Don't forget me

Chapter 1

I'm tired of this. I hate this unrequited love. I hate the way you treat me. I'm defiantly, defiantly going to forget about you! Forget about you…

That was exactly what she said, that night, that moment; I still can't believe she said that, to me. To the one she loves. Why can't I stop thinking about her? It's not like she's anything to me, she's a nobody, a class F student. I really should find something else to do except for thinking about someone who doesn't deserve my thoughts, she's an idiot. But this is the first time in my life that I have ever had this kind of feeling, ever since she moved into my house, I've been taking more and more notice of her; just why?

I always had to walk her to school, that is the duty my mom gave me, how ridiculous is that? I look behind my shoulder and give out a little gasp, she looks so gloomy and sad, I feel pain in my heart, but I don't understand where it all came from. All of a sudden I realise….

My heart skips a beat; she can't take it serious right? The things she said last night, it's kind of impossible right? She actually said that she's gonna forget me? As I sink deeper and deeper into a sea of worry, I realise that I have, hurt her bad….

…..

Suddenly I hear a scream, Kotoko's scream; she runs towards me and pushes me out of the way of a speeding bicycle. I land with a crash onto the floor. I realise what was happening in a split second; it was happening so fast that I didn't know what to do; I look around for Kotoko and see a flash of red hair. I hear rumbling and then a crash.

On the floor, a few meters away was Kotoko, she was lying rather still, I run over in a flurry of panic, I shake her, she doesn't move, I turn her over onto her back, her face was pale and her eyes were closed and tears were streaming down her face.

As they lifted Kotoko into the ambulance, I was devastated, I couldn't believe it, and she saved me. I went in with Kotoko and reached for her hand, she still didn't recover consciousness and I'm scared. If it wasn't for her I would have been the one injured.

…. As day turned into night I didn't receive any phone calls from the hospital, they said they'll call me if she wakes up. I stare at her empty room, her neatly made bed and her table. With the one photo frame and the picture inside, she was such a great girl…I didn't realise….

I raced to the hospital the following morning, room 45, I burst in and she was wide awake in her bed. I couldn't help but smile, but Kotoko seemed to be very different, she didn't know who I was when I asked her……

The doctors said that she may have lost her memory; they said that she'll recover soon, but when? All of a sudden I feel frightened that she may never know who I am again, and that she was in love with me.

All I did for her in the past was to say words that hurt her, do things to hurt her, leave her in the dark even though I knew she loved me…how cruel…she was right, ice does run through my veins. I could only break her heart again and again; I hurt her even though I cared.

Now that she is still unconscious, I finally realise I loved her back, but now as I look at her innocent face…….there may be no turning back………it may be………too……late………

I've always taken her for granted; I've never actually treated her like I should have. For someone that loved me so much, now I know even if I say sorry now, it won't make a difference, it seems like I've already disappeared from her mind and possibly…her heart. I never thought that she'll give up on me for real.

"Do you know who I am Kotoko?" I said in a worried voice

"No, who are you?" she replied emotionlessly