Troubled Past, Bleak Future

(The Thoughts and Decisions of True Love)

I've loved you from the first instant I saw you, and you didn't realize I existed.

I thought of you every day, planning how I'd tell you how I felt.

When I finally saw you, I couldn't speak.

I loved you more than anything, you saw me only as the little sister of your friend.

I tried everything to get your attention; it succeeded only in embarrassing us both.

I cried out in the only way I could, and it nearly killed me.

You came and saved me, but came close to dying yourself.

The thought of life without you was unbearable, but against all odds you survived.

I prayed you would at last feel my love, and had to settle for being your friend.

I hoped you would see me finally as the girl I was, but your eyes had found another.

I watched as you triumph against all odds, and felt your pain as you lost a friend.

I wept with you that summer, but you didn't hear because of the distance.

I wasn't able to hide my fury at the way the world treated you; I wanted to help you.

I had moved on, but even when I was with others, my thoughts were of you.

I watched as you got close to another, and actually cried for you when it fell apart.

Then I got my wish, you needed help.

I proudly fought beside you; we survived; and you lost your second father.

I was unable to ease your pain, but I felt it.

Then while in the arms of another, I saw the look on your face.

The look of desire, for me; and I exploded.

Facing attacks from outside, overwhelmed and unsure of my own emotions; I lashed out brutally at the easiest target.

It became easier when I was free again; I just had to wait for you to decide you wanted me.

Kissing you was the greatest moment of my life; followed by even greater ones as our relationship grew.

Then the call for battle was sounded again, and I rushed to fight; though few others did.

I'd have been proud to die for you, to give my life to keep you safe, sadly someone did.

At the funeral you told me I couldn't be with you because of the danger; I don't care, you may leave me behind, but I'll follow.

Whatever dangers you face, I will stand beside you, even if no one else can.

I love you, and I won't let you keep us apart.