Fic based on the film 'Eternal sunshine of a spotless mind'. I can't be credited for the whole memory removal idea. It will not end the same as the film, not even close… I don't yet know who I want to be canon and what happens in the end but we'll see where this goes. Enjoy

"Paige, look, please… I just want to talk about this." Emily couldn't bear not being with Paige, their relationship of two years ended for the most ridiculous reason and though it may not have been her fault, it was clearly Emily's decision. She was under the impression that a couple of fights meant a relationship wasn't worth fighting for, that it was beyond saving. Now that it was too late she realised how wrong she was.

"Sorry, aren't you the girl from the school swim team?" Paige had a look of utter confusion on her face, as if she didn't even know Emily and had just passed her a few times in the school hallway. Emily's heart sank.

"How can you be so pathetic? You don't have to ignore me and pretend nothing ever happened between us."

"Sorry, I think maybe you have the wrong person…" Paige closed the door on Emily, a little concerned at the fact that someone she didn't really know not only knew her but also knew where she lived.

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Emily didn't want to be alone right now; she invited Spencer, Aria and Hanna for a night of drinking and bitching. And considering Spencer was with Toby, Aria with Ezra and Hanna was with Caleb, the only person they'll be bitching about is Paige.

"Why would she act like nothing happened between us? You should've seen her; she had actually convinced herself that I didn't even exist." Emily was genuinely hurt by this, all she wanted was to apologise and get things back to how they were before the break up.

"Look, Em, she's clearly not worth it." Aria started, "I mean, do you not remember when she tried to drown you? She's just sad; don't let her do this to you. You're better than this." Emily knew Aria was really trying to help and she was all for bitching about Paige but it still hurt, people thinking Paige was that bad. Emily knew Paige wasn't a bad person.

Hanna must have seen the disapproving look on my face at Aria's comment, "I think what Aria is trying to say is that you deserve better. Yeah, you loved Paige and we get that but you've got to see it from our point of view." Hanna smiled reassuringly. Emily truly did love her friends, despite what they had all been through the last couple of years they were still there for her anytime she needed them.

Spencer stood up from the couch, she looked a little nervous and wasn't quite sure about what she was about to do. She walked to the other side of my room and grabbed my laptop. The other three girls were concerned, just waiting for what Spencer looked so guilty about.

"Em, I'm sorry, I should've told you sooner. There's this new place that opened up next the costume shop last month and…" Spencer showed Emily the screen. It was a professional webpage with a logo across the top, the logo read 'Rosewood's memory erasing'.

"Why are you showing me this, Spencer?" Emily was beginning to get impatient, she was jumping to conclusions that she hoped were exaggerated or untrue.

"Scroll to the bottom." She did as Spencer said, not getting any less worried. Scrolling to the bottom of the webpage there was a live feed titled 'Memories recently erased.' Emily panicked, hoping this was a joke or a dream or anything. She scrolled through the live feed looking for her name. 'March 5th: Paige McCullers had Emily Fields removed from her memory'.

Emily didn't know what to do or say, she just went completely numb. How could Paige do this to her? To them? How could she throw everything away like that, did Emily really mean so little to her? She couldn't even begin to think up a rational excuse.

"Emily, promise me you won't do anything stupid." Hanna seemed concerned about her, scared Emily was going to do the same thing. Well, why wouldn't she? It's not fair that Emily has to suffer whilst Paige can get on with her life not knowing who she is anymore.

"I think we should go" Spencer raised her eyebrows at the two girls.

"Yeah Spence, I think you're right. Sorry Emily, we'll see you tomorrow." Aria smiled and walked with Spencer to my bedroom door. Hanna wasn't ready to leave yet; she wanted to make sure Emily wouldn't do anything stupid.

"Emily, honestly, it hurts now and it might seem that if you erase her from your memory too the pain will go, but it won't. Think about it, you have the advantage now, you know what you did was wrong, you couldn't fight for her, but now, now you can. You can find her; make her fall in love with you all over again. Love isn't that shallow Em, she can forget about having you in her life but she can never forget her love for you." Hanna, hugged Emily before following the girls to the door. "We do love you Em, if you need us we're just a phone call away." Hanna always knew what to say, though she wasn't quite as academically smart as the three other girls, she definitely knew far more about life and relationships than the rest of them.

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Emily understood why they wanted to protect her and why they didn't want her interfering with memory erasing, but she couldn't just ignore the fact that this pain could go away in a matter of hours just by making an appointment.

She did respect what Hanna said but I just kept over thinking it, could Paige fall in love with her again? Is it worth the pain? Wouldn't their whole relationship be based on lies if Emily acted like nothing happened and meet her 'for the first time' again? Would it not just be less painful and less of a risk to just erase her own memory and fall in love again, even if it's not with Paige?

Some time after the girls had left Emily decided to examine the website a little closer. It seemed fairly affordable, not painful or dangerous and would take no longer than two hours for the whole process to be over. There were many pages on the scientific facts explaining their work and possible side effects which were highly unlikely.

Generally, it seemed reliable and the only reason Emily could see for not doing it was that she would be letting the girls down, particularly Hanna, considering the speech she gave. But surely they wouldn't have to know. It wasn't them Emily wanted erasing from her memory, it was Paige, and if she explained her situation they may not use her name on the website due to privacy laws. Emily could probably get away with the procedure without the others ever finding out.