Once Again

I saw you again today
That makes me happy
But it also makes me sad

Once again
I wear my heart on my sleeve
Out for the world to see
Out for everyone to know
That you mean so much to me

I try to hide it
But it must be obvious
When my eyes light up
When I give you a smile
Only meant for you

I am such a fool

I desperately yearn for something more
Than just a friendship
But I know there will never be
You will always see me as a friend
And nothing more

Once again
I live in a fantasy
Of the two of us being together
Of the existence of something much more
But I can only dream
Inside the confines of my heart

I'm comforted by this realization
My heart shatters at the same time

It proves that I am still
The girl with dreams and hopes
That I am still human
That I am capable of feeling
Emotions I once deemed unattainable

Once again
My existence is ironic
Fate's cruel joke

I live in reality
I live in fantasy
I live in pain
I live in joy

I live just to love you
Isn't that enough?