Disclaimer: I do not own the Xmen.
Bamph
Chapter 1:
Sitting in that car she knew she was safe, safe from the future. If she got out of that car then that's when it would all begin to change. She would have to go home to her bed and go to sleep, wake up the next day on her own and start to face the world alone again. She wanted to stay in that moment forever, not because she held it dear but because leaving it would confirm everything, would mark the beginning of a journey she didn't want to take.
Rogue had been seeing Remy, ever since she had managed full control of her powers she had let him in. Remy had (after the Acolytes disbanded) joined the X-men but decided to live in his apartment, coming in for the training sessions, meetings and missions but mainly (or so she had thought) to see her. How was she supposed to carry on being around him? To be friends with him or even have him near where she could still smell all the memories?
She got out of the car, after trying her best to make it last all night Remy had said he was tired and Rogue couldn't torture herself anymore, she looked at him long and hard and he lowered his gaze looking at the handbrake that lay between them. Rogue let her eyes wander round the car that she had sat in so many times, she had begun to think of that seat as her seat but it wasn't anymore, the man in the drivers seat wasn't hers anymore so she had no right over anything. She looked back as she shut the door behind her and saw the concern in Remy's eyes she said goodbye and made her way up the garden path to the front door of the mansion. It was dark outside, and cold. It was October, their relationship had peaked in the summer and now she faced winter by herself. She let herself in and was welcomed by a deafening silence, she walked up the stairs and turned to her left and started her way down the corridor, she walked straight past her room and carried on until the end of the corridor and made her way up a spiral staircase which led to the Attic room were she climbed up onto the big bed by the window, curled into a ball and began to sob.
Storm gently woke up to see Rogue's fragile figure shaking slightly next to her on the bed, she knew instantly what had happened and began to stroke Rogues hair. Eventually Rogue fell asleep on Storm's bed, her face was covered in streaky tear marks and she slept with a frown. 'Oh what have you done Remy?' Storm thought.
Rogue woke up the next day in Storm's bed, she wandered were she was for a blissfully ignorant second then remembered what had happened, she suddenly felt very tired again but got up anyway, Storm was no where to be seen so Rogue stumbled out of the room. She felt completely numb all over and very slightly sick. She made her way down the spiral stair case and walked the length to her room. She saw nobody in the hallway which could only of been a good thing,
although Remy had said he would pull everyone to one side and tell them what had happened he wouldn't be there for 2 more hours and she couldn't pretend to everyone she was OK, suddenly the thought hit her, he would be there in 2 hours, how was she going to survive seeing him?
She looked around her room, she had spent so little time in it over the past few months that it seemed to taunt her,
it seemed strange and alien to her like she didn't belong in it, like a hotel suit, a place to stay when she wasn't at home, at Remy's. What was she going to do with all the stuff? The stupid cheap green shark he had named George which he had won at a funfair and then insisted that Rogue was only the babysitter, the memory brought a ghost of a smile to her pale cracked lips. Then there was his birthday present at the bottom of her wardrobe all ready for his birthday in November, should she still give it to him? Oh God she felt like she was imploding, her heart began to race for longing of him.
Rogue couldn't take being in her room so she grabbed a towel and made her way into the bathroom, a hot shower might help her racing heart. She started to remove her rings and bracelets when she stopped and looked at a purple band that she had barely taken of since she had got it, it was just some silly band that one of the Xmen had brought in,
there were two however, a purple one and a pink one. When Rogue had seen them she had gone to grab the pink one but Remy had been too quick and grabbed it first leading to a small fight between the two of them were Remy had accidently dropped it and it had gone under the table, he had dived under the table and grabbed it but at the same time ripped his boxers leading to Rogue collapsing in a fit of giggles and allowing him to keep the pink one and she had settled for the purple one. They had laughed so hard.
After her shower she went downstairs it was 15 minutes till their training session and she needed coffee.
"Morning Rogue!" Kitty sang "I thought you would have arrived with Gambit?" And there it was, the first sting of many Rogue knew would come.
"We broke up... No don't you dare, you just sit there and carry on with your breakfast... I mean it." Kitty had gone to get up and give Rogue a hug but Rogue couldn't face sympathy, she just needed to get on with it.
Rogue sat down at the table with her coffee and newspaper and tried her hardest to concentrate, but it wasn't long before the tears had begun to fall.
"Can I really do this Kit?" She looked up at the girl hoping she would know all the awnsers.
"I really, really don't know Rogue, but you have got to be strong, he's obviously an idiot for letting you go." Again more of what Rogue was expecting. She had expected people to either think that she had ended it with Remy or that people would assume that Remy had done something awful, but the truth was he hadn't, all he'd done was lost his feeling for her, how could she be mad at him for that?
Rogue wiped her eyes and dried her cheeks, she couldn't let him see her like this, he had never seen her cry and she'd be damned if he ever would. She walked down into the briefing room and sat in her normal seat, Kitty had offered to occupy the seat next to her which was usually Remy's but Rogue declined, if she had to live with him in her life still then things were just going to have to go back to the way they were before they started dating, which included sitting next to him in briefings before training.
Now Rogue was playing the waiting game, nearly everyone was there now, but Remy was late. No one in the room knew about what happened the night before except herself and Kitty, it was only a matter of time before he either arrived or someone asked were he was.
The sound of the doors separating behind her announced his arrival to her, she didn't know whether to turn around and smile or just carry on looking forward, in a split second decision she turned in her chair to look at him, at the man who had less than 12 hours ago broken her heart, the man who a whole day ago had been her boyfriend. She forced a friendly smile, he responded with an awkward glance and leaned up against the doors. A rush of upset swept over her, how strange that HE should be the one to be awkward after she had so clearly extended her forgiveness in that smile, after she had made a clear attempt to show him that she still wanted to be friends with him, how insolent of him not to accept that olive branch and come and sit by her and resume what had been their friendship before the relationship. She had never been so infuriated before in her life.