my hopes and dreams are crushed into dust.
because what you said
still haunts me
every day
every night
I still cry.
all I need is one person
just one person
tell to me that they think i'm good enough
and that they mean it
that's all I need
"loser"
"lame"
"too fat"
"ugly"
"suck-up"
"teacher's pet"
"goody-two shoes"
"stupid"
"dumb"
"slut"
"bitch"
"nerd"
"bookworm"
"crazy"
"obsessed"
"who the hell?"
"what's your name again?"
"badass"
"so fake"
"stupider than Pooh"
"idiot"
"freak"
"abnormal"
what you said, I remember them all. you think it's just a remark, it's not. it's something that haunts me every time I think about myself.
wow, who did I think I was, thinking I was even good enough. because obviously I'm not. and never will be.
oh do I have to apologize for being the way I am?
the words you say, hurt me more than you can imagine, or was that your intention all along?
I swore i'd never let the people who hurt me, see me cry. well I guess I failed.
yes, you won.
the three words you said,
let the tears escape
no matter how hard I try
try to keep it in
sitting in that seat
with tears streaming down my face
thinking, replaying
about the words you said
while my friends
shouted insults and mean comments
at you
well you don't seem to care
of course you don't
you walk round with your head held high
confident
but what dumbfounds me is that the friends who defended me, were actually the ones who were bringing me down seconds ago.
is that how it's gonna be?
"you look like Pooh"
"because you're so dumb"
"and fat"
"and ugly"
"and your eyebrows are weird"
"oh my gosh! if we painted you yellow and put you in a red shirt, we could make you Pooh 2!"
yeah thanks for pointing out my flaws as if I don't see them already
every time I finally feel like hey maybe I look like a decent human being, someone knocks me down from cloud nine and remind me, no I'm not
you win
i'm just gonna go blend in with the wallpaper -insert fake smile-
i'm fine