Disclaimer: I don't own the song. It is owned by Evanescence. I own the girl in the story. I also don't own Spot. Disney owns him and any other newsies mentioned in the story.
Hello
Playground school bell rings
Again
Rain clouds come to play
Again
Has no one told you she's not breathing
Hello
I am your mind
Giving you someone to talk to
Hello
Spot slowly walked down the street. He couldn't believe this had happened to him. How could he loss someone else? A school bell ringing brought him out of his thoughts. He stopped and watched as the kids ran out of the building on their way home. He waited until they had all left before resuming his walk back to the lodging house. As he walked, he didn't notice the rain begin to fall. He didn't notice as it soaked his clothes and dripped rhythmically off his blonde hair.
If I smile and don't
Believe
Soon I know I'll wake
From this dream
Don't try to fix me
I'm not broken
Hello
I am the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry
He knew he had been living a lie since she had left. He couldn't let anyone know what he really felt even if she had meant everything to him. He could lie and say he was fine though almost everyone knew he wasn't. Spot had convinced himself that this was all a dream and that when he got to the lodging house she would be there. She would be there waiting for him with open arms. He would kiss her sweet lips again and again and he would never let her go.
Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello
I'm still here
All that's left of yesterday
As Spot walked closer to the lodging house, reality hit him like a ton of bricks. He couldn't convince himself it was all a dream anymore. She was never coming back. There was nothing he could do that would bring her back. If he could turn back time, she would have stayed with him that day and maybe, just maybe she wouldn't have gotten in the middle of that fight and she might still be here today.
He still couldn't believe he had seen it all. He remembered killing the guy in a fit of rage after the guy had stabbed her. He remembered gathering her in his arms and telling her to hold on and that everything would be ok. Telling her that he needed her. That she was his whole world. And there in his arms she had died. He would never forget her last words. She had never said them until then. "I love you", she had whispered to him, then she had taken her last breath there in his arms. Why him? Why did she have to die? Why not him? Why couldn't it have been him? He wished he could breathe life into her again. He wished he could bring her back to him. He wished he could hold her again. His soul felt empty and lifeless now.
Spot went straight to his room when he entered the lodging house. The room he had shared with her. It held so many memories. Spot stopped in the doorway and let the memories wash over him. After a couple of minutes, Spot walked into the room and closed the door behind him. He walked over to the bed and laid down and for the first time in years, Spot allowed the unshed tears to cascade down his cheeks.
AN: Well, here is the first of the songfictions. I hope you liked it. I know I didn't change a lot but there are some minor changes. I hope you liked them. Don't forget to review and tell me what you think of it.