Alternate Jennifer
Chapter One
Dr. Jennifer Keller was safely back on Atlantis after yet another life or death situation. was taking her shift and she knew she should use the time to get some rest, but there was something she needed to do first. She'd been doing a lot of thinking recently, about her situation with Ronon and Rodney.
It had all started after Ronon had been changed by the wraith. As she helped him through his addiction she began to know him, listening to his ramblings and soothing him when he was in pain. Without even realizing it she had become quite attached to the giant Satedan. A few weeks after he had left the infirmary she had decided she would go and ask him for a drink or something. She had, however, bottled it and ended up just asking if he would help her with self-defense. After a few sessions and some more harmless flirting, she and Ronon were spending more of their free time together, and then Rodney got ill. She had always been friends with Rodney, and she was probably one of the few people aside from SGA1 who would put up with him for any amount of time. He wasn't the nicest guy in the world, but he was friendly to her, and a lot of fun to wind up. Then he had said something that had shocked her. "I love you, and I have done for sometime". That was the last thing she had been expecting. She had been touched, no-one apart from her family had ever told her that before, and she soon began to feel guilty; how could he have such strong feelings for her when she had only ever seen him as a friend. Her flirtations with him had mainly been to help the guy out, he wasn't exactly good with people, let alone women. Now it seemed he had taken it all more seriously than she had thought.
After his confession, Jennifer decided to put a hold on any romantic notions for a while and just see what happened. She could be reading the whole situation wrong, after all Rodney was ill when he told her, and couldn't be a hundred percent sure on the context of his statement. She had watched the video over and over trying to find a clue as to his motivation. Hadn't he, when he became disorientated or distressed, called for John and no-one else? He might not have meant anymore than friendship, like he was with John. She decided she would not hurt anyone's feelings, or make herself look stupid. These guys were friends, a team, and she was not going to be the person that got in between that. So she did nothing for the next few weeks, or she tried to do nothing.
As disaster came and went she found herself becoming closer with both Ronon and Rodney without even realizing it was happening. Training with Ronon was hard, he was after all amazingly handsome and more than once she felt herself blush when they got up close and personal, and she sensed he held her for longer than he would someone else when she landed pinned on the floor! Not to mention the amount of times he had made he laugh until she cried over some joke (normally at Rodney's expense). Rodney had also been spending more time with Jenn. He seemed to be less grumpy than before though she wasn't sure if it was because of almost dying or wanting to impress her. She was shocked when he offered to come with her to help a local village, and boy did that day out go wrong. She had wondered about the guys behavior that day, they seemed a little more competitive than usual but she shrugged off the notion it was because of her; I mean how big headed was it to think they were both after her!
After a few months she began to really feel at home on Atlantis, she'd been here just over two years, but now she felt she belonged, and was even part of the 'popular' crowd spending most of her free time with John, Teyla, Rodney and Ronon. She had other friends, but she found herself wanting to spend time with these people, especially Rodney and Ronon. She had more in common with Rodney most of the time and she saw him as a good friend, but nothing more. He was quite good looking and she got on well with him, but he didn't make her heart skip when she saw him, and Ronon did. At first she put it down to him being imposing and amazingly good looking, but soon she was spending her time thinking about when she would see him in between training sessions. She almost wished he would get injured so he would come and see her more. However when he did start turning up more often she felt a little guilty at the idea that the marines and especially John seemed to be getting a lot more 'lucky shots' during training, just so Ronon could see more of her.
After the disastrous trip on the Deadelus, Jenn had seen a new side to Ronon; his impulsive, violent behavior, the 'shoot first think later' motto he seemed to have. She had known Ronon was like this at times, she'd heard most of the stories, but she had never really been there when he was being reckless. It was then she realized his behavior was subconsciously part of the reason she had held back with him. They'd fought before when Rodney was ill and his forcefulness had shocked her, and even though she had conceded he was fighting for something he believed in and ultimately had been the reason she had been able to save Rodney, it had given her reason enough to pause.
She stood up, finally deciding to sort this mess out once and for all, even if it did make her look foolish. If she was right in her assumptions she needed to do something now before it got out of hand. She had to go and find Mckay.