"Four Letter Word"
You know you can describe how you feel
about her into a simple four letter word, you just don't know which
one.
There is such a fine line between love and hate. Too
fine. Some days, most days, you hate her. Oh how you hate her.
You hate how needy she is. How she unrealistically wants to fix
the world. Fix everything that's broken. Oh how you're
broken.
The days that you hate her, you know that your
realist side has one.
But some days you love her - you
really do. Oh how you love her. You love how she needs you -
no one else does. Some days
you even allow yourself to
fantasize your own life as a fairytale. For a short while you allow
yourself to believe that even though she
cannot fix the world -
that maybe, just maybe, she could fix you. You know that the days
you love her your romantic side has won.
The small romantic part
of you that you didn't even know you had.
There is a
fine line between love and hate and you discover that as the days go
by, the line keeps getting thinner and thinner.
So maybe, just
maybe, one day you can allow yourself to love Allison Cameron.