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Sadness for experience

nobodys pov

Gohan was miserable, so miserable that he took out his fathers death on himself with a knife, crying in the middle of the woods. He healed fast and knew that his mom wouldn't find out, but what about Piccolo? He flew down phased in front of him and yanked the knife out of his hand, and lodged it in a tree.

"WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU DOING!?" Piccolo screamed louder than ChiChi ever could with grief and worry in his voice

"I-don't-know-any-anymore" gohan choked out "It hurts, I caused my daddys death, I deserve this pain, I'm alone with nobody to help me, I take care of mom and the baby but I'm 12 and I just don't know what to do, It hurts to be alone and I wish I was never born!"

it was silent piccolo looked like he was about to cry to, he knew how it felt the he said in a small but sure voice "I now how it feels but this is going to make everything worse. If you accidentally take it to far, the world wont be the same, you wouldn't be able to do things that can make a difference in the future." Piccolo looked down then back up then continued "When I was little I said and did some of the same things, just remember you are not alone, trust me I've been there and I'm here for you to"

Gohan looked into his sad eyes and filled with regret "really, when, why?"

"I was a two month old alone in the woods, in a world that hates me for no good reason, without a purpose for another month when I got my fathers memories and the ability to know understand and use my powers. The difference between you and me is that people will miss you back then people either exiled me or tried to killed me because of the green freak that I am. I started to believe them and tried to take my own life but no matter how hard I tried it was impossible to do, I only succeed in hurting myself, and it felt good. I'm ashamed of what I did and if I succeed to much would be different. Your father would be incredibly weak, Raditz would have succeeded freaza would be alive and the sayins wouldn't have came to Earth, I don't know if Goten would have been born but you would have been raised by raditz, also nobody would have stood a chance against the androids and Trunks diffidently wouldn't have been born. One life can change a lot and yours definitely means a lot so please stop this nonsense Gohan ... Please." Piccolo ended his speech in almost a whisper.

"I'm sorry" gohan said into the crook of Piccolos neck "I will always be there for your Gohan for now and forever I've been there"