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Chapter 1: Pieces of a soul. Part 1 Lost Memories.

02/02/2004

It was painless and fast, so different from that time, instead of the blazing hell that wanted to burn everything about me, the cold breeze of the night was so different... so peaceful maybe I could go now, maybe-

"Nooooooooooooo"

'huh'

"Don't do this to me, please not him"

"..cher-

I could feel something warm fall on my face... tears? Someone is crying?

'That voice-

The first memory that I possess is of waking up in a burning field, I had no idea of what had happened, but it seemed to fit the concept of hell... To this day I have yet to see anything similar, not even movies have come close to that hell, at least the ones I have watched.

The fire had died down and I was the only one lucky enough to have avoided the flames, maybe I had rested in a lucky spot, or I was just lucky like that but nothing else remained in that place, not even the buildings stood a chance.

Through the smoke I could see the rising sun, the nightmare would be over soon, but I couldn't survive if I didn't move, yes the flames had died down a little, but the lucky spot had disappeared and the fire was coming for me, burning my feed as I stood there, so I had to move.

I started walking aimlessly, trying to avoid the flames and the corpses of people around me; they begged me to rest next them, to keep them company, but I couldn't do that, I had to go somewhere, somewhere that wasn't there, that is the only reason I kept moving.

But still, I had no hope, I had no energy left and I that had denied the wishes of others couldn't not expect to be saved, no one could save me, because I couldn't save them, I had lasted longer than anyone else, but that was all there was to it, in the end I would join them.

As I collapsed, I could see the sky, it was cloudy, everything around me had burned up, it seems I had outlasted the fire and it was going to rain soon... I sighed deeply and looked at the sky.

I had kept my promise...

?

'Promise?'

"What promise?"

I couldn't remember that promise, I couldn't remember anything prior to waking up in that fire, but that wasn't important anymore I was ready to give up, but a person begged me to be alive, he begged me to not die, and as I opened my eyes, I could see the most beautiful smile in the world and then... I changed...

"I... changed?"

A new scene developed in my eyes, I was floating in the Darkness of the night and under me I could see the city being engulfed in a great fire, everything around me was burning, the trees, the buildings, my home was burning…

my home?

A deep voice spoke to me with an ominous presence

"We were forced to forget everything, as there was no other way for the fire to kill us"

As the voice kept talking I could see the events happening around me, and a little boy that could be nothing but myself sitting in that hell, as the fire ignored him, no the fire was doing its best to burn 'me', but it couldn't get close.

"The fire couldn't burn our soul, couldn't burn our spirit, our soul wouldn't acknowledge the fire, the fire was denied"

"The fire was denied?"

"So it did the next best thing and the only thing it could, it burned our memories, nothing else would had worked and it had already tried everything else, we couldn't burn, we couldn't be tainted, we were too resilient, too hard to consume"

"Why we didn't help anyone else then?"

If 'i' had the power to make the fire ignore 'me', then 'i' should had helped.

"To live we couldn't move, and to die would mean to break our promise, thus we couldn't help them, we couldn't die with them, our promise was too important, to break that promise would be worse than death"

"Our promise? To whom"

"Even when the memories of the promise were gone, we still kept it, because to us that promise had become everything"

I could see 'me' getting up and running through that hell, very much like the first memories that I had, watching as the flames and the corpses called for 'me' begging 'me' to rest with them.

"We saw the sun rise, we saw the flames around us die, we saw the rain fall, and with that the promise was kept and our last anchor to this world had disappeared"

I see the voice is somehow my subconscious showing me what I had forgotten.

"But a person asked us to live, asked us to not die, it was the last of our essence, we could only stay a little longer, but we could fulfill that last request even if only for a few more seconds, or so we though"

"But he saved us"

"He did something, we were saved, and we were changed"

"Changed?"

"We could only survive through change and so, we allowed it, we changed, we became something else, something new, something sharp, something strong, something different.

We changed, we became something else, but our foundations remain the same, because we survived hell, because not even All the World's Evils could break us as long as we fought back, that is why…"

"Fight back..."

A person is begging me to live to not give up, just like that time, that's why I can't die, my father saved me just as much as I had saved him, I can't fail this new person, I failed Dad six years ago, but when someone else is begging me, with this new opportunity, this new beginning, I can't fail, I refuse to fail, whoever is begging me to survive will get that and more.

So what if my heart was pierced, so what if I don't know healing magic my will kept me alive in that hell, compared to that this is a mere love tap, I will survive, I will start anew, I will give my all and I will only allow myself to die without regrets anything else is an insult to those that I could not save, now with regrets in my heart I cannot die, I refuse to die when someone is asking me not to.

"ARRRRRRRHHHHHHHHH"

"Emiya-kun!"

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Part 2 Denial of Fate.

02/02/2004

The cold breeze in the rooftop made the brunette hair dance, the girl was wearing the standard Homurahara uniform with a red coat on top, her name was Rin Tohsaka the school idol, a mysterious and popular girl that had few friends, if she could call any of them real friends.

She wasn't at school because she was being blackmailed by another student to stay, no she was at school for another reason, one that was a secret to modern society; the girl was a magus, and for that reason she had to stay late and disrupt a blood fort type bounded field that threatened her zone of respite, full of the people she called friends even if they were not aware of her problems, they helped a great deal just by being there, some of them at least.

"That is all I can do for now, Archer, we are leaving"

"Leaving already little girl?"

A new voice was heard in the rooftop and the air froze as a man in blue armor glared at her, or most likely at the spiritual presence behind her, the man seemed to have jumped from to ground level to the roof if something like that was possible, and it was if the man in blue armor was a servant and she was pretty sure he was.

"is this bounded field your doing?"

The little girl was glaring at the man in blue armor with daggers in her eyes, if he was the one that had done this...

"No little girl, this kind of things are not my style, I prefer honest fights to the dead-

As he finished talking the man attacked Rin with a Red spear that was deflected by another man with a single white falcion that had manifested right in front of her.

"Rin stay behind me"

The man that had appeared out of nowhere was now protecting Tohsaka with a glare of his own, he was clad in black armor with a red shroud, his hair was white and his eyes pure steel, his name couldn't be said out loud as per the rules of the engagement, but his class was that of Archer.

"A falchion? Are you perhaps saber... No you didn't push me back with force, but with technique, a Saber has both so you can't be one"

The man in Red smirked

And Lancer responded with a glare that could probably kill

"Oh, are you perhaps looking down on me?"

"No, I think that for some Lancer that claims to like honest fights throwing the first punch to a little girl is rather unsightly"

The killing intent on the roof of the school doubled in a flash and the man in blue armor spoke

"I can say the same, a Heroic spirit hiding behind said girl is much worse, if you wore no armor I would call you assassin, but you are most likely Archer"

The situation was getting worse by the second, they were pinned on the roof by Lancer the roof had little room to move around so it was a disadvantage, and if they tried to run away without a plan both her or Archer could be pierced from behind, leaving archer alone to fight while she jumped sounded like a great plan until she took into account the chance that Lancer master could be waiting for her to do that to get another cheap shot at her life, as Tohsaka tried to formulate a plan Archer had manifested another Falchion in his left arm and threw both of them at Lancer; quickly picking Rin and jumping from the roof to the ground while a shocked Lancer dealt with the odd pair of swords.

"You threw you noble phantasm!"

The shocked girl couldn't believe it her archer was too weird, first the memories issues, then the weird personality and now the weird fighting style.

"You are welcome"

The girl knew he had just saved her life, and for that she was grateful, but losing his noble phantasm was too great a price.

"He is about to catch up, Rin once I drop you run and get five meters behind me and keep your guard up"

"OK, but I have to tell you I-

Archer stopped in the middle of the track field, dropped her in the ground and with lighting fast reflex manifested both of his swords again and assumed his battle stance.

"Now get behind me"

Tohsaka did as she was told and just as she was in position behind Archer, Lancer arrived.

Tohsaka was more than impressed, Archer actions so far spoke of a person with lots of battle experience, reacting to threats in an almost perfect manner and even calculating his opponent speed as he ran, Archer wasn't the Saber she wanted, but she couldn't find any faults in him... besides his crooked personality, but that may be her own fault.

"Oh, a change of location, a sound strategy, I would praise you, but honestly I don't like you at all, so I won't. Now archer take your bow, those little things are not strong enough to deal with me and I rather defeat you while you go all out"

Archer paid no heed to Lancer words and charged in with a sword in each hand, Lancer reacted as he should by deflecting and countering again and again, disarming his opponent to Land a quick pierce attack to end the fight, but all his so called finishing blows were deflected by the same swords he had sent flying less than a second ago.

Clank Clank Clank

It was too weird, it was possible to recall noble phantams that were thrown as attacks or disarmed by an opponent, but not at these speeds, unless-

Lancer focused his senses and jumped back to avoid at least a dozen blades that had somehow returned wanting his blood.

"Tsk, that is a pretty underhanded trick you have there Archer, I see you should had been an assassin, your lack of respect for the battlefield makes my blood boil"

"Battlefields are not places for respect, no wonder you died as you did if you held such childish values as a warrior"

The Air in the track field became heavy with bloodlust, even Tohsaka could feel the pressure of Lancer and his Red spear that shone even redder now.

"I must really have terrible luck to get such an infuriating opponent as my first one"

"Being disliked by the Hound of Ireland must be a terrible thing; I do hope to make amends"

Whatever that meant Lancer was not amused by it, on the contrary

"I see, being too famous can be a disadvantage some times, I would ask your name as well, but I have a feeling you aren't big on formalities"

Tohsaka could feel the pressure of the spear getting even more intense whatever was coming meant death... No more like unavoidable death, Tohsaka knew Lancer was going to use his Noble phantasm and Archer would die, it was unavoidable, she knew it and Archer must had known as well, no other choice, she would have to use her command spell to help Archer beat Lancer before he-

"What is going on here?"

Lancer bloodlust dissipated in an instant, Rin knew Archer had been saved by someone... A witness, a witness... And that voice.

Rin Tohsaka was usually a fast thinker and her reaction time was improved greatly by her martial arts training, but she lacked experience and as such, she couldn't cope with the situation right now.

A young man, a student was looking at them at least thirty meters away, she couldn't see him in the dark as clouds blocked the moon, but that voice...

No it can't be

Why would he be at school this late?

No it was impossible... No student could be at school this late, no...

"Rin are you ok?"

Archer was now right in front of her for some reason.

"Archer?"

"You were in a daze for a moment"

"Archer where is Lancer?"

"He left to follow the witness that ran away, most likely to kill him"

No no no, not this.

"Follow him and stop him"

"Rin what is-

"Follow him and stop him!"

Archer left without saying another word as Tohsaka did her very best to keep up with the servant that was several times faster than her, but she was desperate and using Reinforcement to the best of her ability, so she was only a few seconds later than Archer, only to find Lancer holding his now bloodied spear.

"Man killing kids is such a pain, and this one had great eyes too. Oh well I know too well that luck is also part of survival"

The man in blue was now glaring at Archer

"I don't feel like dancing anymore, you irritate me too much, and killing this kid ruined my mood"

"Even I have to agree with that, let's part ways today and meet somewhere else. Rin let's go"

But the girl didn't react, actually she had not listened to a single word of their exchange her mind was overwhelmed and was already in overdrive hard at work to sort all her thoughts.

The first one was of a single boy running alone trying to make a jump that was impossible for him as a girl watched in the distance.

The second was years later, the third, the fourth, the fifth, the sixth, her hated seventh, her eight, her ninth, and how a mark in her hand ruined the last one, all the memories, all the emotions, related to the dying boy and her mind did the only thing it could, for the first time in years her mind broke.

"Nooooooooooooo. Don't do this to me, please not him"

With each cry, with each sob the girl took a step closer to the bloodied mess next to Lancer, that until Archer grabbed her hand and stopped her.

"Archer-

"Rin we have to leave, there is nothing we can do now"

Lancer eyes disarmed completely as he understood what was going on.

"Man, this makes me feel even worse. Archer take the little girl away this is too much for her, I will kill you another day"

With tears in her eyes and resisting the ever increasing force of the servant pulling her away, Rin Tohsaka decided to take action.

"Anfang... Vertrag Ein neuer nagel Ein neues gesetz Ein neues verbrechen.

I command you my servant to keep Lancer away from me for the next five minutes"

Both servant eyes opened wide as the orders of the girl sunk, the command spell activated and the first to act was Archer as he pulled the pair of falcions he had and threw them, and did so again and again while Lancer used his A rank agility to dodge each attack, but each new pair in the air made their overall movements even more unpredictable.

Lancer did his best to dodge and parry, but the number of swords in the air kept increasing; and so did his injuries if the situation kept getting worse then forget the five minutes the girl wanted to mourn, he would be defeated by this infuriating person.

"Screw that"

Lancer was pissed, he was fighting a very infuriating hero, he had been identified, he had to kill a guy that glared at him till the very end and finally had to watch a little girl break down as the person she liked died; unlucky didn't come close this time.

As Lancer cursed this night, the battle took a dramatic turn when the boy he had killed began to shine while his girlfriend (pending confirmation) held a pendant above his heart.

"The hell are they doing"

Archer had all but stopped his attacks seemingly trying to resist the command to engage him in battle to look in the direction of his master and the boy, the supposed dead boy was shining for some reason and so did all the blood he had lost.

"What is with this huge magical sur-

And there was his answer another servant a blonde girl of short stature had been summoned and was the little snowflake powerful, likely a Saber and she had appeared next to the pair of love birds...

Lancer was sure this time, this night was cursed, if the Archer before him was giving him trouble, a team with Archer and Saber would kill him in no time, the girl had done something, or maybe the dying boy...

Details were all but important to Bazett Fraga McRemitz as she saw the whole situation through the eyes of Lancer, he was going to die as thus there was only one thing to do.

Saber was ready to introduce herself to her new master in the quest for the holy grail when the scent of blood and the sense of danger made her get in stance ready to fight whoever had most likely injured her master, but what she found exceeded her expectations by a wide margin.

First, she was surrounded by two servants.

Second, two masters laid on the ground next to her.

Third, she felt a strong connection to the injured bleeding boy in the arms of the brunette, with meant her master had already been severely injured.

Fourth, she felt a much weaker connection to the girl, but that shouldn't have been possible to begin with.

What to do in this situation?

Clearly one of them was her master, but to have a connection to both?

The best thing to do is to protect both of them until the situation is clear, yes that was the best idea.

As Saber mused with the idea one of the servants vanished, likely a command spell was used.

The other servant a man in black armor with a red shroud was clearly trying to understand the situation as much as she did.

"Are you a servant?"

The young brunette was holding her master as if trying to protect him.

"Yes, I am Servant Saber, girl I must ask why are you protecting my master from me?"

"Your master? Emiya-kun is not even a ma-

Both women suddenly flinched, but for very different reasons, Saber at the mention of the last name Emiya, and Rin as she felt Shirou Emiya vice-captain and ace of the archery club, her most valuable friend and apparently secretly a magus.

"Impossible, Emiya-kun shouldn't be a Magus, so why does he have Magic circuits!"

Her mind was quickly on overdrive again

Could her secret crush really be a magus?

Could he have lied to her for so long…?

Impossible!

Another explanation!

He almost died and was overflowed with Prana as she tried to heal the damage to his heart with her pendant and a sudden mutation occurred…

Unlikely…

That'll do for now…

Wait, He has a magic crest too

Sudden mutation cannot explain the crest

Could he have lied to her for so long?

Could he be just like every other magus in the world?

Impossible!

Impossible!

But…

As the poor girl was about to lockup Archer interrupted her musings and dragged her back to reality.

"Rin we have to leave the school. Other masters could come, so we better leave now"

Yes, Archer was right they had to leave, she had used a command spell and her best jewel, she couldn't risk anything else, but she was going to take HIM with her and force him to tell her the truth even if she had to use her nastiest spells to get him to-

"I do hope you aren't thinking of taking my master with both of you"

Saber had too many questions, the girl and her servant seemed to have saved her master, but in battle things could change quickly, so she wasn't going to let them take her injured master anywhere…

"You can come too, you are a Saber so you are probably stronger than my Archer, so you have little to fear from us, also I think I deserve some answers after using a command spell and my best Jewel to save him "

Saber looked deeply into the girl Aqua marine eyes, her eyes held confusion, but more than anything else they held resolve, the girl was strong.

"Very well"

And with those words the group left, Saber carrying her injured master as she followed the other pair to a residence in an unfamiliar part of the city.

That night Lancer took a cold bath for the first time after he was summoned as Bazett held a candle with a blue flame while chanting words in ancient Celtic.

Part 3 Bad End 41

02/02/2004

The situation was very strange to Archer, he had participated in the fifth Holy war countless times before; he had been summoned by Rin Tohsaka and Rin had botched the summoning so he had lost part of his memories again, but this time the obstinate girl had been honest admitted her mistake asked for advise, and threatened to use a command seal when he got cocky and asked her to lay low while he did all the job fairly simple changes from the standard.

But now… now everything had gone to hell, his past self-had survived his encounter with Lancer and Rin had saved him again, but this was the first time Saber had been summoned at the school with no circle no less, and the first time Saber didn't outright try to kill him and Rin the first time they meet, not only that but Saber was now right behind him carrying his unconscious naive past self while they headed for the Tohsaka residence to check on his condition.

Could this be his original timeline, the final release to his eternal torture?

"Emiya-kun seems to be out of danger.

However, I am very surprised and troubled that his Magic Circuits are leaking such a high amount of Prana, I never felt anything like this before and he even has a crest"

Probably not; for some reason this version of him had some sort of relationship with his master beyond mere students and if that wasn't enough to discard this as his own timeline, the crest certainly was.

"What sort of relationship you have with my master, master of Archer"

Rin Tohsaka was overwhelmed with thoughts, the boy she loved had survived and this made her feel relief, but she could feel all his magic circuits working at full force, something that wasn't normal at all, and the fact that the body received no damage for such an abnormal situation was even weirder

"Girl I do not like to be ignored"

"Eh, you said something Saber? Sorry I was thinking about something"

Saber eyebrows moved if only slightly

"What sort of relationship you have with my master?"

"I would like to know as well Master"

Archer was more curious than anything at this point.

"Well, He is one of my class mates, vice captain and ace of the Archery club, apparently a magus that I knew nothing about in MY CITY and..."

The girl flushed if only slightly and then grimaced at the still unconscious boy.

"and a dead man if he can't give a proper explanation to this" She pointed at the sword shaped command seals in the back of his left hand "and this" pointing at the shining magic crest in his right arm.

Archer knew that Shirou Emiya would almost always take part in the fifth grail war, and most of the time his circuits had nothing to do with it, the noble phantasm avalon was usually the reason he was chosen.

"Wouldn't the second explain the first?"

In reward for his question Archer got a very menacing glare.

"No. even if Emiya-kun is a magus, that wouldn't explain why the Grail choose him, normally the person needs to have some sort of wish, but Emiya-kun told me that things earned through effort have their own worth and shortcuts just reduce the value"

As they came to the intersection that connected the school, the northern and southern parts of town a female voice called them in the distance

"That sounds very much like a thing my son would say"

It was hard to distinguish the owner of said voice, but the group had no choice, but to stop to identify the possible threat.

"Impossible I used a strong spell; normal people should be ignoring us"

A new pair of people, both females came into view under the street lights; one of them was a blue haired woman in a green dress with a flower pattern, while the other was a white haired woman in a white dress, once again the white haired albino spoke

"I was very worried, I felt my son almost die, seeing him alive gives me relief"

"Irisviel?"

Saber couldn't help to gasp as her own words escaped her mouth, she was still alive!

"Who?"

The white haired woman gave Saber a quizzical look, only to quickly change to mild amusement.

"You kept your memories?"

Rin couldn't help to interrupt

"You two know each other?"

The white haired woman was the one to answer

"Not really, my appearance is similar to someone she knew, but you are cheating Saber, servants aren't supposed to keep their memories"

"You know about the grail war and the rules, white hair… are you perhaps-

"I am talking with Saber.

I'll be sure to take care of the rest of you in due time.

Once again Saber, why you know Irisviel… No I'll find out myself"

As she said that, the black eyes of the unidentified Albino began exert pressure on the group.

"So that is why you keep your memories, interesting"

Those eyes gave all of them a bad feeling specially Archer as he felt the glare penetrate his very soul

"Oh interesting indeed, you are all very interesting!"

"What are you?"

Rin could feel it, whatever those eyes did wasn't something normal.

"I am the mother of my son, the one you seem to love girl"

"Wha-

"Don't worry, I like your past, losing every loved person you have had and moving forward breaking a little more with each step, yes I like you, you will make a fine daughter"

"What are you talking about!?"

"Oh, do I need to explain myself dear?"

Archer was the first one to react as he manifested a falchion on each hand

"I don't know who or what you are, but I would appreciate if you stop the mental attacks on my master"

"Oh, I have to deny that request dear, even from you my dear family; after all mental attacks are my line of expertise"

Did she just call him family? What is she talking about… no wait, she said Shirou was her son…

IMPOSSIBLE

"Let's see, a Servant that isn't dead yet, a girl worthy of becoming my daughter, and…

Oh I am sorry dear, but even if you are who you are, in that state you are useless to me"

Saber was the one to speak as she placed her master gently on the sidewalk

"If you aren't Irisviel, then who are you?"

"You may call me whatever you want now, soon you'll call me mother.

Medea dear take care of that little girl on the back, but do be careful, no permanent damage allowed, she is going to be your sister after all"

"I don't know what kind of mad magus are you, but a human taking on a servant, let alone two of them is impossible"

Saber expected the woman to retreat, not such a thing happened.

"Medea is a servant, so she should be enough to subdue the girl without doing permanent damage.

I am more than capable of taking on you saber, and my son can easily take care of Archer"

And in little more than 7 seconds the white haired Albino recited an Aria that ended everything.

"Dual is life

Dual is fate

Where there is light

Where there is hate

As the sword of justice sleeps

The sword of Darkness shall take its place"

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Author Notes:

Thanks for reading my first newb fic!

English is my second language so, I am sorry if I made you feel like vanilla Shirou a couple of times "You lost me"

The rough outline I want to take is mostly done and spawns all relevant events prior the Grail War, (to explain all the funky changes the Grail war is going to have), but will do my best to keep you guessing what happened before telling you what went wrong... or I hope to try, Anyways is 2 AM ZOMG... so I better sleep for now.