Family portrait
Mom is crying again from her fight with dad. I hate it when she cries it hurts me. I wish they didn't fight.
~Momma please stop cryin,
I can't stand the sound
Your pain is painful
and its tearin' me down ~
~Crash~ I flinch as I hear stuff breaking in the kitchen from where I sit in my room. I have
told my dad when mom wasn't around that she didn't mean all those mean things, She was
just angry.
~I hear glasses breakin
as I sit up in my bed
I told dad you didn't mean
those nasty things you said~
I look over at my brother and see him crying so I get up from my own bed and climb on to
his and hold him as I hear them fight over money, and my brother and me. I always come
back to this everyday this is my shelter.
You fight about money,
bout me and my brother
And this I come home to,
this is my shelter
It ain't easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, you'll see
I don't want love to destroy me like it has done
my family
I hate to come back to this place because it is always feel like I'm in World war three. I can't
remember the last time I was hugged or even what love is anymore. I don't want to grow up
and let love destroy me like it has my family, I won't let it!
~Can we work it out
can we be a family
promise I'll be better
Mommy I do anything~
I have tried to help them to stop fighting just so we can be a family again. I even promised
to be a better daughter. I told mom I would do anything if only we can be together again.
~Can we work it out
can we be a family
promise I'll be better
Daddy please don't leave~
I keep asking them not to fight, I always say I'm going to be better if only daddy wouldn't leave!
~Daddy please stop yelling
I can't stand the sound
Make mama stop crying
Cause I need you around~
I flinch when I hear dad yell at mom and I placed my hands against my ears because I hate
the sound. I've asked him to please don't make mom cry because I want them both around.
~My mama she loves you
no matter what she says it's true
I know that she hurt you but
remember I love you too~
I have told dad when mom wasn't around that I know she loves him, even if she says things
that aren't true. I also told him that just because she said hurtful things that he needs to
remember I love him too.
~ I ran away today
ran from the noise
ran away, ran away
don't want to go back to that place
but don't have no choice no way~
I ran as far and as fast as I could. I just couldn't take the noise anymore! I don't want to go
back to that house, but I don't have a choice I'm too small to live by myself and I could never
stay at a friends. They would ask question I couldn't answer.
~it ain't easy growing up in World War Three
never knowing what love can be I've seen
I don't want love to destroy me
like it has done my family~
~Can we work it out
can we be a family
promise I'll be better
Mommy I'll do anything~
~Can we work it out
can we be a family
promise I'll be better
Daddy please don't leave~
I feel like it's WW 3 at my house, with all the yelling and fighting that goes on there. I have
asked if we can work it out so we can be a family again. I have promised I would be better
if daddy wouldn't leave.
~In our family portrait
we look pretty happy
lets play pretend
act like it comes naturally~
~I don't wanna have to spilt the holidays
I don't want two addresses
I don't want a step brother anyway
and I don't want my mom to have to change her last name~
I was looking at our family portrait the other and couldn't help but noticed how happy we
looked. I often wondered if we could play pretend and act like we did back then. I heard
them say something about a divorce and told them no. I told them I didn't want to have to go
to one house for a holiday and to a different house for another holiday. I said I didn't want to
have two addresses, I don't want a step brother and I really didn't want mom to change her
last name.
~In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do
anything)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
Let's play pretend act and like it comes so
naturally
(I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave)
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Turn around please
Remember that the night you left you took my
shining star?
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Don't leave us here alone
Mom will be nicer
I'll be so much better, I'll tell my brother
Oh, I won't spill the milk at dinner
I'll be so much better, I'll do everything right
I'll be your little girl forever
I'll go to sleep at night~
That night I cried holding my brother as he cried till he fell asleep. I heard
the door slam and and my dad's truck pull out of the driveway. I told them I
would do anything. I would be nicer, I would be better, anything but they
took my fragile hope, my last shining star of hope and crushed it. So I sat
there with my brother just crying knowing that my brother would go with
our dad Sebastian and I would stay with our mom Ciel.
The End