Hey Reader, this is my very first Fanfiction and i do not own any rights of the mortal instruments, they belong to Cassandra Clare.

Valentine is gone and all he left her was a short letter...

Today is his funeral. And the woman he loved with all his heart is standing on a hill, looking down to his grave. In her Hand she holds a letter from the men she secretly never stopped loving, although he broke her heart and poisoned her unborn son. She is unable to cry, she is not even able to breath but she is able to read his last words for her.

My dear Princess,

If you are reading this piece of paper, it means I passed away. I have done so many mistakes in my life, love. But the one I regret the most was letting you go. You will always be in my heart, my beloved princess. I know I am not the man you deserve but I tried so hard. You were the person that made me human. The person that protected me from the deep darkness in my soul and the only person that believed in me, although I hurt you again and again.

To love is to destroy, my dear. Because on the day you left me you destroyed any humanity you ever saw in my heart.

But hope never left me. I always hoped you would come back, one day. I prepared a room for you in my new house, I carried all your dresses and clothes with the hope that you would maybe wear them again, one day.

You destroyed me, love. Although I died a physical death, my heart has already died ages ago, on the day you left me. I will never stop loving you, because you were the only good thing in my life. The only thing I will never allow myself to regret.

You are the most beautiful, powerful and bravest woman I ever met and you will always be the love of my life.

Forgive me, Love, for all the pain I caused you,

Valentine Morgenstern

The woman fell down on her knees, crying. She hated herself for what she was feeling but it was nothing but the truth. "You said to love is to destroy, but you are wrong! To destroy is to love! You destroyed me and my heart but I do still love you! I never stopped, because you were the man I gave my heart to, you were the man I always wanted to live with and you were my one true love! You destroyed ME Valentine Morgenstern because YOU made me loving you, although you are a Monster!"

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