Have you ever been trapped in your own mind, not able to control your actions? Where everything you said or did wasn't you, and all you could do was watch? That's what it was like. When he controlled me. The second he touched that staff to my body, I was no longer in control. I was a puppet. I was his puppet. I did everything he asked without hesitation. I couldn't stop myself. I couldn't fight it. I tried to fight him off, but I couldn't. My mind wasn't strong enough. I wasn't strong enough.
After the experience, I felt weak. I still feel weak. I feel unimportant, useless, like the team would be fine without me.
But I can't give up on them now. I can't just turn my head and walk away. Not now. I can't just let them do this by themselves. That's not who I am. I don't just run from my problems. That's not the kind of man I am. No matter what happens I will fight till the end. Because that is the type of man I am.