A/N: This story was inspired by a poem I wrote. I have harmed my self, but not this badly. If I make medical mistakes, please forgive me. This is part of a long list of drabbles and short stories about two characters by barbeeblack and I. For more info on Kylie Cohen and Danielle Turner please contact one of us. You might be a little confused, and for that I'm sorry.

Disclaimer: I don't own JKR's stuff. If I did, I'd be swimming in my own pool of green jell-o.

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The Gryffindor common room was exceptionally quiet. Only the low crackle of the dying fire was making a sound. For it was nearly empty. Nearly, being the keyword here. The only person in the room had fallen asleep waiting, and writing. Around her was virtually a pool of blood, yet her face showed pure content. Confused? Let's take it back about twelve hours.

Kylie Cohen sat on the Gryffindor common room couch, other students buzzed around her. Her best friends Lily Evans, and Danielle Turner chatting away next to her. Kylie sat in silence, looking at the muggle notebook in front of her. She had gone through almost half the notebook already, staring at her most recent entry. They weren't really journal entries, they were songs and poems and horribly drawn symbolic pictures. She had charmed it to sing to the person holding it. Right now it was singing to her the song she recently wrote.

She hadn't been herself lately and everyone noticed. She was quiet, and looked tired. She was getting paler and skinnier every week. You might think it's all really dramatic, seeing as she's only like this because of a boy. She wouldn't care if you thought she was being dramatic, she was in love. Simple as that. They were both in love. But he wouldn't have her. He thought she deserved better, and he thought he didn't deserve happiness. She felt otherwise.

She didn't notice anything until she heard a door slam. That's when Remus Lupin walked out of the common room. He looked at her and smiled sadly. She smiled back, her heart melting at the look on his face. She watched him leave, counting the steps until he was out of the common room. A few minutes later, James Potter, Sirius Black and Peter Pettigrew came down. They looked to her, she didn't realize that Lily and Danielle and most other students had already left until then. Sirius and James took a moment to sit by her. She knew where Remus was going, and she knew where they were going. She also knew, that tonight at the full moon, Remus would turn in to a monster. She also knew it'd be a very bad night, worse than usual.

James had suggested she become and animagus in fifth year. Him and Sirius were doing it, and even though she didn't know why at the time, they thought it was a good idea. So she was an animagus, and she could go with them, to help Remus. But she wouldn't tonight. He had rejected her and by refusing her happiness her refused his happiness. Which hurt more than her own happiness being destroyed, knowing he didn't think he should be happy. He needed her, and the wolf needed Jynx. Her animagus form. If she wasn't there the wolf would not be happy...not that it was ever happy. Remus would be paying for it in the morning, and Kylie hated doing it...but she thought that he deserved it this once. It made her cry to think such things...but she thought it.

"Come on Jynx." James said ,softly.

"Yeah, I know, even if he won't admit it, he wants you there." Sirius added. They were truly the brothers she never had.

"No." She shook her head, staring in to the fire, "He doesn't want me there." She said blankly, the boys exchanged looks then she said, "He needs me there." it was quiet for a long time.

"That's why we need to get a move on, eh?" Sirius said, standing.

"Which is why I'm not going." She said, sternly.

"You just said it your self, he needs you there." James said, confused.

"Maybe he'll realize it." The boys looked to each other again, "Maybe tonight when the wolf goes mad because I'm not there he'll realize, maybe in the morning when you two and Peter are more bruised than usual, he'll see. Maybe in the morning when he can't even get off the floor, he'll be desperate and broken inside."

"So your punishing him?" Sirius asked angrily. "You're punishing him for protecting you?"

"I'm making him see." Kylie's voice rose as well.

"HE DOESN'T WANT TO BE WITH YOU BECAUSE HE THINKS HE'S DANGEROUS!" Sirius yelled.

"WITHOUT ME HE IS DANGEROUS!" She screamed back, Kylie had never snapped at him like that before. His eyes were wide. "You know." Her voice was calm now. "You know it, and you know he won't see it until he can feel it physically."

"So you condemn him to a world of physical pain because he won't be with you?" Sirius asked, "I thought you never hurt the ones you love..."

"Me too..." She said, quietly. "But he proved me wrong didn't he?"

"I get it, Jynx." James said, she looked at him.

"Do you?" She asked, skeptically.

"Yeah." He smiled. "You won't go because he is really doing this to himself by not allowing him self to be with you." She nodded, and he sighed, "He didn't mean to hurt you...and I know you aren't meaning to hurt him."

"I know..." She blinked away tears, she reached in her pocket, and felt the cold metal of the blade.

"You'll be here in the morning right, to come make sure he's not too bad?" Sirius asked.

"Of course." She said.

"Of course." He smiled a little, "Come on, Prongs...he's probably about to-" They heard a loud, pained howl.

"Yeah, we should go." James nodded, ruffling her hair.

"Guys?" They turned, "Be very careful tonight." They nodded and took off.

She made sure they were really gone. She took out the knife she stole at dinner. Then she pulled out her wand, and decided to try a new spell she'd been working on. She rolled up her sleeves to reveal magically bandaged wrist.

"Here we go again." She sighed.