CHAPTER 1

After Bella Swan came to Forks, all our lives had changed. Not only did Edward have finally a spark in his eyes, falling for this human girl, but also everyone felt that the last missing piece finally found its place. We were all happy for him, especially Esme seeing her first son finding last missing mate in her family. At first it was difficult, with the bloodlust he had for her, but which he overcame. He also tried running away, but coming back eventually, being too taken by her. After some time, some nights he spent watching her, which was a little creepy, hence i didn´t even push him to do it, and a little accident with rapers Bella learned his, and therefore ours, true nature. Vampire that is. But she wasn´t scared, or at least she claimed not to be.

„I still think she is lying about her fear." I hear my brother say.

„Can´t you tell? You are the mind reader of this family after all."

„I really can´t Liz. I can´t hear her thoughts, I told you already." He replies, distress obvious in his voice.

„Well Edward, if she was scared she would have ran away already. Believe me, people almost always run when they are scared." I try to talk some sense into him. I haven´t officialy met Bella yet, but from my observations in school I can tell that she is not scared of us. Of him.

„You really think so?"

„Yes, omigod Edward! Stop whining and man up!" I almost scream at him. „I can always tell, even demonstrateif you wish, what people really want and you know it! And in this girl´s case, running away is not it!"

„Thank you." Is the only think I hear from him. Then he stands in the kitchen, looking like a damn statue. I bet he doesn´t even breath, not that he needs to, but it feels nice to know what the air around you tastes like.

„Edward, you are getting on my nerves! Go to her!" I say and give him a little push, knowing that he wants to go. At that he shots out of the door like a bullet. The push I gave him is just a little something my gift does. Carlisle, my father, calls it sincerity. I can make people do and say what they want, literally.

I come from Europe, I don´t really remember my human life, but I remember mountains, forests, travelling and Volterra... Then I only remember serving. When I woke up to my new life, i found myself in a guard, making a mess. When I was around, my fellow guard members started to fight, have sex, kill innocent people and drinking blood to an enomous extent. After a while my creators learned, that I was the one causing problems, better said, that my presence among other vampires and humans alike caused problems. They thought that my gift is to spoil people, and that I can´t control it, so they let me go. More like kicked me out. Just explained a couple rules and after a year of my new life i was alone. I had a hard time resisting blood. I remember being an honest, open person, true to myself as human, so it only felt natural to this new body of mine to fulfill my needs, my thirst. But I hated it, killing people.

Italy was too sunny for me. Knowing the rules and not wanting to expose myself I left and went to America. There I lived in the north for a couple of years, trying to do the impossible – resist humans, but always giving in to my thirst. One day, when I was in Seattle I met others of my kind. I sensed them and tried to get away, not wanting to spoil them or cause problems. Though I learned that if I concentrate enough I don´t cause such strong reactions to my presence as I did my first weeks in the guard. But sometimes people still did strange things when I was around. So I ran. I kept running but they were faster, my newborn strenght already faded by then. One of them, a boy, maybe 22 of age when changed, looked way too eager to catch me. He was tall with brown, kind of long hair and golden eyes. In fact, all four of them had golden eyes. That scared me even more, but he already caught me. I thought he was gonna crush me when he embraced me mid run, but instead of that he kissed me.

They did not mean any harm, but for the kiss explanation I had to wait. They were kind people and Carlisle, head of the coven as I later learned, offered me to acompany them home and stay for a while. I talked with him, his wife Esme and his family, learned their relations and past just as they learned mine. Only later, from Carlisle and his son Edward, the mind reader, I learned the true nature of my gift. It is not spoiling people, but making them act on their desires. That was why his other son, Christopher, chased me and kissed me. But the true menace was that in my first years when I couldn´t completly control it I made everyone mad with thirst, because blood is what our kind always wants and desires. For a couple months I couldn´t even be in Jaspers presence, for he had, after me, hardest time controlling the thirst and his own gift made it even worse, making him feel everyones empowered thisrt. But after some rocky months and years, I got, well almost, full control over it, learning control my own thirst as well. My sincere nature still draws me to human blood more than others, but now I have 8 more reasons to ignore it.

I stayed with the Cullen family, because that´s what they were, not a coven, for longer than I would have imagined after our first meeting. Longer means that I stayed forver. In a really short time it showed up that I can´t resist Chris any more that he can resist me and that we are mates. To be honest, I was taken by him from the very first time we met, and he admitted that he would chace me even without the involuntary push my gift gave him. My new siblings, Rose and Emmett, Alice and Jasper, and Edward accepted me without a question and so I joind the Cullen and Hale family as Elizabeth Hale.

„Where is Edward?" asks Chris, breaking my train of thoughts.

„With Bella I imagine, oh, young love..." I sing in my melodic voice. At that he speeds to me, sits on the loveseat next to me and embraces me.

„Young love, huh?" He asks in a seducing tone. „How about we go up and make some memories to show him later what love really looks like?"

„Mhm, tempting really, but someone needs to be in sences, in case something happens when everyone else went hunting. And you know us." I give him a knowing, a little luscious look.

„Touché." Is his reply. But he still puts me to his lap with his arm around me and gets his book, just as I take mine. Allan Ginsberg´s Howl in his hand, On the road by Jack Kerouac in mine. Boy we fit this we spend all night, even after everyone else returns from theit hunt, even after Edwards returns from Bella´s to get ready for school.

Oh, school. I hate it. First, I am still stuck at highschool though my age, well, frozen age, is 19, but that way we are able to keep appearances longer. Second, Chris is 22 and looks too old for high school. We say that he, Rose and Emmett are in college and I miss him terribly. During school that is.

„Liz!" I hear Alice shout „we need to get you ready for school!"

„I am ready!" I say back, refusing to move an inch.

„But you can´t wear that!" she still tries, knowing very well that I refuse to get dressed by her everydy like a doll.

„You know better that anyone that I won´t let you treat me like a doll." I say quietly, knowing very well that she heared me. „And anyway, what is wrong with my outfits?"

„What is wrong?" she shrieks „Shall I start with the wardrobe full of black and blue jeans or the fact that the word color is apparently unknown to you?" God I love to tease her about fashion.

„I wear colors, look, this is navy blue for example" I show her my cardigan.

„Okay, show me something that isn´t black, grey, white or navy blue..." Alice teases

„But those are my colors"

„They look great on you baby" Chris whispers in my eas. If I could blush, that would be the moment.

„Thank you" I ask him, Alice completly forgotten, and make my way to Edward´s Volvo, grabing my books.