This is my first fic so please be gentle guys:( let me know of anything i can do better. I don't own Pitch Perfect or any of that other stuff I'm supposed to say. :))
"Congrats, shawshank!" Fat Amy yelled as she thrust whatever concoction she had made into the air. All the Bellas cheered and raised their cups in a similar gesture towards Beca. She gave them a small smile, raising her glass back and taking a sip. They were all too tipsy to realize her smile didn't quite reach her eyes. They were all back in Beca and Chloe's hotel room celebrating Beca being signed by DJ Khaled.
Beca sighed and looked around the room. She was really going to miss these girls. Fat Amy's craziness, Aubrey's stubbornness, the other girls' unwavering friendship, and of course, Chloe. The girl had quickly wormed her way into Beca's life and became her best friend. She didn't know how the girl did it, but she really didn't mind falling in love with Chloe Beale. She wasn't sure there was anyone who met Chloe who didn't immediately fall in love with her. The girl had her ways. But of course no one actuallt knew she was in love with the redhead, that would ruin their entire friendship because she knew for a fact Chloe didn't love her back. The thought made her eyes water and she could feel her stomach tightening.
"You okay, Hobbit?" The voice suddenly beside her scared her and she quickly sniffed and wiped her eyes before Aubrey could see. She glanced at the older girl to see Aubrey looking at her with concern.
"Yeah, I'm uh..," she sniffed again. "Yeah, I'm good." She forced a laugh and wiped at her eyes again. Another glance at Aubrey told her the blonde girl didn't believe her at all. She sighed before turning and facing Aubrey.
"Alright dude. I'm sad okay?" Aubrey looked at her skeptically, making Beca laugh. "I can't be sad?" Aubrey smiled and shook her head.
"No, you totally can, I just never really expected you to be so open about being sad." At Beca's look of confusion Aubrey continued.
"You, with the tattoos and piercings and the whole 'get the fuck away from me' attitude, you're sad? And you're openly admitting it to the one person in this group that's given you more shit than all the other ones combined?" Beca laughed again.
"Yeah, I guess so." She smiled at Aubrey before turning to look at the girls attempting to get Fat Amy off of the table in the center of the room. "I'm just really going to miss you guys. I love you nerds, ya know." She looked back at Aubrey to see her wiping her eyes.
"I understand, Beca. We've been through a lot and although I still don't understand why, I'm going to miss you too." She set her cup on the counter and grabbed Beca's doing the same.
"Bree, what are you doi-." Before she could finish Aubrey pulled her into a hug. Beca stiffened before hugging the blonde back tightly. "I'm sorry we've had some misunderstandings, Bree. I really do consider you one of my best friends." She heard the older girl sniff.
"Me too, Beca." They let go of each other and smiled. Aubrey grabbed Beca's drink and hers and filled them up before handing Beca's back to her. She took a sip and thanked the girl before settling back against the counter.
"You know," Aubrey began. "I saw you." Beca looked at her with a blank expression.
"Saw me?"
"After the show." She glanced at Beca whose face showed no recognition. "Flirting with that girl." At those words Beca froze, her face shifting into one of guilt and nervousness.
"Um, Bree, I.."
"You don't have to say anything, Beca." Aubrey glanced at her. "I just want you to know you need to tell them, before we all leave each other again." Beca gulped and nodded.
"I know, I just don't know how to do it."
"Truth or dare?" Beca looked at Aubrey, confused. "You know, I tell the girls we want to play truth or dare, we play a little and eventually i ask you a question, you come out to them. Not that hard." Beca rolled her eyes.
"It's not that simple, Bree. I've hid this from them since we met. I made Jesse pretend to be my boyfriend for years just so i wouldn't have to tell them i was actually dating girls the whole time." It was Aubrey's turn to roll her eyes.
"CR is gay, why do you think it would be a problem for anyone here?" Beca looked down.
"I don't know.."
"Yes you do." She looked up at Aubrey who was staring at her. "You don't want to tell them because you're scared they're going to react badly like your dad did." Beca nodded softly and wiped at her eye before the tear could escape. The year before she had come out to her dad and he kicked her out of his house and hadn't talked to her since. Aubrey found the girl crying in the parking Barden and Beca had spilled the whole story to her.
"Please do this, Beca. You need this. It'll be a huge weight off of your shoulders and you never know if you'll get the chance again before it's another 5 years when we see each other." Beca nodded and downed her drink before refilling it.
"Let's do this."
Aubrey nodded and clapped her hands getting the attention of the girls. "Alright ladies, I've convinced the little hobbit to play a game of truth or dare with us! Who's down to play?" All the girls whooped and started to arrange themselves in a circle on the floor.
"You got this, Beca," Aubrey whispered in her ear as they made their way to sit in the circle.
"Becs!" She glanced to her right to see Chloe waving at her. "Come sit by me, pleaseeee." Beca rolled her eyes but smiled and made her way over to Chloe. The redhead grabbed her arm and pulled her down next to her before enveloping her in a hug.
"I feel like I haven't seen you all night!" Beca hugged her back tightly. She wanted this hug to be a good one in case this was the last one she ever got from the girl. She didn't know how long they were hugging before they heard someone clear their throat.
"Um, excuse me, Bhloe. Can you guys make out later? I wanna play before we all turn eighty." The girls pulled away from each other, Beca's face slightly pink.
"Shut up, Amy. Start the game already." The other girls laughed before Fat Amy turned to Aubrey and asked her a question. Beca was paying attention and laughing at the silly things the girls were asking each other and saying, soon forgetting what she was about to do. As the girls played, Chloe scooted closer to her and wrapped her arm around Beca's, leaning her head on her shoulder. Beca leaned her head on top of Chloe's and shut her eyes. She wished she could stay like this forever with the redhead.
"So Beca," Aubrey's voiced caused her to snap open her eyes and look at the blonde girl. She immediately turned red and looked around at the other girls who were all waiting patiently for Aubrey to ask Beca a question. She subtly shook her head at the girl, trying to tell her she couldn't do it right now. Aubrey shook her head back and smiled reassuringly, mouthing 'You got this'. She let out the breath she didn't realize she was holding and pulled her arm out of Chloe's, the redhead sitting up and looking between Aubrey and Beca curiously.
"So Beca," Aubrey began again. "Truth or dare." Beca looked around at the other girls for a moment before looking back to Aubrey.
"Dare." The girls let out a collective "ooh" and Aubrey smiled at her and thought for a second.
"Tell the rest of the girls about our girls day out last year." The Bellas all gasped. They had seen when Beca and Aubrey had started talking more to each other and getting closer, which none of them really expected. It had all been after the two girls had posted a picture of them on their instagrams captioned "Girls Day Out". The two girls never wanted to talk about that day after and they all leaned forward to hear the story of what actually went down. Beca gulped and looked down when she felt a hand grab hers. She glanced over at Chloe, who had a look of confusion on her face.
"Um, well. It all started with my dad really. I had went over to give him some important news. Well, not news really, more of a fact that he needed to know.." she trailed off, uncertainly. She looked up at Aubrey who used her hand to tell her to go on.
"Um, I uh.. really had to tell my dad that Jesse and I hadn't really broken up.. because we were never really together." The Bellas all looked super confused which would have made Beca laugh if not for the fact she was nervous as hell right now.
"We were never together because I...um, I promised him we could be best friends if he would pretend to be my boyfriend so that no one would find out that I was actually super duper gay and going out with girls." She rushed it out as fast as she could and looked down at Chloe's hand which was still gripping hers. She felt the tears welling up as no one said anything. 'They all hate me.' She thought to herself.
"I'm proud of you, Beca." She glanced up, shocked at Fat Amy's voice. The Bellas all had looks of happiness on their faces, some of them sporting tears.
"You guys don't hate me?" They all shook their heads or answered no, of course not.
"Becs, why did you feel like you couldn't tell us?" She looked over to Chloe and saw the hurt in her eyes. She tightened her grip on Chloe's hand and wiped her eyes with the other.
"I don't know, i just thought you guys would hate me like he did. He threw me out and we haven't talked since." The girls gasped and she heard more than one girl say 'fuck him' under their breath. "Aubrey found me crying in the park and I spilled everything to her. She really helped me out that day." She glanced at Aubrey and gave her a small smile which the girl returned.
"Is that why you were so cozy with that girl from the audience after the show tonight?!" Fat Amy leaned towards her and Beca blushed. "Damn shawshank, hitting on the girls without us even knowing. Playa, playa." The other girls laughed and she heard Chloe chuckle beside her. She looked at their hands, still intertwined and then at Chloe.
"I'm sorry i didn't tell you, Chlo. I was just really nervous to lose our friendship." She saw something flash in Chloe's eyes but before she could figure out what it was the girl smiled at her.
"I understand, Becs. It's hard to come out, I've been there when I came out as bi to my family and everything. It's okay, we understand and we still and will always love you." This made Beca tear up and she pulled Chloe in for a hug.
"Thank you so much, Chlo. You have no idea how much this means to me." Chloe hugged her tightly back.
"Group hug!" She couldn't pull away in time before the other girls crashed into her and Chloe. She wiggled a bit before they got the hint and detached themselves from her. "Alright alright. I love you nerds too." They all smiled at each other before sitting back down.
"So Beca, I heard you singing a song a few nights ago in the shower. It was really beautiful, can you sing it for us?" Chloe asked her, batting her eyelashes at the shorter girl. Beca groaned. A chorus of "Please, Beca!" and "What if we never see each other again?" surrounded her until she sighed. The other girls cheered as she stood and grabbed her guitar that was sitting on the bed.
"Fine. But just because you guys made me feel bad this one time. No more singing from me tonight." She pointed a finger at Chloe who giggled and put her hands up. Beca absently strummed the guitar for a second before shifting and getting comfortable. As she started to play the girls realized this was a song that they never heard before, it was a Beca original. Beca never shared her songs with anyone, not even Chloe. They all gleefully leaned forward to hear her as she started to sing.
Wherever you're going
I wanna go
Wherever you're headed
Can you let me know
I don't mind catching up
I'm on my way
Just can't take the thought of you miles away
The girls all listened to the lyrics as Beca sang to them. She played the guitar beautifully as she sang the song that summed up their entire relationship.
So farewell
Somebody's gonna miss you
Farewell
Somebody's gonna wish that you were here
That somebody's me
The girls knew this was Beca's way of saying goodbye to them and that she would miss them. They watched her close her eyes and saw a small smile grace her lips.
And I'm gon' try to hold it all in
Try to hold back my tears
So it don't make you stay here
Yeah
Ima try to be a big girl now
Cause i don't wanna be
The reason you don't leave
Farewell
Somebody's gonna miss you
Farewell
Somebody's gonna wish that you were here
Farewell
Somebody's gonna miss you
Beca slowed her playing and opened her eyes to look around at the girls.
Farewell
Somebody's gonna wish that you were here
That's somebody's me
She dropped the guitar and let her tears fall as she opened her arms. The Bellas all rushed to her and hugged each other.
"I love you nerds."