Been going through a Grey's Anatomy/ Japril withdrawal, so I decided to write a fanfic! This isn't my first fanfic but it is my first JAPRIL fanfic, so bear with me! I've been listening to this song called Radio and I thought I should use it as inspiration for the story so hope you enjoy. Reviews are welcomed!
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters, they belong to Shonda Rhimes!
Same old thing again, just calling it quits now
I'm trying to pretend, that I'll make it some how
Even though it hurt, pride wont let it show I
Try to move on but it's...
Got to the point where it's invading my mind girl
Can't get it out I, can't get it out I, didn't want to lose you
But now that it's over, can't seem to get over it
And the Radio ain't making it better...
"Heartbeats fast, colors and promises, How to be brave, how can I love when I'm afraid" he heard from the radio
Jackson was sitting in his car, driving to the hospital.
"This song again?!" he thought
This song had been playing a lot over the radio lately, and it was having an emotional toll on him for some reason. He mentally cursed the new Twilight movie that decided to pop up after 6 years
"But watching you standing alone, All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow, One step clooooseeeer..."
Jackson turned off the radio and decided to continue his commune in silence.
Good Morning Dr. Avery" One of the nurses greeted him as he entered Grey-Sloan Memorial.
"Good Morning he replied before heading over to the elevator and getting in.
15 minutes later he in the attending lounge, where he was seated at a table with Meredith and Cristina, preoccupied with his cell phone.
"Hope he doesn't throw a Mc Tantrum" Cristina laughed
"I wish I was there to see that" Meredith said
"Who's throwing a Mc Tantrum?" Jackson asked, having an idea of who she was talking about, even though he wasn't dealt paying attention to their conversation
"Bailey. Today's he's first day of Kindergarten, and Derek went to drop him off" she said
"Oh" Jackson said thinking about the last time he saw him throw one of those tantrums
"Good Morning" Jo grinned walking into the lounge as Alex walked in behind her
"Hey" Alex greeted
"Hey" the three replied
"You look happy" Meredith said to Jo
"It's the pregnant lady hormones" Cristina said
Just then Callie stuck her head into the room
"Finally found you guys" she said towards Meredith, Cristina and Jackson "Board meeting in 5 minutes"
With that her head retreated from the door, as the three groaned.
"It's too early for a board meeting" Cristina whined getting up from her seat along with the two.
"Duty calls" Avery simply said
He turned around headed to the door
"Hey we're still on for drinks tonight at Joe's right?" Alex asked
"Yeah" he said before leaving
Five years have passed after the infamous "Perfect Storm" at Grey Sloan Memorial and some things have changed. Meredith and Derek were basically the same, dealing with Zola and Bailey. Cristina and Owen were back together...for now. Their relationship have been on and off these past few years, one minute they'll be together and the other minute they wont. Callie and Arizona were on good terms. It wasn't always like that though. They were separated for a year until they decided to get back together and work things out. Things didn't get better right away but they were good now. Alex and Jo got married, and Jo was now pregnant with their first born. Bailey and Ben were doing great, so was Richard and Catherine, after their wedding two years before.
After two minutes of riding the elevator and walking down halls, they finally got to the conference room, where Callie, Owen and Arizona were waiting. They took their seats along the long rectangular table.
"Where's Shepherd?" Owen asked
"He had to drop Bailey and Zola off to school. He'll be here soon though, I tested him and he said we can start without him" Meredith explained
"Well let's get started" Owen began
The meeting went on for two hours. They talked about the new batch of interns, the new nurses, the medical trials among other things.
"OK, I think that's everything" Owen said going through his mental list of things he wanted to bring to the board.
"What about the ER?" Cristina asked
"Oh yeah, I forgot about that..." Owen began but was interrupted by a knock on the door "Come in"
The slowly opened and there stood one of the nurses
"Dr. Hunt, Dr. Kepner is here to see you" she said
The ladies in the room froze, their eyes slowly landed on Jackson
"Send her in" Owen replied as the nurse nodded and left
"What is she doing here" Jackson thought to himself. He looked around the room, seeing the women's eyes on him
"What?" he asked
"Nothing" Callie shrugged as the others quickly shook their heads
"That's what I wanted to talk about, the ER's been running slow lately, and I thought having a new Head of Trauma would change things. Turns out that Dr. Kepner was planning on moving back to Seattle and getting her old job back. So I wanted to recommend her as the new head of Trauma" Owen said
Just then there was a knock on the door again.
"Come in" Owen said
This time when the door opened, there stood April. She stepped into room.
"Hey" she smiling at them
"Hey" the ladies replied with smiles on their faces, except Cristina who wore a smirk instead as she carefully studied Jackson's reaction
"Hey" he lowly said a few seconds after ladies
"So as you know, Dr. Kepner is well qualified for the position..." Owen began as Jackson's mind trailed off.
He sat there staring at her as she tried to avoid eye contact him. There was definitely some awkward tension going on between the two, and everyone knew why.
FLASHBACK
"I want you, Jackson I want you"
"April..."
"I know I haven't been fair to you, I know and I've, I've really hurt you"
"And you're getting married"
"When the bus exploded, and I thought you were gone, I.."
"You're getting married"
"Unless you can give me a reason not to"
Jackson looked down, away from her. He couldn't deny it, he wanted her too. He's been wanting her for a long while now. Being with her would make him happy, very happy; he would finally be with the woman he loved. But did she mean what she just said? Was she acting out of shock and anxiety, because she thought he died? Would she be happy with him? Was being with him what she needed and deserved? He believed he knew the answer to all this questions
"Jackson, say something" April said, eager to hear is answer
Jackson took a deep breath, not knowing he would later regret what he was about to say to her now
"I don't have one" he said
"Don't have what?" she asked
"A reason"
April's heart sank.
"But Jackson..."
"He's better for you April, you deserve someone like him"
"Jackson..." she whispered as the tears that had recently ceased, began to flow again
"April please, go be with him"
She was about to open her mouth again but he curt her off
"Please...just leave" he said wanting her to leave, know if she stayed any longer he would change his mind
April quickly turned and ran out. She wasn't expecting him to reject her. She ran into the closest on call room. Once she closed the door behind her, she slowly slid down it, as more tears ran down her face...
END of FLASHBACK
April ended up taking Jackson's advice and she and Matthew got married two months later. Seven months after that, they moved back to her home town in Ohio. That was the last time Jackson and April ever saw each other.
"Jackson" Meredith said slapping him on the arm
"Huh?" he said getting out of his day dream.
"So what do you think?" Owen asked
"About what?" He asked confused
"About April being our new Head of Trauma" Owen said
"Oh, um, I think it's a good idea" he said
"Then it's settled" Owen said before turning to April "Welcome back Dr. Kepner, or should I say, our new Head of Trauma" he smiled
"I'm happy to be back" April smiled
"Well that's it then, meeting over" Owen said packing up the piles of paper in front of him.
With that they all got up from the desk. As the ladies over to April, Jackson quickly left room, hoping she wouldn't notice.
"Welcome back Kepner" Callie smiled
"Thank you Dr. Torres" she replied
They each congratulated her then left. She was expecting Jackson to be last in the line of board members congratulating her, but he wasn't.
"I knew I shouldn't have come back here" she mumbled under her breath as she walked out of the room.
She came back in hopes of starting things over, and possibly repairing her friendship with Jackson. She still considered him her only close friend, since she didn't quite make any friends in Ohio.
April spent the rest of the day with Dr. Hunt, getting herself familiar with the new protocols and the new layout of the ER. She was to officially start the next day. Once she was done, she changed out of her scrubs and headed off to the hospital daycare...to get her daughter.