"This feels so fuckin' stupid. This feels so fuckin' stupid, but I know it ain't, 'cause you would tell me to do it. If you were here and anyone else was- wasn't. You would tell me to do it. And you weren't stupid. Which makes me wonder why you did what you did. You knew those scissors wouldn't do shit, and you knew she would shoot you. You still wanted to die. Didn't you? You let everyone- You let me say it was for attention. Shoulda' paid attention."