'Cas don't bullshit me hère, i know you i know somethings wrong and i know that you try so hard to make it look like you are happy Cas but you are not. I can see it. When you don't think anyones looking Cas you look sad, hell you don't even look sad you just look fucking dead inside, so don't you tell me you are okay because i know you're not. and i can't bare to see you in this much pain' Dean said to Cas as they were sat facing each other . each on a separate hotel bed.
Cas stared back at Dean before breaking eye contact with him. He thought he had hidden it. The pain. He would never forgive himself for Letting Dean see the pain. Dean had seen too much pain. Dean shouldn't even care if Cas was hurt and broken, he was worthless, nothing. No one else cared. but Dean did, because Dean was good. Dean was everything Cas wanted and hoped to be but every time he tried to do the right thing he made things worse, and jeprodised those he loved. No, Cas was worthless. he had fallen in every sense of the word and now he has the perfect man sat in front of him actually worried about him. Like someone cared for him. So cas did something he had never done before. He started to cry.
Dean was slightly taken back by Cas breaking down in front of him but he didn't hesitate to act. He immediately got up and sat back down next to Cas and wrapped his arms around him. Cas flinched at the contact but soon relaxed and at that moment something occurred to dean. This was probably the first time Castiel had been shown any genuine affection. He had never thought about it before. He had always thought that he had a lonely life, a lonely childhood but here holding Cas he felt how much worse Cas' life had been. He had never been hugged before, and he had certainly never had anyone tell him how much he is worth, how much he was worth. He had just been given duties. duties that he had carried out until he gave everything for Dean.
'Dean i'm so sorry' Cas whispered ' I'm so sorry for everything, I'm sorry i couldn't save you, i'm sorry i'm not enough Dean, I'm sorry you feel pain I'm sorry' Cas choked out and gripped deans arms deepening they're hug. 'I don't deserve to be here Dean, i don't deserve anything' At this Dean shot away from Cas and put his hands on Cas' face and forced him to look at him.
'Now you listen to me Castiel. You deserve so much more than you have. You literally gave up Heaven in order to try and fight for something that you yourself couldn't even feel but you knew was right. Castiel you are more than enough, you are far more than i could ever hope for. and don't you ever , ever feel like you aren't worth it. you are worth everything to me. and i would go to hell 1000 times over if it would make it realise how much to are worth to me.'
Castiel saw a tear slowly make its way down deans cheek. He smiled softly as he looked into deans eyes. Maybe if Dean cared so much then he was at least worth something. Dean was something worth trying for at least. 'Thank you Dean' cas whispered and he pulled Dean into a hug. It was the first hug that he had ever given. To the first person who he had loved.