Hands clench
A smile reaches
But falls short of quivering blue eyes
Strained
Tormented
He laughs
Brushes aside his hair
With a jerking, twisted convulsion
"I'm alright. I'm alright."
A twitch of his lips
Pearly whites abound
Some days he can smile
But not always
Brilliant
Jovial
Others fall short
And never reach his eyes
He says otherwise
But the truth is within his gaze.
His laughs always mix
Trying to mask despair
Sobbing
Gasping
His breaths rise in tempo
Crescendos of pulsing, throbbing, quivering air
Groping for a light
That was already barely lit and flickering
And now his light is gone.
He was able to stand
On strong, driving legs
Thrusting
Striving
They got him where he wanted
But now collapse like paper cards
Blown in the wind
Scattered to the worlds
Just like his gaze outside.
Once his eyes were blue
Like a virgin summer sky
Sparkling
Innocent
They weep in twisting, writhing rivers
And he can't return to what was
His life before the loss
The bonds now forsaken
Delirium of pain and misery where joy and kindness once stood.
Because they're gone.
All gone.
To the rigid sands of time.
Leaving a repulsive, shameful shell
Of a boy who loved.
I just now realized I really only put this up on my tumblr oh well here ya'll go a little late