This is my new story I might continue depends on you guys…
I don't see why this is even required or relevant but just for those idiots out there I don't, never have, ever will, own Victorious… Ok
Tori's P.O.V:
How do you heal from the pain and hurt you've experienced throughout the years. My parents never really loved me and the rare occasions they actually showed they cared where just because my social workers showed up. Sixteen years – sixteen brutal, hateful, tragic years that I had to deal with them and their bullshit but hey I'm lucky. I learned how to deal with it subduing the beatings I received the cruel things they spat at me. Things change when the only hero you have is yourself.
'Hey ma I'm leaving for school' I say grabbing my charm bracelet and necklace getting ready to leave.
'Be straight home today Victoria your social worker is coming for an update' she said stepping from out balcony. Of course she cared that I should come home today, only because the stupid state of California required my parents to have check up meeting every 2nd Friday of the month. I groaned inwardly hoping they finally put me in the system.
'I'll try' I said exiting the house.
Its hard trying to get through the day sometimes I miss her and him they were my world and then – then the unthinkable happened. Why was it so hard to let go I mean it happened over a year ago, but it still hurt it hurt like hell. The walk to school was long and to make matters worse I was late I went to my locker and pulled out my chemistry book and AP Lit book and set off to class. I was a rule breaker I pushed limits I wasn't always like this but hey grief changed me in many ways.
Flashback~~
'Try harder' she said stifling a laugh.
I turned and glared at my sister she was doing this on purpose I knew it but it was okay with me.
'Trinaaaa it won't spray, Gavin tell Trina to help me' I say looking at my older siblings both wide eyed and laughing at me.
'I would but seeing you down there struggling is just…' he didn't get to finish because I took the hose and started to spray… both of them.
'Hey Tori don't spray me it was all her idea… spray Trina' Gavin said in between laughs I turned and looked at my older sister and started to drench her in water. It was days like this when Gavin, Trina, and I enjoyed when our parents were out of town. We could goof off without the usual side effects of our actions with a punishment.
'Hey Tor you know it's kind of hot out here I mean you should cool off' Trina said coming in for a soapy wet hug. She took one step forward and I two steps back when I suddenly felt something wet drip over my head. I let out a simple guilty laugh knowing what my fate held and stood there frozen waiting for the water to be poured but it never came.
End of Flashback~~
That's the last memory I have of them and sometimes I feel like its missing something like there's holes in that memory. I can't seem to remember the whole thing or even that year to be exact and that scares me. I stop and head into the classroom handing my excuse and taking my seat by my best friend Cat.
'Where were you I was getting worried' she whispered yell to me
'I was at home I decided to walk her instead of taking a car' I told her trying to calm her down. She was the only person that knew what I was going through and still choose to be seen with me.
'Well send me a text ok next time' she said concerned.
'Yes mom I will' I said in my soldier voice causing a few people to stare at us.
It was nice to know she cared but nothing would ever change what I've been through let alone what I'm going through. The scars were permanent and the pain, hurt, regret, sorrow, and grief were still there and I just really wished she knew that.
If you want me to continue comment and fave and follow and I might post tomorrow… Tell me if I should introduce more characters next chapter or focus on Cat and Tori's relationship as friends. This is new based on things I've experienced and what I'm going through now so please no harsh comments just constructive criticism.