"Not Falling"
Song by Mudvayne
Story by Moose
Always
Noted on my time
A little left I'm centered now
Reflect
As I realize
That all I
Need is to find
The little bit about to sit like the sun like a star in the sky
It just makes
Enough
Cast the stars in me
He could feel it...pulsing, pushing through the youkia's veins...blood, life, flowing in it's body. He could feel himself losing control and his youkia blood taking over.
I
I stand
Not crawling
Not falling down
I
I'll beat
The demons
That drag me down
I
I stand
(For nothing)
Not crawling
(Descending)
Not falling down
(Your nothing in the end)
I
I'll bleed
(For no one)
The demons
(But myself)
That pull me down
(For me and no one else)
His claws ripped through flesh like the razors they were - leaving jagged edges here, clean cuts elsewhere. Chunks of dying flesh scattered like confetti on the blood soaked ground. The youkia were certainly dead by now, there was nothing left to live...but his thirst was not gone - no, not yet.
Goodbye
Sunshine
I put it out again
Sun
I'm over
The sanelities
Convicting
I don't need you
Or anyone by me
I'll just be
Living my own life
I feel like growing cynical
Infecting
I feel alive and sharper
Turn on the lime
Planted on myself to sit like the seed in the comforts of every
Just makes
Enough
What you think isn't me
She appeared in front of him. At first she was just another body to rip through, as he did not recognize her face. She took a hold of the sides of his face and looked him in his deep red eyes.
"Inu Yasha," Her voice was pleading, yet firm. "Come back to us!...come back to me..."
A growl emitted from the bowls of Inu Yasha.
"Be careful!" The warning came from Miroku.
She never took her eyes from his. "Inu, please."
I
I stand
Not crawling
Not falling down
I
I'll beat
The demons
That drag me down
I
I stand
(For nothing)
Not crawling
(Descending)
Not falling down
(Your nothing in the end)
I
I'll bleed
(For no one)
The demons
(But myself)
That pull me down
(For me and no one else)
Red eyes blinked back and the sound of dripping blood lessened in Kagome's ears. Inu Yasha growled and tore her hands from the sides of his head, but not letting go.
"Kagome." Inu Yasha rasped out. His eyes dimmed and his body began to shake. He looked around himself at the carnage...carnage that he had done. The smell of blood and death was overwhelming him and it brought him to his knees. He collapsed into a puddle of blood and began to sob. The guilt was so thick he was beginning to choke. He was the one responsible for all this death. "I-I should have had more control...more strength..." Inu Yasha began to trail off and mumble.
The sight of Inu Yasha brought more tears to Kagome's eyes. He ... he seemed broken now. Like this was the final straw that broke the camel's back.
Come play kill
(Refuse my to fall, today refuse my shadow)
Stone cold will
(Refuse to need this, refuse to follow)
Bitter pills
(Refuse to be this, refuse to swallow, I feel godless)
Come play
Come play god
Test me
Test me
Inu Yasha struggled to get back on his feet. "I can't...can't stay h-here...'ave to go." He managed a few steps before crumbling back down to the ground near Miroku. Miroku followed him to the ground so that he didn't injure himself.
"You aren't going anywhere, Inu Yasha, but back to village so you can recuperate." Inu Yasha fought back, but his heart wasn't in it. His heart was too busy shattering like the rest of him.
It all came crashing down on Inu Yasha at once, and he could not stop the tears from coming. Kagome knelt down alongside them and he turned to her and buried his head in her shoulder, letting it all out.
I
I stand
(For nothing)
Not crawling
(Descending)
Not falling down
(Your nothing in the end)
I
I'll bleed
(For no one)
The demons
(But myself)
The trio stayed like that until there were no more tears left to cry. It was then that Miroku picked up his fallen comrade and carried him to where they could care for him.
It would be a long time before Inu Yasha would forgive himself, and tough, but together, they would get through it and be just fine.
The End
a/n: well, should I write the next chapter to this? Leave it as it is? Erase all evidence that this story existed?
Disclaimer: Last time I checked I didn't own Inu Yasha..and you know what? I still don't.