They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.
I know now what I wish I when then. As the front door is blown off its hinges, I think of the person that I miss the most. My love might have been unconventional and wrong but I loved him anyway. I can remember the first minute I saw him.
The great front doors of Hogwarts opened and all the nervous first years stumbled in. I was standing by a girl with dirty blond hair, but was knocked forward by a boy with black hair and steely gray eyes.
"Excuse you" I said as I brushed the dust off my shoulder.
"Bugger off" He said as he walked off and stood alone.
That was the first time I saw Regulus Black. I only had known him for minute and I already thought there was something special about him.
As men dressed in black enter the room and jets of colored light illuminate the walls and more memories flood back to me. The very first time I really talked to him.
Fifth year had been the hardest yet, so much school work and the war was getting worse and worse. I was sitting in the library studying for my ever-approaching O.W.L's.
"May I sit here" a smooth voice came from behind me. I turned in my seat and saw it was Regulus Black. We barely said a word to each other since he told me to "bugger off" the first day of first year.
"If you please" was my response.
"What are you studying?" He asked. I was surprised; I hadn't expected him to say anything else while I was sitting here.
"Charms, it's my worst subject" I said, pushing a piece of my hair behind my ear. I glanced up from my book and found Regulus staring at me.
"It's rude to stare, didn't your mother ever tell you that" I said feeling uncomfortable under his gaze.
"My mother prefers to yell at my brother, rather than talk to me" Regulus said as he bent down to retrieve a book from his bag. That was the first time I felt sorry for him.
"Would you like me to help you?" He asked.
"With what?" I asked stupidly.
"Charms" He answered with a hint of a smile on his face.
"Sure" I answered uncertainly. We spent the next hour pouring over charms and chatting bit about ourselves from time to time. He was a lot nicer than I thought; soon we were done and bid each other good-bye. I appreciated him for helping me; somehow Charms had become my favorite subject after that.
I stumbled into my kitchen table and shot a spell at the Death Eater closest to me. He roared in pain and slashed his wand through the air and a burning gash was drawn across my cheek. I moaned in pain and fired a few more spells; I killed one of the Death Eaters and ran into the next room.
The first Hogsmeade weekend of the year was upon us and I was going alone, as my friends all had dates. Sure I had been asked, but I had no interest in those boys. I walked down the path to the little village and took in everything around me. The students paired off or in groups walking from store to store. I walked into the more rural part of the village. It wasn't scary or anything, just a bit…threatening.
As I walked by the Hogshead a pair of hands grabbed me from behind and I didn't even have a chance to scream. I was thrown to the ground and encircled by a group of Slytherins. I was scared, truly scared, I could defend myself because they had taken it and cast it aside and I was outnumbered, six to one.
They took turns hexing me and then a girl, who I believe was Evan Rosier's sister, slapped me and cut the side of my face.
"Stop" Someone called out.
"What do you mean?" One of the people hissed.
"Is she worth getting expelled?" Regulus sneered.
"No I guess not" Evan Rosier's sister said.
"Lets go" someone else
said.
They left me on the ground with tears in my eyes. Regulus
walked forward and extended his hand.
"Thanks" I muttered wiping the tears and blood off my face.
"Are you okay?" he asked.
"Sure" I said, not really caring.
"Would you like to go back to the castle?" he asked.
"Yes please" I said.
He walked me all the way to the hospital wing and waited while I got my cut healed. Then we took a walk around the grounds.
"Why'd you stop them?" I asked.
"I didn't like seeing them hurt you" he mumbled. I smiled and took his hand. He glanced at our hands and smiled a little.
"Thank you" I said. After that we walked to the Black Lake and talked for the whole day. We sat my a white beech tree and we held hands most of the time. At the end of the day we walked back to the castle right on time for dinner.
"Thanks for spending the day with me" I said.
"No problem" Regulus said smiling a bit. He bent down and kissed me quickly on the lips and walked inside, leaving me to think.
I spent the day with him and I loved him.
The wall behind me was blasted out and all the Death Eaters barged into the room. I when from the bottom of my heart there was nothing I could do. I hadn't felt so helpless in so long.
After dating secretly since we graduated I was deeply in love but was scared of the war, which was getting worse and worse. Regulus was constantly going out and disappearing for hours. I hoped he wasn't doing something terrible, I know his family supported You-Know-Who and his followers.
"Regulus" I called one night.
"Yes" he asked as he walked into the room.
"I have a question and I want you to be truthful, alright?" I said.
"What is it, love?" he asked biting his lip.
"You're not a D-Death Eater are you?" I asked. He stared at the floor, not speaking and I felt my eyes tear up.
"Please say no, say no" I begged him as I grabbed his arm and shook it.
"I'm sorry" he said quietly, looking me in the eyes.
"Can't you back out or leave him?" I pleaded.
"I want to, I really do, but there is nothing I can do." Regulus said softly, looking away.
"Nothing?" I asked.
"Nothing" he said looking at again. He kissed me and I kissed him back. There was nothing, nothing at all I could do for the man I love.
The next day Regulus was "out" and can came back looking scared and disheveled.
"Are you okay?" I asked later that night, when we were lying in bed.
"Yes, I'm fine" he said smiling at me weakly.
"I want you to know no matter what I love you, forever" Regulus said staring into my eyes.
"I love you too." I said smiling and then we kissed for a while and fell back to sleep. W
When I woke up Regulus was gone. I waited, and waited, but he never came back. He was gone, and I couldn't do anything. I could feel my heart breaking into a thousand pieces. I'd never fall in love again, I promised myself, I'd love Regulus forever.
I was blown backwards against another wall and hit a chair when I fell. My wand was lost in the debris.
I thought of death, sure it scared me but, death was just my next adventure. I thought of my life, the whole time just wishing Regulus was there. I lived for over twenty years and I couldn't forget about him. I never thought I could, and I'm happy I didn't.
"You ready to die, blood traitor?" the Death Eater cackled maliciously. It's my next adventure, I thought.
I smiled and looked up at him, "Yes" I said. He glared at me for a moment and then raised his wand. Everything went silent, the man mouthed the words and a jet of green light bolted towards me. I thought back to happy times, the funny thing was most of them were with Regulus. My smile got even wider. As the life faded out of me, I could see my memories play before me, but they didn't matter. They were just fleeting memories.