I wonder how often Castiel thinks about Meg.
Head against the bus window, surrounded by human beings, wondering about his demon and asking himself what he felt and why he felt it, and if they could ever go anywhere
(like Pizza Hut)?
I wonder when Castiel found out Meg was dead
And how quick the guilt came after that, or if he was able to fight it off by holding his head in his hands and silently screaming that he did the right thing, he did the right thing, he was rescuing the tablet and he did the right thing
I wonder if Castiel cried about Meg
How long, after watching his family fall, how many days it was before he remembered that the reason he wasn't there to help her was the reason his family fell, and if he used the human tears (again) because it was just another item on the list of things that made him want to die
I wonder how often Castiel thinks about Meg.