Untitled Marthie Fanfic

This is my take on how the scene where Martin tells Ruthie how he feels at the hospital should have went...enjoy!

Chapter 1

Martin stood frozen in the hallway of Glenoak Hospital. The girl he loved, his future, was right in front of him. No one made his heart race or his nerves do somersaults the way Ruthie Camden did, no matter how many times he tried to deny it. "I've lied to myself and to Ruthie long enough; I have to be honest with her, she deserves that much," he said to himself. With that in mind, Martin approached Ruthie timidly.

"Hey Ruthie," he managed to get out.

"Martin?" Ruthie said as she spun around, T-Bone by her side.

"Ah Brewer," said T-Bone, "What do we owe the pleasure?" The sarcasm in his voice made it painfully awkward.

Ignoring him, Martin replied, "Ruthie I was wondering if the two of us could talk," then looking sternly at T-Bone, said, "alone."

"Ok….fine." said Ruthie. "This'll only take a few minutes. In the meantime I could really use some coffee."

"I'm on it." said T-Bone, soon making his way out of sight.

Relieved by T-Bone's exit, Martin motioned for Ruthie to sit down in the waiting area. "So….what did you want to talk about?"

"Well, to be honest, I want to talk about us." said Martin.

"Us? Martin there is no 'us'''. You made that perfectly clear when you decided to sneak around with Jane behind my back."

"Look, Ruthie I'm sorry, Ok? What I did was really sleazy and I can't tell you how much I regret it. If I could go back, I would have done so many things differently with my life, especially concerning you."

"Like what?" she asked.

Martin sighed. "For the longest time I have tried to think of you as a sister, or as a friend. I lived with you in your family's house for awhile, and because of that I thought that I would never develop feelings for you." He paused. This was harder than he thought it would be. "But, after getting to spend more time with you this past week, I've finally allowed myself to admit what I've been feeling all along; I'm in love with you Ruthie."

"What?" she gasped, completely astounded to what she was hearing from the guy she always wanted but could never have.

"I know I sound like I'm coming out of left field with this, but it's the truth."

"Oh, and I suppose you went and told Jane the same thing? That dating me behind her back was a big mistake and you wish you could erase it all and start over? That you love her­­­­—

"—What?! Ruthie that's not what happened at all. You don't understand—

"I don't understand? Well then explain it to me Martin! Give me some clarity for once!"

"Ruthie listen to me," he pleaded, "I know better than anyone else how much I've screwed up. But you need to know that no one else could ever really replace you in my heart. I tried to forget about you by going after Sandy and then eventually Jane because I found out you were with T-Bone, and then that you got his name tattooed on your back…."

"So you cheated with Jane just so you could punish me for that?!"

"No no Ruthie please just let me get this out!" he begged, "I didn't know how to deal with my feelings for you so I hid them by going out with Jane and things just got so out of control and now, well, here we are…."

"Yeah…..here we are…"

Ruthie glared at Martin with an intense melancholy expression. How was she supposed to trust anything he said after all that went down between them? After all he had put her through?

"I ended things with Jane. I had to. Ruthie, if you and I could just agree to date each other, and nobody else, I think we could be really good together."

Ruthie looked up at him and felt her heart begin to break again. She wasn't sure if she could hold the tears back.

Martin took her hand and gently said, "It's always been you, Ruthie. Always. I love you, and I want to be with you." He noticed a tear roll down her cheek and a frown emerge from her lips. As he wiped away the tear she removed his hand from her face and whimpered "No, Martin. You can't just come up to me and tell me all the things I wanted to hear after I've gotten over you….you can't…"

"I can and I will." he answered. "We've both waited long enough."

"But how will I be able to trust you Martin? I mean, how am I supposed to know that this time you're for real?"

The fact that she couldn't trust him sent a throbbing pain to his chest, but he knew it was his fault. "Ruthie I'll do anything and everything—

"You're wasting your breath, buddy" said a familiar voice from behind.

"T-bone" gasped Ruthie.

"Go ahead Ruthie, tell him. Tell this jerk that you're over him and that you don't need him anymore. Tell him that you're happy with me, his ship has sailed." Ruthie slowly stood up. "See Brewer? You had your shot, and you blew it. Now you're gonna see how happy she is without you. Isn't that right?" he said, turning to her.

"Ruthie, please—" said Martin, his eyes tearing up.

"Go ahead Ruthie, tell him." She wanted to, very badly.

Those beautiful green eyes glaring up at her only made what she was about to do even more difficult.

"I—"

End of Chapter 1

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