Prologue.
"So?" He looked into my eyes; looked into my soul... and I saw something that I had never seen before. Insecurity. Vulnerability. Pain. He was my best friend, my first love, and while I was not in love with him anymore, he meant the world to me. "What will it be?"
I swallowed hard, very hard, staring him in the eyes. I didn't want to tell him the truth; that I'd made my decision a long time ago. It took me so long to realize what it was, of course, but now I knew. Now I knew, and there was no going back.
I never broke eye contact as I started backing away... backing into the arms of the man I loved; of the side that I was on.
"I'm sorry." I whispered softly, "I'm so, so sorry."