Bella P

Bella P.O.V

Have you ever felt so alone that you feel sick in the stomach, or have you ever felt so broken you just don't want to go on? Well that's me. Bella Swan. My parents dies when I was 10 and I have been in an orphanage ever since and I hated it. I want from house to house and knew that no one wanted me. I have been though very thing bad imaginable. One foster family abused me, another one had a son who raped me, and on and on it goes.

It wasn't always this bad in the orphanage I used to have 5 close friends. One being the only person I let in, my best friend Edward. I could talk to him like no other and knew he wouldn't judge me. Back then all we talk about was what we liked and about our parents. His sister Alice always was a bundle full of energy that made me laugh and feel up beat. Emmett his brother was the ultimate goof ball and was a big 5 year old. Rosalie was another one of my friends and same with her brother Jasper. They were sweet and caring. We were all together for ages, joined at the hip until everything changed.

Edward's aunt and uncle from overseas came back and adopted them. I was so upset, it killed me. I remember the day as if it was only yesterday.

'Edward please don't go I need you here with me!' I cried. Tears spilled out of my eyes like rivers and I didn't bother to wipe them away. Edward was about to leave me forever my best friend, the one I could trust and talk too.

'Bella I have too, I'm so, so sorry. I can't just say know there my aunt and uncle. Please don't cry Bella I can't stand it when you cry.'

Edwards own eyes were glistening with tears ready to fall. He gently wiped mine away on my face with his thumb and leaned down and gave me a peck on the lips. 'We will see each other again Bella I promise.'

'I'll miss you,' I whispered.

'I'll miss you too everyday; I will never forget you Bella don't forget that.'

After another quick kiss on my cheek he left with his family and I haven't seen him since.

My heart shuttered that day and it has never fully repaired. Actually no, its only gotten worse. A little while after that Rosalie and Jasper were adopted by some couple leaving m by myself…again. I still think about them everyday, where they are, if they are okay, and if they remember me or think about me too. The only thing I have in memory of them is an old photo of all 6 of us smiling like fools, and hanging off the beds in the orphanage. I smile when ever I see it remember how things used to be.

Anyways, when I reached the age of 18 I was finally able to access my inheritance money and as soon as I found that out I ran away. I couldn't stand to go back to another foster home not knowing what was to come. I couldn't get attached to any one when I would just have to leave them again; I've already had enough people leave me.

So here I am now walking into the front gates of Lucreast College hoping to start a new, fresh beginning. Hoping being the key word there.

I walked up to the front registrations office to get my forms, I managed before I ran away from the orphanage to get all my paper work from my file. Thank god Emmett taught me to pick locks when we were younger. I felt a pain tug my heart when I thought about him.

'Hello dear how may I help you?' An old woman asked peering over her glasses.

'I'm Isabella Swan, I start this year I sent over my paper word a couple of weeks ago,' I said sweetly.

'Oh yes, we have been waiting for you. Here are your papers and dorm key, map and schedule. Have a nice year.'

I wonder how many times she has said that to the new students here this past week, I mused as I grabbed my stuff and began to head for the lift. Room 308, I wonder who I'm sharing with, I hope there nice. I could use some new friends I haven't made any friend since Edward and the guys. Actually that's a lie, there was Joe. One of my foster family's son. He was so nice and kind, he was like the brother I never had. I stayed with them for months but naturally I had to leave. I kept in contact with him but I stopped when I moved again to another home. Another person I miss and won't see again, I thought grimly.

I fidgeted with the keys trying to open the door for god knows how long, but when I finally opened the room I couldn't help but stare at it in awe. It was better then I imagined, it was so much more homey then the orphanage. It looked like my room mate was already here and unpacked. They had taken the bed on the left side of the room leaving me with the right, which I preferred. I dumped my stuff in front of my bed and fell onto it in exhaustion.

'So tired,' I mumbled and closed my eyes slowly drifting off to sleep.

'Hey you must be my room mate,' a loud voice said startling me awake. I turned to the door way were a guy my age was standing. He looked so familiar but I couldn't put my finger on it.

Black hair, brown eyes, really tall…

'Oh My God,' I squealed. 'Joe!'

I ran up to him and engulfed him into a hug. I was so happy what are the chances of him being here?

'Um, hello, I thought I asked for a sane room mate,' he said cautiously.

I pulled away and stared at his confused face and I smiled wider 'It's me Bella you idiot! From the orphanage, wow you were always slow but this is just getting bad!'

Realization hit him and he gave me his famous 1000 watt smile at me. 'Bella! Is that you, wow look at you.'

This time he scooped me up in his brotherly hugs that I remembered from ages ago, they always made me relaxed and calm.

'I know aye, look at you! You're so tall, you're a freak!'

He laughed at me and gave me a nookie 'Same old Bella.'

'Get off me,' I pushed him away. I haven't felt this happy on so long. 'What's been happening, why are you here, do you know anyone?'

So many questions swarmed in my head and I wanted to ask them all but he clamed a hand around my mouth preventing me from continuing.

'Calm down Bella,' he chuckled. 'Nothing has been happening, obviously I'm here to get an education,' this made me roll my eyes. Trust him to be a smartass. 'And yes I do know some people here, I came back to see if my room mate had arrived and you have so I was wondering if you would like to come with me to met them?'

I went to answer but all that came out was mumbles because his hand was still covering my mouth, so instead I began to nod furiously.

'Awesome, I'm so glad you're here, this year has gotten so much better!'

I couldn't help but agree.