Dear journal, lets talk about kagome,

It's strange, long ago, kagome told me to write down my thoughts in this book called a journal, I thought it was a total bluff, what can a book do to really help me, that's what killing demons are for, well or so I thought. Anyways I thought id give it a try. Damn I feel stupid right now, even though im writing, I feel like im talking to myself.

Might as well start,

Dear Journal,

I've been keeping secrets, I've been lying to everyone including Kagome. See everyone thinks I still have feelings for Kikyo, in my opinion a bad mistake. Kikyo might have been someone I thought I could love in the past, but after spending years fighting demons by Kagome's side, I came to realize how truly wrong I was. Lately it seems I feel like im losing her, like what ever im doing is pushing her away. I wanna tell her how I feel, but something inside me stop's it's like im scared, HA weird right, me a half demon scared of rejection. Well then again there is the fact that im also half human. I'm just so lost and confused. In my dreams, I see myself walking Kagome down a path covered in flowers, I bend down, take her hand and look her straight in the eye, slowly I ask. '' Kagome well you do me the honor of being my wife". But I always wake up before her answer. Its like I already know what the answer would be. I don't know if it's just me being paranoid or just plan stubborn, it's just deep down, I feel as if the answer she was going to say was NO. And maybe me waking up is because im scared to hear it. I have to do something, I know I gotta fess up before its to late. My actions don't show much, every time I try to comment to her, it ends up me saying something hurtful. Hell I can't even speak to her without messing things up. But I think tomorrow might be the day for me to man up and speak my mind, without hurtfulness. It's a start anyways.

I closed the Journal and took in a deep breath, I was alone in the woods, away from everyone, if there's one thing I hate its being questioned.

I knew i had to get back before the other's got worried. I sighed and stood up, I started brushing off the dirt that was on my pants when i heard a Russell in the weeds, my ear swerved to the direction, I turned my head and noticed Kagome walking up. I suddenly felt panic.

She walked up to me smiling. " Hey it's getting late, why are you still out here, aint you cold?"

leave it to her to worry, I shook my head. " My body is always warm, I thought maybe after all of these year's you'd learn I aint like normal humans"

She laughed and shrugged. " I know, I just like to ask. Why don't we get back, the other's are worried."

I nodded. " okay"

On the way back to camp I had so much running through my mind, in flashes I remembered my dreams, I glanced at her and instantly blushed. How foolish.

She turned to look at him and noticed his cheeks were slightly pinkend. That shocked her. She stopped.

I turned back to look at her. " what's the matter?"

She just stared. " why are you blushing?"

I gulped, oh crap, im busted.

I laughed nervously. " What are you talking about?"

Her hands went to her hips. " come on Inuyasha, i know you better than you think, and YOUR blushing."

I groaned, and thought better now then ever. But I decided the easer way for her to find out, with out me looking like a fool was for me to ask her this. " I written in that book you gave me, well you do me a favor and read it when im sleeping? "

She raised and eyebrow, " Why when your sleeping"

He sighed and got frustrated. " Well you read it or not,"

She looked at him like he lost his mind. And just shrugged and nodded.

" Sure, I guess"

I said thanks and turned back to start walking again. Maybe when she reads it, it would make things easier. Hopefully