"Journal Entry #23: Every day is the same. I'm so aggravated! See, I have a secret I can't tell because I don't want to hurt anyone. My family has worked so hard at being on good terms with the wolf pack. But 18 years ago, on the eve of my birth, Jacob Black imprinted on me. Trust me, I know the legend of how I'm supposed to love him because he's sired to me & only me for eternity. Truth is, I hate him. I'd rather watch paint dry. I don't have any feelings for him; he's just some annoying boy who grew up loving my mother. & if my mother didn't send a big enough sign when she threw her crazy right hook into his face; well let me just say that we Cullen women do not love mutts. My mom Bella was livid with Jacob when he imprinted on me, & curse my father Edward for finding it amusing. It's completely disgusting. I continue to get older unlike my mother & father. I wish I didn't have too. I want to live forever just like my entire family. I want to have kids, a husband, a cute little home with a pond, as well as a garden. I suppose my parents love story sort of fuels me to want everything my mother has gotten. Although my mom tells me that Jake is the only one who can give me kids. I don't believe this. There are other people in the world. Although I know what mom means, she means if I fall for a vampire I can't have kids. I'm not accepting this though. Not at all. Remember mom, "She's grows every single day" which means I can have children. Enough of that for now though. I'll write you later after twilight. Hopefully today is amazing."
As I close my laptop I hear mom yelling at me to get out the door or I'll be tardy for my first class. Senior year will be the best, I can just feel it in my being. I woke up early so I looked extra cute. After all, you only make one first impression, & if there are any cute boys, you better believe I want to make myself known in hopes of getting out from under Jake's smothering feelings. I shut my light off in my room & stride down the hall, my hair bouncing off my back in soft curls. I love when my hair cooperates. Mom is in the kitchen, it smells like grandma Swan's French toast recipe. Oh I so hope! It's my favorite thing in the entire world & I love when mom makes it.
"Hey mom!" I say enthusiastically.
"Hello darling, are you ready for last first day of high school? I made your favorite for breakfast by the way! Just like grandma Swan use to make for me."
"Oh mom this just makes my day even better, although I'm still upset you're making him take me. Can't I drive myself? Aunty Alice bought me a new car for my birthday & everything, yet you & father haven't let me touch it. It's been collecting dust for 2 months now! & it's my favorite color, lime green! Mom, pleeeeaaaaaseeee!"
"Renesmee, enough! Jacob is taking you, end of story."
Mom's still worried about the new vampires that have recently moved to Forks this summer. My dad's met with them as well as Grandpa Carlisle, & they say they're harmless & that they also feed on animal blood, but mom has some eerie feeling about them I suppose. Just as mom's complaining draws to an end, dad walks in. Great! If dad sees mom & I arguing over the Jacob thing again, I'm sure dad's never going to let me do anything ever again, or better yet, drive my new car.
"Edward, please tell your daughter why we're making Jake take her to school." Mom said as she finished my breakfast.
"Nessie, come on now, you know your mothers reasons. Please just listen…"
I stop him right there in his tracks. NESSIE! HE DID NOT JUST….!
"DON'T call me Nessie! How long am I going to be sheltered from these vampires? They're never going to leave, they LIVE here, & I'm a vampire too, I can handle MYSELF!"
As the silence fell once more my parents looked at me in shock. I had never yelled at my parents before but dad called me Nessie! & that's what Jake calls me. Hell, Jake made up that name for me & I loathe it! I want no tie to that boy what so ever! I stand completely frozen in place. Why am I even still here? I need to leave, go to school, see my friends & clear my head. I grab my backpack & I look to my left, there on the little wooden rack with the silver hooks hangs MY car keys. I stand there for another second, but I must move quick before my dad reads my thoughts. Then, at the speed of light I run, grab the keys, & bolt. Ha! Try and catch me now mom & dad. As I fly out the door I see Jake walking up the path, crap! I've got to ditch him. He'll try to stop me. Think Renesmee, THINK! The garden! That's it, if I take the garden path, I can make it to Grandma & Grandpa Cullen's quicker & that's where my car is. As I sprint through the garden I catch a glimpse of Dad running out the front door to Jake. Hopefully to tell him, "Never come back here!" Ohh who am I kidding they're probably devising a plan to ground me again. Last time I pulled a stunt like this they cut me off from the entire human population for the entire summer, as well as threatening to send me to the Volturi for the summer. Dad has a temper I just don't want to mess with, but today, today he crossed the line.