrace
"I am... happy." I reply.
.....A/N: WAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! IT'S SO DARN SAD!!!! *sniff* *gasp gasp gasp*
*sniff* *is crying uncontrollably* *sniff* Isn't it sad? Huh? *sniff* Yes,
I know. Whelps, please review this poem, it's the least you could do for
me! I mean, I took all that time typing this out nice and pretty for you
and you know how long the paper thing and it was on word? TEN FREAKIN'
PAGES!!!!! So you'd BETTER review me, ya hear? hehe... please? heh...*sigh*
*sniff* now, if you'll please excuse me.. I have to pull myself together
'cause writing this was killing me. See I'm a HUGE Ses fan, otherwise I
wouldn't take so long to write this poem and I wouldn't have made it so....
heartfelt. So beautiful. It took me a week to write this if I added up all
the days not including the weeks I usually slacked off and forgot about it.
If I had worked on it sincerely, I would have posted this a LONG time ago.
I think I started working on it last month or the month before that...that's
when I got the idea to start in it in the first place. And one more thing,
when I started writing out this poem, I was writing it out on PAPER. I
didn't start typing this out until spring break started. Typing it out took
me two days, I'd say that's a record for the book 'cause I type
REAAALLLLYYY slowly, but being on a computer nearly every day has improved
my typing greatly. Yeah, I know I'm babbling, but will you just hang on for
a sec? I still have to explain this poem. So this poem starts when
SesshouMaru was just a little boy. It talks about him as he grows up and he
– well, he is supposed to be the one talking in the poem. The "how do you
feel" 's are like one of those "memory" things people do in movies, you
know, like how they have those flashbacks where people start whispering in
the background? Yeah, like that. SesshouMaru's just remembering his mother
saying those "four pleasant words" to him as he grows up. And then we all
know who the toad is, right? Well, I didn't want to talk about Jaken too
much because (1) he's an ugly worthless toad and (2) I wanted you to get
the idea that SesshouMaru was always alone up until he met Rin. Jaken would
just ruin everything. Like usual. Oh and one more thing, this story sorta
ends way after the Inu gang defeat Naraku with SesshouMaru's help. It kinda
talks about InuYasha and SesshouMaru and them forming a little bond by
working together. But, once again, I didn't want anyone to get in the way
of the real point of the poem, which was SesshouMaru and Rin getting
together in the end. (Rin's MUCH older by then... I'd say about maybe 16, but
that doesn't really help, does it? SesshouMaru's really much older than
Rin, being as he had sorta raised her. But if Sess is still hot, then,
baby, it's awright for me!^.^) Anyway, there's a little thing in here that
sorta bugs me. I read this out to my bro and he asked if Rin was supposed
to be Sess's mother's reincarnate. NO. I repeat, NO. That's the LAST thing
I want you to think, SesshouMaru getting' friendly with his mommy's
reincarnation. That's CRAZY! So NO. Okie, this is taking too long, better
finish up. Anyway, justa reminder, REVIEW ME! K? Thankx!
~bbfn – w/love from me to you, Sakka