Author's notes: First off thanks so much for reading guys, I have some awesome ideas for where this story is gonna go so I'll be sure to it updated, you guys be sure to read up!

Lemony goodness will ensue soon enough but there will be a lot of tension.. you'll seeeeee ;-)

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"Bella.. Bella, please answer me. I need you to get up. It's the day before Alice's birthday. It's a big one, we gotta go shopping!"

I awoke to the shrilling of Rosalie's beautiful-but-at-times-such-as-these-can-be-over-the-top-annoying-as-hell voice. I defeatedly pulled at the pillow under my head and lazily covered my face with it, knowing that in a mere second Rose would pull it off my face.

"BELLA! UP! NOW!" she pulled the pillow off my face and held it over her head, looking as though she was going to hit me with it. Her crazed blue eyes looking at me determinedly.

"ughhhhh!" I rolled over and stuffed my face into my other pillow. "what happens if I don't?!"

"well I call Alice and tell her you've been getting more than your fair share of coffee. You know how she feels about you and all that caffeine. She'll snatch away the special mix Esme made for you in an instant!" she inspected her nails smugly. "and I wont do a thing to stop her." she looked down, away from her nails and at me giving me her 'you might as well get up, there really is no point in fighting it' face.

"I really dislike you right now."

"well if that's what it takes to get your ass up, than I guess that's the price I must pay my dear friend."

Rose and Alice were my absolute best friends. I had gotten to know them the last day of my junior year when I showed up to my junior prom with a few wisps of hair falling out of my up-do. I thought it looked cute- elegant even. They told me it was an atrocity. They fixed my hair and make up (they said my skin was too pretty to have all that "icing" on my face. I hated the make up too but I swore to my neighbor I would let her do it.) and even though we should have gone back to the dance we ended up going back to Alice's place and watching "The Breakfast Club"

I never had a best friend, never anybody other than my mother. And my mother really was best friend material. But when I moved to Forks, she wasn't there to tell my secrets to. Or there to wipe the tears from my face the first day at Forks High School.

But looking back I didn't even care anymore about the fact that it had taken me a full school year to meet the best friends I would ever have.

Rose looked me up and down critically. "Shower. Now"

"Yesssss Sir!"

I took my time showering, this was the only alone time I was going to have all day, I knew it. I let the hot water crash over my hair and shoulders, flow down my stomach and trickle down my center. I moaned a little, I couldn't help it. For some reason, whenever I really truly relaxed, it was in the shower. The steam hit me at all different directions. I used my favorite body wash, lavender and freesia. I slowly, carefully washed my hair with my strawberry shampoo and rinsed it out. I completely calm and ready for the day when I stepped out of the shower. And to my pleasant surprise I was greeted at the door by Rose and a fresh cup of Esme's special coffee mix. I sat down at the table in the kitchen of my, Rose's, and Alice's apartment.

"Soo buddy. What's the plan for today," I asked, sipping my coffee, not hiding my fear and despair of the terror I knew would come today.

Rose took a notepad out of her ivory double breasted coat, she and Alice had a tremendous sense of style but I was so much more simple. Jeans and tee for sure.

"well, honestly we're just going to pick up a couple last minute things. Then we're going to head off to lunch and pick up Jasper and Emmett from the airport," she smiled at the thought of how happy Alice would be when she saw Jasper at her birthday, he was supposed to be in Texas for another 4 months and I remember how depressed she was when he called her to let her know he wouldn't be able to get here. I smiled and giggled at the thought of how she would jump on him and kiss him and probably cry when she saw him, I was pretty excited to see that. And of course Rose was undoubtedly dieing to Emmett. I had missed them both, because they too were good friends of mine. However, I wasn't too happy about the constant comments about their totally gorgeous brother who had been in Chicago for his first year of college and was flying down for break. It was getting sad how obvious they were making the fact that they wanted me to him. "Edward is going to get here tomorrow though, and you- I mean we wont see him till the party."

I rolled my eyes, there she goes again.

"oh come on Bells!" she whimpered. "You would love him, he is such a great guy."

"I don't doubt he is, the thing is I don't feel ready to be in a relationship. don't make fun of me please Rose but I've barely ever kissed someone!"

"he's not some horn dog Bells! And he knows in what deep shit he would get in if he ever messed with our best friend. Kay? So just.. Meet him.. please?

"Meet him. that's. it. I'm not some commitment-phobe but it's a scary thing. You know?"

"oh Bells, still the little girl me and Alice came to love, dearly. Sweetie. Being in love is the best thing in the world," she was serious and looking thoughtfully at me. "and you don't have to fall in love with him, just- look you never know who you could- you never know who could be your soul mate."

"Rose. I get it. I know you want this for me-"

"more than anything-"

"so I'll meet him. But please don't-" I sighed "don't get your hopes up"

"..Bells. You deserve this.. You have always deserved so much, you never got much because you've always been so busy with everyone else. You are the most selfless person I've ever met other then Esme. You have always been loved, sweetheart, but it's about time you get the type of love you really deserve, a different kind, one that is will make- even your heart bigger- that will make everything you've been doing you're whole life, worth doing. So trust me when I say that you truly deserve, what I know is coming to you."

And with that she kissed my head and left to the lobby to wait for me.

Charlie, Renee, and Jacob had always loved me more than I thought a person could love someone. Phil was amazing, too. Then I met Alice, Rosalie and their mother (my second mother), Esme. And then Emmett and Jasper. They were my family. My life. I didn't know how a person could feel more love. I let her lecture me because I knew why she did it, she loved me. But If I really was meant for true love, it would find me. At least I hoped.

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