Memories
It was Lex Luthor's birthday that day
It also was our one year anniversary
I remember feeling so happy and loved
As we walked out of the restaurant
My hand in his
His hand in mine
And as he bent down to kiss me, in public
My heart soared with love for this man
Who was my husband
And soon to be father
I remember Lex had moved away from me
A loving smile on his face
And as we walked to the limousine
He had put a hand on my stomach, looking in my eyes
True happiness shining in his
I remember his sexy voice whispering 'I love you' in my ear
Making shivers run down my back
I remember the feel of his lips on my cheek
As we continued to walk
And suddenly, there was a noise
And Lex no longer was standing beside me
I remember looking down in shock
And seeing my love on the ground
A pool of blood already surrounding him
And I screamed
I remember rushing to him, kneeling beside him, clutching his body in my arms
Screaming for him to stay with me
I remember tears streaming down my face
As I sobbed, cradling his head in my lap
My screams turning into whispers of anguish
For someone to call 911
I remember the vague outline of people in the corner of my eye as they rushed back and forth
In all a flurry
People yelling
People talking urgently
People screaming
People crying
I remember whispering for Lex to come back
That I loved him
That his baby loved him
I remember fighting with all my strength as someone
Actually tried to pull me away from him
I tried fighting, but stopped
As soon as I saw Lex's face
So pale, so unnatural
His eyes glazed and empty
A single bullet hole through his forehead
I remember slumping to the ground, as people came
Rushing to Lex
I remember seeing a medic shake his head
Signaling, that he of course was dead
I remember hearing a scream of such horror
Such anguish
And soon after I came to realize that that was me
I remember standing next to his coffin
On a rainy dreadful day
As if the whole world was mourning Lex Luthor's death
But I knew differently
I remember thinking bitterly that no one would miss Lex
Except for me
Except for his son, Alexander
Except for Martha Kent
Even Lionel Luthor
Maybe even Clark Kent
But I never think about him anymore
Never had, after I married Lex
I remember the sadness that engulfed me
And I remember thinking that I had no reason to live anymore
That I should just die…
And be with Lex
But then, Chloe reminded me
I did have something to live for
Someone to live for
Our son, Alexander
As I stand here, holding our two year old son in my arms
The memory of the day when his daddy died, and when his son was born clutching my thoughts
My heart surges with love
For our son
For my husband, who I knew would have loved Alex as much as I do
A tear escapes my cheek, as I watch our son sleeping, his little head rested against my shoulder
And I lean down, and whisper in his ear "Daddy loves you, Alex."
And I know, that wherever Lex is, he is proud of me
And proud of our growing son, who is becoming just like him every passing day
I lay Alex down in his crib, he doesn't even stir
I walk over to my bedroom, and sit down
Picking up a picture from the bedside table
And lovingly caress Lex's face
The picture was taken the day of our wedding
I look at his face, the lamplight reflecting on it
Another tear escapes my eye, and slips down my cheek
As I whisper to the empty room
"I love you Lex Luthor."
And some part of me figures that
Wherever Lex is, he has whispered the same thing to me
Lex always told me to have hope
And I do
I always did
Hope for the future
Alexander Joseph Luthor, my husband, died two years ago, this exact day
And so did I…
I was also reborn
On that same day
When our son was born
I will never forget Lex, I think to myself, as I play with the wedding band on my finger
As I lay down in bed
I will make sure that Alex will never forget his daddy
And what a wonderful person he was
Lex always told me to have hope
And I do
As I close my eyes, I feel fingertips brush my cheek, faintly
And I smile, as I hear the words whispering through the room
In his voice,
"I love you, Lana."
"I love you too, Lex." I murmur, as I fall asleep, tears drying on my cheeks, a look of peacefulness upon my face, as I dream, of my love playing with his son, one last time.
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