Yes, I am well aware everyone in this is very OOC but that is because the game sucks at giving the characters personalities. But that means I can make whatever crazy pairing I want! Yay! So this is rated T for some language and implied sex. Yay….I don't own Fire Emblem, review and enjoy. Or just enjoy. Whichever.
Navarre would never
sink so low as to stalk someone; sitting outside her tent as the
healer, Lena, slowly stripped off her robes, the perfect shape of her
body silhouetted by the lamp light, did not make him a stalker.
"Heya, what'cha doing?"
"Holy-" Navarre cut himself off so as not to attract
attention, glaring at the pink haired boy that was now crouching
beside him. "Shut up and go away!" This was said much
quieter, hardly a whisper at all.
"Lena!
You've got a cre-" Xane started to shout.
Navarre clamped a hand over the shapeshifter's mouth and spirited
them both into the trees to safety.
"Why
are you still following me? And why did you shout like that?" he
asked, trying to stop himself from growing angry.
"Marth told me to follow you around," Xane said with a
shrug, an innocent expression on his face, which he could only see by
the torch light coming from the camp.
"Yeah,
on the battle field so you could change into me," Navarre
snapped, grabbing the kid's elbow and leading him a ways away from
the healer's tent. "Because you can't fight by
yourself."
Xane pouted. "There
is a reason for that. I just want to help in any way I
can."
"You're a manakete.
You're over one hundred years old. We have stones for you to
change forms but you never do. Instead, you're a pain in my ass
and a distraction," Navarre growled.
"I'm
just following orders. Now what were you doing by Lena's tent?"
Xane asked.
"Why were you there?"
Navarre shot back, realizing the Manakete had never answered his
question.
"I saw you and it looked like
you were doing something bad," Xane mumbled, putting more space
between them, as if that would help him get away.
"Like what?" Navarre asked, voice growing chillingly cold.
"I'm not totally naive to the ways of you
humans," Xane said quietly as he moved even further away. "You
lust after her. You might take her unwillingly."
Navarre lashed forward, seizing Xane's arm and jerking him forward.
Sensing danger, Xane thought quickly and turned into the only form he
thought could stop Navarre's anger. Navarre froze, staring into
the soft brown eyes of Lena, fear deep within them.
"Change back now," Navarre ordered softly.
"No. You'll hurt me," Xane said, just as quiet.
"You aren't her. I don't hurt girls
but you aren't one. Now change back," Navarre said.
Xane swallowed and looked into Navarre's eyes. He didn't see
anger at all, instead seeing a deep lust, something primal and
dangerous. "You could be with her this way."
Those lust filled eyes were soon filled with shock as Navarre jerked
away. "What?"
"You can be
with her this way," Xane said softly, mimicking Lena's voice
perfectly. He had no qualms with Navarre using him this way.
Sure, he had hated humans at one point but during the battles he had
grown attracted to the swordsman. "It will keep you from
losing control."
Navarre glared at
her...him. "Just leave. I don't lose control,
especially with things like this."
Xane
shrugged, dropping the form. "Okay. The offer still
stands though."
"I thought you hated
humans," Navarre said, regaining his wits and gathering his
thoughts together.
"I do, at least some
of them. I don't mind you though. I think you know my
true thinking, you just don't realize it yet," Xane said as he
walked back into the camp.
After several
heartbeats, Navarre followed after him.
(INSERTBREAKHERE)
Navarre moved
quickly across the field, locking blades with a mercenary before
running him through with his sword. Xane lay panting behind
him, a sword hanging loosely in his fingers.
"Are you okay?" Navarre demanded, keeping a wary eye out
for enemies.
"Fine." Xane looked up
at him and Navarre realized he was not fine at all.
Blood raced down from cut on his brow and more blood seemed to cover
his arms and pool out of his stomach.
"You
idiot!" Navarre hissed. "Go see a healer, now!"
He jerked Xane to his feet before pushing him towards Lena.
The manakete stumbled briefly but before he could take a step closer,
the pink haired healer was already beside him. Her staff glowed
briefly and the blood vanished, wounds closing in a matter of
moments.
"Thank you," Xane said
gratefully, flashing her a quick smile. Then, he bounded away,
his form changing to Navarre's as he did so. Lena disappeared
as well, doubtless off to heal another wounded comrade. Of
course she didn't say a word to him; she never did. He sighed,
forcing himself to ignore the self pity and indulge in it later.
(INSERTBREAK HERE)
"You look
frustrated." Caeda's voice broke through Navarre's self pity
party and he turned to look at her, abandoning the food he hadn't
been eating in the first place.
"And?"
he asked.
The blue haired princess tilted her
head to the side, staring at him with calculating eyes. "I
do care for the welfare of Marth's troops. Your skill will
begin to wane if you are angry."
"Please
leave me alone," he said, turning back to his food and staring
at it. It still looked unappetizing.
"If
you insist. Whatever. Just make sure your fighting is up
to par and we will have no problems."
"Yes
ma'am."
His tense muscles relaxed as the
girl moved away from him, most likely off to socialize with people
who would respond. Not long after she had left though, she was
replaced with the pink haired devil. Otherwise known as Xane.
"Go away, Xane," he sighed.
"I don't have anyone to talk to. I don't like them,"
Xane replied simply, straddling the log that acted as a chair.
He laid down on his back, hands under his head. "I don't
trust them."
"And you trust me?"
Navarre asked.
"I already told you, yes.
You've saved my life on a number of occasions. That makes you
worthy of my trust."
"Fantastic,"
Navarre mumbled. He'll probably follow me around forever
now. Maybe next time, I'll let him die.
Even as he thought it, Navarre knew he would never let it happen.
In all honesty, he would most likely go out of his way to make sure
the manakete remained safe and alive. But he wouldn't tell him
that. If Xane thought he could depend on him, he would grow
weak and unable to fend for himself. Then again, he couldn't
fight at all if he didn't shift into the form of someone else.
"So why didn't you take me up on my offer?" Xane asked,
voice quiet.
"Because you aren't her,"
Navarre said, giving him a strange look.
"I
could act like her," Xane murmured, sitting up. "I
can be very convincing."
Navarre was
frozen as a small hand curled around the back of his neck and Xane
dragged himself closer so they were mere inches apart. The pink
hair grew longer, the feather disappeared, and the harsh red eyes
turned a soft and hypnotic brown. Navarre swallowed thickly as
his lust flared unexpectedly, his hands moving to his...her...hips.
The soft material of her gown brushed over his calloused fingertips
and she moved closer yet, soft petal lips touching his in a chaste
kiss. Navarre struggled not to react, reminding himself
furiously that it was not Lena, but Xane.
She
moved away before putting her lips to his ear. "I don't
know how else to say it, Navarre but I...I think that I want
you."
His self control was crushed then
and he picked her up abruptly before carrying her off to his tent.
(INSERTBREAKHERE)
Xane didn't
sleep. Navarre had already drifted away into the realm of
dreams, two hours ago actually. Xane couldn't drift away
though, the dull ache in his back wouldn't let him, nor the chaotic
thoughts that whirled through his mind. He had enjoyed it, he
wouldn't deny that. But Navarre had had his eyes closed the
entire time and it was not his name he had called, but Lena's.
He shifted and moved closer to Navarre, lightly resting his head on
the smooth chest, marred only by old scars, and listened to the
steady heartbeat beneath his ear. He was completely unaware
Navarre was awake until a hand slid beneath his hair and began to
massage his scalp lightly.
"Sorry for
using you," Navarre whispered.
Xane just
closed his eyes and didn't answer.
(INSERTBREAKHERE)
Morning called and with it, another battle. Neither Xane nor
Navarre talked to each other when they woke up, both dressing in
silence and hurrying to ready themselves for battle. Thanks to
Marth's strategic genius, they made it through with only a few
casualties and by evening they were set up for camp. The
schedule was growing monotonous, at least Xane thought so.
"I'm bored," Xane sighed, sitting down beside Navarre that
night at dinner.
"And?" he asked,
wondering how it pertained to him.
Xane
shrugged. "I don't know. I just mean that all of
this is getting boring and is so...the same."
"You like change?" Navarre asked, not looking at the
manakete.
"Well yeah. I live for a
much longer time than you do. I am patient but I've been with
these troops so long and I grow wary," Xane admitted, straddling
the log and laying on his back.
"Is
living forever truly a burden?"
"It
isn't forever," Xane said, staring up at the night sky and
watching the smoke spiral away into the air. "It wasn't a
burden before. Now it is though. I have to watch
all of my newfound allies die as I slowly age, so much slower that by
the time they are near death, I will look to be in my thirties,
perhaps forties. Those I love will die."
"That is the way war works," Navarre said.
"Yes, but that's not what I mean. Those who survive this
and live their lives out...I have to watch them die. I've
become too much like a...human," he whispered, unexpected tears
burning at the back of his eyes. He didn't let Navarre see
them.
"That's your own fault,"
Navarre said. "If you just used the firestones or
magestones, hell, even Tiki's divinestone. She wouldn't care.
You're friends, aren't you?"
Xane got up
abruptly, turning away from Navarre and heading for his tent without
a word. Navarre's first impulse was to let him go, but the
guilt that had been growing since that morning urged him to follow
after the manakete. He found Xane easily, he hadn't gotten far,
and seized his arm.
"Let me go!"
Xane's voice was a choked sob and Navarre let his eyes slide shut,
cursing himself for how inconsiderate he had been with Xane's
emotions.
"Xane, I'm sorry for whatever I
said."
Xane ripped himself away from
Navarre and stumbled into his tent, vision clouded and blurred by
tears. Navarre grabbed him again, following his lover instinct
and hugging the pink haired manakete.
"What
happened to you?" Navarre whispered. He could sense that
it wasn't totally his fault, that it was something to do with his
past, and he knew that past wounds could be the most painful.
"Just let go," Xane ordered, the shaking sobs slowly dying
off as he wiped at the tears. "Go away, unless you wish
for me to service you again."
Navarre
flinched inwardly. Yes, I understand I'm a bastard.
Can we move on now? He thought, releasing Xane nonetheless.
"Sorry. I won't use you like that again. It was a
fault in my judgment."
"I apologize
if it wasn't good enough for you," Xane said quietly.
"God dammit, that's not what I meant. By lapse in judgment
I meant that I shouldn't use you the way I did," Navarre sighed.
"So it was good?" Xane asked, eyes
lighting up briefly.
"Yes, yes it was,"
Navarre said, swallowing thickly and struggling to fight the blush
that was threatening to overtake his face.
"Oh. That's good. I've never done it before,"
Xane admitted.
Navarre suddenly hated himself
for what he had done, even more than before. "You...you're
a virgin!?"
"Was," Xane said.
"Those things don't matter to me much. When I spend so
much time in other's bodies, I lose all respect for my own.
After all it's just a body; I have no true attachment to it.
Besides, my thoughts are the only things that make me, me."
"I still should've been gentler. You should've told me or
I could've hurt you," Navarre said softly.
"I thought the pain was a part of it," Xane said, feeling
more confident now that the tears had stopped.
"Oh god, no. Maybe a little but not a lot. Did you
enjoy it at all?" Navarre asked, feeling desperate.
"Yes," Xane said, sensing that he was moving into dangerous
territory but strangely not caring. "I like you quite a
lot, Navarre."
Navarre stared at him.
"What?"
"That's why I don't
mind being used by you," Xane said. "I want you to be
happy."
"Even if you aren't?"
"My feelings aren't a factor in your happiness. At least,
they shouldn't be."
But I think they
are, Navarre thought. "I...Xane, if you aren't happy
with our...arrangement, don't feel pressured to continue with
it."
"There is no way this could be
happy for me. Love will grow from my fondness towards you.
you rejecting these feelings would be the ideal for me. After
all, if you eventually return them, I can only watch you grow old and
die." Xane smiled softly. "Like I said, my happiness
is not a factor. If we stop this, I will be unhappy. If we
continue, the result is the same."
"Why
are you crying?" Navarre asked, watching two more tears slip
down Xane's face.
"Other thoughts."
"The ones that upset you in the first place," Navarre
guessed.
"That is correct, yes."
"Tell me what I said that upset you."
Xane sensed Navarre's desire to shift topics away from the one they
had been discussing. Men like him were uncomfortable with
spoken thoughts about love.
"Well, I
can't change...like other manaketes," he started. "I am
damaged. I used to be able too but...my dragonkin spirit
fled."
Navarre wiped Xane's tears, feeling
a startling amount of tenderness towards the manakete. "What
happened? What made it flee?"
"Terrible things happen during war. Death, injury, and
rape," Xane murmured, leaning into Navarre's touch, wanting
comfort. "I was young then."
"You were raped..." Navarre said breathlessly.
"Not quite. I was a virgin until I was with you.
Other things were done though, enough for my spirit to leave."
"Xane, I wish I had known."
"It
doesn't matter. I wanted you to take me."
"You love me." As Navarre said this, he realized that he
didn't mind. "Gods, Xane. If you trust me with that
you have to-"
"Love you. I do.
But we can pretend you don't know. We can pretend it doesn't
matter," Xane whispered, moving close. "Just don't
fall in love with me."
As Xane changed to
Lena's form, Navarre wondered if that was possible.
(INSERTBREAKHERE)
"Lena, I
need to ask you to do me a favor."
It was
dinner, two weeks from Xane and Navarre's talk and the swordsman had
a sinking suspicion that something had changed within him, for better
or for worse, he wasn't sure.
"Navarre?
This is unexpected," the healer commented. "What do
you need?"
"Follow me please.
It will only be a moment," Navarre said.
Lena nodded and followed him obediently away from the crowded areas
of the camp. The man was agitated, she could see that, but she
couldn't pinpoint why, especially since she barely knew him.
"I would like for you to kiss me," Navarre stated firmly as
he came to a halt.
"Excuse
m-me?" Lena asked, flushing.
"I
can't explain, not really. I just want you to do this and then
you can continue on as if nothing happened," Navarre told her.
"I...oh...alright...I guess."
Lena shifted forwards, biting her lip nervously, before closing her
eyes and giving Navarre a quick peck on the lips. Navarre
didn't let her back away though, kissing her again, less than
chastely though not pressuring her into something she wasn't ready
for. When he pulled away, her face was flushed and heated, her
gaze flickering everywhere except at his face. Yet strangely,
he wasn't attracted as he thought he would be. Her lips were
soft but it had awakened no deep hunger within him.
"Um...may I ask what that was about?" Lena asked softly.
"I thought I was attracted to you, Lena.
But it appears, I am not. I apologize for making things weird
for you, let's hope we can look past this and start a healthy
friendship," Navarre said calmly, cupping her cheek.
Lena bit her lip and stepped away. "Yes. That would
be fine. If you'll excuse me..."
The
healer dashed away and Navarre leaned against a tree, contemplating.
He was no longer attracted to Lena, yet he felt a fierce
protectiveness and a fierce something come over him whenever
he was near Xane. That could only mean he had done exactly as
Xane had instructed him not to. He had fallen in love without
even knowing it.
(INSERTBREAKHERE)
"I forget how much stronger you are than I am," Navarre
commented as he watched Xane fix his shoulder strap, securing a broad
axe. Two swords were attached on each of his hips and a lance
crossed his back the other way beneath the axe.
"Well, I have to be ready to change into anybody with any
talent," Xane said, grabbing a healing staff and Elfire tomb,
slipping each into its place. "Unlike you, who only has to
carry around one sword. You are strong, Navarre, but you are
human. You do not have the physical abilities to carry all of
this and fight."
"You really know how
to bruise a man's ego," Navarre said dryly.
"Oh I know. Another of my hidden talents," Xane said with a
quick smile.
"Before we head out to
battle, there's something I wish to address," Navarre said
quietly, gently grabbing Xane's wrist and pulling him back into the
tent that they now shared.
"Hm?
What is it?" Xane asked, eyes wide and innocent.
It amazed Navarre sometimes, how innocent and playful Xane was when
in reality, he was one of the most serious and mature adults he had
ever met.
"I have done something
you told me not to," Navarre said quietly.
Xane's expression was torn between excitement and fear then, both
clashing together roughly as the smaller pulled away from him.
"I...do you mean what I think you do?"
"Yes...dammit, yes, Xane. I think I love you. I'm
almost sure I do. I don't feel attracted to Lena at all.
I just want you..." Navarre said, feeling desperation rise
within him, something he had not felt in years, not since he was
young and hot headed.
"I can't, Navarre.
I told you that. It will only end in pain," Xane murmured,
looking down at the ground.
"Pain is
something you and I live with every day Xane. And this
pain...this pain you will experience...it will be filled with joyous
memories, not only bitterness. I promise you, I will make
things happy, I won't stand for sadness in any relationship we form.
This...thing...that we have had going on is not a relationship.
It is two men denying what they feel for each other and masking it
with something else. I don't want that, and I know that despite
how you don't want the pain that will inevitably come, you don't want
it either. You want an actual relationship, just as badly as I
do."
Xane moved away from him. "This
is hardly the time to talk of such things. We have a battle and
we need to move out now."
"I wanted
you to know before the battle. In case...we get unlucky today.
I wanted you to know," Navarre said, voice soft.
"I understand. And thank you, Navarre. I will think
over your words."
(INSERTBREAKHERE)
Xane sprinted across the ground, weaving underneath the slash of an
axe and returning the attempt with a sword in the man's neck.
He continued on, making his way towards Navarre. He was
dangerously close to reverting back to his normal form and he didn't
have the strength to hold it much longer. If he could just get
behind Navarre and await a healer's assistance, he could jump right
back into the fray though that didn't seem likely as suddenly, a
mercenary stepped in front of him.
Xane reeled
back and brought the sword up to protect himself only to feel himself
shrink. The change disorientated him and though he could
normally at least block an attack if he needed, the abrupt change
threw him off. He barely managed to dodge, rolling to the
ground before leaping to his feet again, breaking into a fast run.
The grunt of the man sounded in his ear and he whirled around to see
the man quite suddenly held above the ground by Roshea's spear.
"Hurry along now, I can't protect you forever," Roshea
grunted, heaving the man away before galloping away.
Xane mentally noted to thank the other man later and darted behind
Navarre. The brown haired man was coolly dealing out the deaths
to his opponents, barely batting an eye when Xane slid to a halt
behind him, so used to the smaller's presence that it actually felt
wrong when he wasn't there in the heat of battle.
"Change quickly, the enemy has received reinforcements,"
Navarre said calmly. "Now, Xane."
Xane did as he ordered, closing his eyes and letting the change
overcome him. Lena was suddenly beside him, waving her staff
and healing him in seconds.
"There you go
Xane. Be careful now!" she called before racing away.
Navarre glanced at the pink haired man. "Let's go."
The two plunged into the thick of battle, both unaware of how long
the fighting continued. They were healed several times and
everything was going fine despite their numerous injuries. None
were grave enough to drag them down. Yet despite what Xane had
told Navarre earlier that morning, he realized that his body was too
weary from so many battles so close together and the weapons were
beginning to way him down. His movements grew sluggish and he
felt a strange sense of fear seize his being, the feeling that
something was amiss within his body, something was about to give
out.
He ducked to dodge a blow and that
was when it happened. Something snapped within him, a muscle
seemed to give out and pain raced up his leg and through his spine,
making a cry escape his lips as he went down. Moments later,
his vision blacked out.
(INSERTBREAKHERE)
"Stupid Xaney. Not taking care of himself," Tiki
tisked.
"But he'll be okay?" Navarre
hated how his voice sounded so desperate, hated feeling so weak as he
stared down at the pale form of the man he had confessed his love to
only hours before.
"Yes. He will.
His body just needs to heal and he'll be fine. But he'll be
getting a lecture from me when he's ready! Neglecting his body like
that. Poor nutrition it seems, and no exercises before battle
either. It's not like him to slack like this," Tiki
sighed. "Well anyways, you take care of him. It's
probably because of you this happened in the first place."
Navarre swallowed thickly. "You're probably right.
Wait what?"
Tiki smiled, a light twinkle
in her eyes. "I know a lot more than I let on, Mr.
Swordsman. Well bye now!"
Navarre
shook his head as the small manakete disappeared out of the tent.
He sat down beside Xane's still form and gently stroked the soft pink
hair, feeling the silky strands between his fingers before laying
down beside him. As he draped an arm around the manakete's
waist, he tried to shove aside the fear that was still pumping
through him since he had first seen him go down, the fighter above
him swinging the axe up as he got ready to slice his throat and
remove his head from his body. Navarre couldn't remember ever
moving so fast when the other had been in danger before. It was
new for him, feeling so protective and so weak at the same time.
Just as he was drifting to sleep, Xane stirred
in his arms, groaning softly as a shaking hand moved to rub his
forehead. Navarre propped himself up and cupped the manakete's
cheek, forcing him to turn his head so he could look at him.
"You foolish idiot," he murmured, watching Xane's red eyes
fight off their bluriness.
"'M
sorry. Guess I wasn't paying attention to how tired my body
was," he mumbled. "Sorry for scaring you."
"I never really minded war before this. Now I wish it
would stop. I don't want you to get hurt," Navarre
whispered.
Xane sat up, slowly, wincing as some
of his muscles groaned in protest. Navarre did the same, gaze
questioning as Xane began to speak.
"I
don't think this is a good idea Navarre. I love you as well but
your fear for my safety could've ended up with more death today.
I think it is best for us both to ignore our emotions until this war
is over," Xane said softly.
"No.
When this war is over, one or both of us may be gone. I've seen
too much war to ignore that fact. I don't want to wait until
one of us is knocking on death's door. I want you and only
you. I don't want Lena, or any female for that matter. I
never thought I'd ever go for a guy but here I am, begging you to
give me a chance." Navarre sighed. "But if you really
can't do this then I-"
"You are so
very hard to resist, Navarre. I am tempted to be yours and
yours only, to form a mutual bond and be with you for the rest of
your life. But I worry about the pain of losing you."
"Falling in love with anyone, manakete or no, has the fear of
losing them come along with it, Xane. I don't know what else to
say to convince you to be with me but I love you. I won't take
your body ever again if you do not wish it, your body is not what is
important to me. I care more for your soul and your wellbeing
than having sex with you, someone else's form or no. So...now
it's up to you," Navarre said quietly. "Whatever you
want, I will give you, whether it be love or to just leave you
alone."
Xane didn't speak for several
tense moments and then finally he nodded, as if making a decision but
not yet saying it out loud. "Okay. Okay Navarre.
Let's do as you say. I want to be with you too, and I'll take
any pain that comes along with it."
Navarre felt his heart constrict as Xane looked at him then, eyes
full of love and the fear, the fear was still there, but the utter
love outshined it. He cupped Xane's face and finally brought
his lips to the manakete's, tasting him and only him, for the first
time. Xane responded eagerly, kissing back and twining his arms
around his neck, his smaller hands wrapping into the long brown hair.
"Xane, thank you," Navarre murmured
as he pulled away.
Xane smiled and
settled against Navarre's chest. It was nice, knowing he no
longer had to hide behind the masks of other people to find love.
It was nice to know that he himself, his body, his mind, and his
soul, just him; it was nice to know someone wanted that. They
didn't want his powers, they didn't want what he could do. They
just wanted him. Navarre was truly the only human he believed
he could possibly trust with his heart. Despite the pain he
knew he would eventually be faced with, he knew that as long as he
remembered the good times, the times he was confident he would create
with this man, it would be okay.
