DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN ANYTHING

One is ends getting used to everything. At the end, you get used to being away from your friends, to stop doing the things you like and you even get used to living for work.

Derek Morgan thought he had everything that a man could ask for: a beautiful wife, a beautiful house, a great car and a good job. He had good friends and a good health. His life was perfect ... to eyes of others.

At that moment, while he enjoyed a lackluster coffee in a lackluster coffee shop, dozens of thoughts were haunting his mind. Had he ever been happy? Did he ever loved Tania? Really his work was so important to him? Why he left Virginia? And most importantly, why he was back there?

He pulled the cell phone out from the pocket of his leather jacket to check if he had a call. Nothing. Derek smiled sadly. Who the hell cared about him anyway? He didn't have friends in New York, his teammates were focused on their own lives and Tania ... she never couldn't return to his life, and honestly he did not want her to. They'd already done enough damage to each other for two years.

"I want a takeaway coffee, please," she asked with a big smile, almost flirting with the bartender "Oh, and I want it strong, just like you"

The boy blushed slightly, and she had to fight a laugh. Her blackberry rang in her black jacket for the third time in ten minutes. She rolled her eyes and pulled the phone out of her right pocket. Then she heard his voice "Penelope? Are you, really?"

She froze. Her muscles were paralyzed, but her heart began to pound as crazy. Her blackberry still ringing from the palm of her hand, but Penelope was almost in shock. She turned slowly, until being face to face with him. "Morgan?"

He looked her up and down. She had lost her colorful clothes and her crazy accessories. She was dressed like a true businesswoman. Her white blouse and jeans made her look very sophisticated. Her blonde hair fell over her shoulders, her lips were painted cherry red and her eyes were barely delineated by a thin black line. The only splash of color was in her red shoes. "Woah, you look absolutely stunning"

Penelope smiled slightly, trying to control her nerves. A single sentence could make her shake like that. "Thank you" she replied, as she turned to pick up her coffee. "What are you doing here?"

Derek shrugged, sighing strongly "I don't know"

She stirred slightly her cup of coffee, not knowing what to say. After two years without talking to each other, it was not easy for them start a conversation. Penelope took a few steps toward him, still smiling, "Well, I'm glad to see you. Reid told me you got married"

"Well, the truth is that I'm divorced"

"Oh, I'm sorry"

"Don't be"

Silence settled between them again. Derek realized that Penelope was uncomfortable with the situation, but he would not end their conversation like that. "And how's your life? Are you still working at the BAU?"

"No" she replied quickly, "I'm working for a software company. Protection programs, databases, security ... all that kind of thing"

"Oh, it's great"

"Um, yeah, I guess"

Penelope has never been so grateful to hear the tone of her phone as at that moment. She looked at the screen and grinned at him "Sorry, job call"

Derek nodded, leaning his back against a wall. He could not stop looking at her even for a single second. His eyes roamed her face, her mouth, and her whole body. But that was not a dirty look, but a look of admiration. He believed that it was impossible, but she was even more beautiful than years ago. Oh well, maybe she was just as beautiful as before. Maybe it was his joy to see her again, who was judging her beauty.

"Well, I think I have to leave" she said with an apologetic look, but he knew she was just being polite. "Good to see you"

"You want me to take you somewhere?" he offered in a desperate last move "My car is parked out there"

Derek held his breath until she said "No, thank you very much. It is not necessary"

"Seriously, I don't mind"

"My car is parked out there too"

They looked at each other for a few seconds before bursting into laughter for the first time since their encounter. Penelope came over and kissed his cheek. "Take care, Morgan"

He grabbed her wrist, preventing her took another step "Forgive me"

"Why?" Penelope asked with a frown, but she knew very well what he was talking about.

"I never meant to hurt you, I ..."

"Don't worry, it's ok" she interrupted with tears in her eyes, "You just did what you thought was needed. Tania was more important than me for you"

"That's not true" Derek whispered "You know what I feel for you"

Penelope avoided his gaze for a moment, "What do you want? You chose her, you married her and now, because everything went wrong, you think you can come into my life again as if nothing had happened "

"I thought I was in love with her, Penelope" he said sadly, his eyes began to moisten "I think it's pretty clear that I was wrong"

"I have to leave" she said, moving away completely from Derek.

"I can see you another day?" he almost pleaded, approaching her "I just want to talk to you, I promise"

Penelope gulped, visibly uncomfortable "I have a lot of work"

"I'll wait"

She went to the door, turning to Derek "I don't think it's a good idea, Morgan"

"Please, I just want to-"

"Can't, ok? I. .." she paused, breathing deep breath "Never mind"

Then she closed the door of the cafeteria, behind her, leaving Derek completely speechless. You get used to everything. You get used to the nightmares, the loneliness, and even to live in a damn apartment that only brings you bad memories. But there are things that time can not cure: because you don't get used to not seeing her smile. You can't get used to not hear her voice. The time doesn't make you forget her kisses and her skin under your fingers. Time doesn't heal your soul, every time you realize you've lost the love of your life forever. Two times.

Nothing compares, No worries or cares, Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste? (Someone Like You, ADELE)