My Little Girl
Chapter 1
I'm A Dad
AN: I don't own anything, hope you enjoy. Thanks Kathy for helping me again.
"Where you running off to handsome," Penelope asked, it was Friday and usually that meant they'd all go out for drinks, but in the last month Morgan always took off on Fridays soon as they were done for the day. She'd missed her friend and even though she knew she could just ask she'd looked up to see if he was going anywhere and what he'd been doing.
"I sorta got something to do," Derek said, it wasn't like he didn't want to tell her, but he was trying to figure this out at the moment.
"Can I come with, or you got a date?" Pen asked.
"How about I bring breakfast over in the morning and we spend the day doing whatever you want?" he asked.
"Derek, I hate being lied to, and I know you been going somewhere, so spill it, or I could just go back up there and go through your files again," Garcia said, "Plus you, hot stuff are my ride home tonight, remember Ester getting the heat fixed, and you been giving me a ride," she reminded him.
Derek couldn't help but smile, she was just as relentless as he was at times, "Okay, but before you freak out, it's my sister Desiree at my place not some random woman," he said.
"Oh, so I'm not invited to a Derek Morgan three some?" Penelope asked with a teasing smile getting a stunned looked out him, "Let me get my stuff, and when I get back have that cute little shock look off your face, hot stuff," she said going to her office to get her bag.
"What's with the deer in the headlights look?" Gideon asked walking passed Morgan.
"Nothing, hey, um I talked to Hotch earlier, I can teach the classes on Monday and Wednesday nights now," Morgan said.
"Huh?" Gideon asked confused at first, "Oh sorry, yeah the defense classes," he said, "Have you told your best friend yet?" he asked.
"Gideon I've been at this for a month, I didn't even tell you or Hotch till a week ago," Morgan said, "I'm going to tell her this weekend though, she's staying at my place, and so is Lizzy," he said.
"I'm ready to go, handsome," Pen said with smile.
"Then come on, Goddess," Derek said before they walked towards the elevator.
"So why'd you get that house half hour away from here?" Pen asked once the doors closed, "I know I should ask and I'm sorry, but you keep canceling on me, I started getting worried," she said biting her bottom lip.
"I had some things to take care of, and I wanted out the city, you know I hated it there," He said.
"I know, I also know you went to funeral last month, that's why you weren't in Nebraska with the rest the team," Pen said.
"Tell you what, I'll answer those questions, but only if you agree on Chinese food and I gotta stop and get something," Derek said, it wasn't like he didn't want to answer her questions, but he just wanted to be at home comfortable, and where he could explain the last month, because it had been insane.
"Okay, handsome," she said with smile.
"When did your sister have a baby?" Penelope asked seeing the car seat in the living room floor along with few other baby things, "I know that Sarah has three kids, but I thought Des was like nineteen and far from the idea of kids right now?" She asked.
"Hey, bro didn't think you were going to make it back," Desiree Morgan said, "She's changed, fed, burped, and changed again, gave her a bath too," she said before handing the buddle wrapped in a green blanket.
"Thought you were staying the weekend?" he asked.
"I got a paper to write for my final, you big brother are own your on," Desiree said giving him a quick hug before grabbing her bag and heading out the door, "I'll be back Monday, though," she replied.
Penelope was stunned, "Why isn't she taking her daughter with her?" she asked.
"Yeah, that is one the things I have been wanting to talk to you about, and I would talked sooner, but I been trying to figure things out," Derek said.
"Oh, you're helping her raiser your niece," Pen said, "You're a wonderful uncle and brother," Penelope said with smile.
"Actually, its sort of the other way around, she's helping me out, this little girl is mine," Morgan said with smile looking down at his daughter.
"What?" Penelope asked taking by surprise.
"I wanted to tell you, baby girl, but I was sorta freaking out for little, not because I had a daughter, I'd known that for while, well three half months before she was born I knew, I didn't tell anybody besides my sister, hell I didn't tell my mom," He said.
"Why did you tell me?" Pen asked.
"I freaked out at first, it wasn't like I didn't want her, and I'd planned on being part her life, I just sorta am her only life now," Morgan said.
"What you talking about, she has her mom?" Penelope said, "Or did she not want her?" she asked.
"No, that's why I was sorta freaking out for while, I knew I could handle being a dad, and I could be there if they needed me, but Jamie died in labor, that's where I was when the team was in Nebraska, I took couple weeks off to get things straightened out," Morgan said.
"Oh, that's why you been canceling on me every weekend now," she said, she wanted to be mad at him for not telling her he had a daughter it had been over nine months since he'd found out about her, but only a month since she'd been born.
"Yeah, I was trying to think, and I really need you, but I was trying to see if I could be a dad without help, but Desiree found out, she knew Jamie's sister from college and Des showed up two weeks ago, she worked some things out, and it's the end the semester so she's been going back and forth helping me out," he said, "She's transferring down here the UVA, so when I gotta be out state and stuff she can watch her."
"You know I should really smack you, and if we weren't so close I would, handsome, you get a daughter and don't tell your best friend till a month after she's born?" She asked, "Let alone when you found out her mother was pregnant."
"Des said you'd be pissed at me," Morgan said.
"I'm not pissed at you, hot stuff, I just wished you'd told me, you've been going through your own hell and with Elle getting shot on top of that," Pen said, "Wait, I thought you two went to Jamaica last month?" Penelope asked.
"We did, it was before she was born, I hadn't planned on going, but Jamie told me to have fun, and before you ask no, we weren't together, I just promised her I'd take care of our daughter, and I wasn't exactly going to ignore my daughter's mom, but we weren't together after she found out she was pregnant."
"She's beautiful, looks like her daddy," Penelope said, "Can I hold her?" she asked.
"Yeah," Morgan said letting Pen take her.
"You do realize you haven't told me her name yet," Garcia said.
"Oh sorry, Jenny Elizabeth, but I just call her Lizzy most of the time," Morgan said.
"You know I think I forgive you for not telling me, you are too good looking to stay mad at, plus you gave your daughter my middle name," Penelope said.
"You are my best friend, baby girl, and I did want to tell you, just had to figure things out like I said," he explained walking towards the kitchen; they'd opted for take out of the pizza kind instead of Chinese.
"Does anybody else know now or am I the last to know?" She asked following him with Lizzy in her arms.
"I had to tell Hotch and Gideon since they were trying to figure out why out the blue I just said I needed two weeks off," Derek said setting the pizza box down opening it up and putting couple slices on two plates he grabbed, "Hotch thought I was joking at first when I said I needed time off so I could figure out how to be a dad and still work there."
"You wanted out?" She asked.
"No, I just didn't know if I could do both, but I wasn't giving my daughter up, and Jamie's sister wasn't and still isn't in a condition to keep her," he explained.
"You know I will help you right, I mean if you need somebody to watch her like with Clooney, and the Bureau has the daycare down stairs for the employees, it's not like Desiree can move in her and help you raise her forever," Garcia said, "She needs her own life and with her trying to be like your mom, a nurse, that's going to be hell of a lot to do, but I got the time," she said with smile.
"I can't exactly ask you to help me out, I can deal, I'm working things out," Derek said, he wanted to say yes, to her offer along with a marry me behind it, because he loved her, but it was just complicated now, before he'd found out about Lizzy he'd planned on asking Penelope out, then it got complicated, wasn't sure if she could deal with being involved with a guy that was trying to figure things out himself, let alone had a daughter on top of that.
"You're not asking me, handsome, I'm offering, and we both know you love the job you do, could you really transfer out of the BAU?" she asked him.
"It was a back up, how'd you find out?" Morgan asked.
"I told you, I started snooping, I just thought Des had baby and you were helping her, I didn't expect you to have a daughter, but I'm not letting you give up the second thing you love," she said, "I'm pretty sure that two best friends can work this out and you stay here, because I refuse to let you think you can't do this," she added.
"Never said I couldn't do it, but princess, we don't have 9 to 5 job, I can't always be here, and what if she needs me, how am I going to be there when I'm on the other side the country?" he asked.
"Don't make the decision, you are doing fine," Pen said.
"I love kids, but the idea of having to raise one alone, I helped my mom out, I practically raised Des for her, she followed me around all the time, wanted to do everything I did, she was the closest thing I had to a best friend till you came along," Derek said, "Don't get me wrong, my mom is wonderful, but she lost my dad, it took her while to get back to herself, course you know about me, Snoopy," he said with smile using one the other nicknames he called her when she started snooping around.
"Yeah, mister I got a record that nobody knows about, secrets safe with me though," She replied, "And I think this wonderful little girl is asleep," She added looking down at the little girl.
"Talking puts her to sleep, and music, she doesn't like loud noises though, my phone started ringing the other morning, I thought she was never going to stop crying," he said.
"How does Clooney like his new friend?" She asked.
"That dog has turned into a guard dog on me, Des brought friend over last week, Clooney wouldn't let her near Lizzy till I told him it was okay, never thought that over grown puppy would actually be good at protecting her, but he is," Derek said.
"You got the best watch dog ever, he's not going to let anybody come near her, and if they do they're going to have to answer to him," Pen said, "Which way to the crib?" She asked.
"My bedroom, Des has been staying in the guest room, and I been using the other bedroom as a closet down here," Morgan said, "The bedrooms upstairs are full of boxes too, with work and stuff haven't had time to really get settled in."
"Okay, we got some work to do then, hot stuff, starting tomorrow morning, she might be month old, but you gotta baby proof this place, and give her a room not just your room," Penelope said with smile, "And you gotta get unpacked too, I noticed the lack of stuff around, the only thing you got up is the TV, so not your style," She replied with smile.
"Got one in the bedroom too, I been playing music on the thing, it puts her to sleep, haven't been here much to do the other things I needed to do," he explained.
"That's why I'm going to help you, tomorrow," Penelope said.
Hour later they were sitting on his bed listening to his IPod since Lizzy was asleep and they didn't want to wake her up with the TV on. "You know you did great thing," Pen said.
"Huh?" Morgan asked.
"Taking her, some guys would panicked, but you only freaked a little, but it was for the right reasons, you didn't know if you could be there for her like she needs you, you didn't panic because you got Jamie pregnant," Pen said.
"I think she was more freaked than I was, surprised yeah, but I never lost it," he said.
"Two years ago when I first met you, handsome, you would panicked and probably ran for the hills," Garcia said, "I gotta say, you grown up since we met," she teased letting a yawn escape her.
"Hand over the IPod and let's get sleep, because if you're wanting to rearrange stuff tomorrow, I need sleep first," Derek said.
"Okay," Penelope said and once he was laying down she moved down pulling the covers up and laid her head on his chest.
They'd been sleeping in the same bed when they stayed at each others places for almost year and half, they didn't think it was strange and neither complained because they both got something they wanted out of it, being close to the other without having to actually say it out loud. They loved the other, but things were complicated now, not in a bad way, they just had to figure things out inside their hearts and minds before they could let the other completely in.
Penelope was fast asleep ten minutes later, but Morgan was still awake, he couldn't help but watch her sleep, he wanted to be with her, he told her everything, and he'd wanted to call her the minute he found out about his daughter, but he'd been scared she would think he wanted to be the dad and husband to Jamie, but it had never been like that, he wanted his baby girl.
If he had to do it over, he'd wanted Penelope to be his little girl's mom, but maybe he could still get that, she'd offered to help him, maybe he could turn the best friend part into a wife and mom as well.
TBC
AN: Okay yet another story, my mind won't turn off on these things, ideas keep running over, gotta write them down so I don't forget them all. Hope you enjoyed next chapter will be up sometime later tonight.