Disclaimer: This is my first story, so I hope you like. ^^ It's my practice
on being descriptive. ^^ Oh…and this is for my friend Rena, I love you, girl!
^^ Well, I don't own Rena or Heero or whatever, god damnit! I don't own
anything! I'm only writing this because it's one o'clock in the morning and
I've had too much chocolate! And damn that rap music!
Never is a
Promise
You'll never see
- the courage I know
Its colors'
richness won't appear within your view
I'll never glow
- the way that you glow
Your presence
dominates the judgements made on you
I walked into the
apartment, to see him sitting in his large blue chair in the middle of the
living room. He was reading another one of those books that take up hours of
his time and - unfortunately - his attention. There was no use in making
conversation with him, he wouldn't answer me except with a "yeah" or
a "huh" really. I examined his deep blue sapphire eyes as they
scanned again and again the book he was reading. His messy dark brown head of
hair brushed his eyelashes, almost impatiently. Such a perfect guy, and almost
invincible. Sometimes he makes me feel like I'll never be as good as he is,
then again, sometimes I don't really care.
But as the
scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows
undulate in my perception
My feelings
swell and stretch, I see from greater heights
I understand
what I am still too proud to mention - to you
But there are many
times when I see that there are many things I find I do better than my perfect
boyfriend. Cooking is one of them; I can actually make Macaroni and Cheese
without burning the cheese and noodles at the same time. I'm also more
emotional, but we won't get into that. Though I do have to remember at times,
that I'm not at constant competition with him. I love him for who he is, not
what he can do.
You'll say you
understand, but you don't understand
You'll say you'd
never give up seeing eye to eye
But never is a
promise and you can't afford to lie
I also feel,
sometimes, that he doesn't really understand what I'm trying to say or do. He
gives me a blank stare, then acts like he knows. It's a frustrating thing to
deal with, and I don't always think things will work out between us. However,
somehow, they always do.
You'll never
touch - these things that I hold
The skin of my
emotions lies beneath my own
You'll never
feel the heart of this soul
My fever burns
my deeper than I've ever shown - to you
As much as he may
try, he'll never know or feel in the same ways as I do. I'm buried within
myself, and it may take a while for anyone to become close to me emotionally.
It's like I have a wall of ice shielding me from my emotion. He doesn't seem to
understand. Maybe it's that I've never understood myself, though.
You'll say,
Don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems
You'll say you'd
never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a
promise and you can't afford to lie
Even though he'll
give me encouragement and high hopes, I'm afraid there may come a time when he
only throws discouragement and failure at me. Don't get me wrong, I love him
very much, it's just that I'm scared he might let go of me. But I trust him,
and it's true, he can't afford to lie.
You'll never
live the life that I live
I'll never live
the life that wakes me in the night
You'll never
hear the message I give
You say it looks
as though I might give up this fight
He sometimes says that we are one, but how
could we be when we haven't lived each other's lives? I've never done all the
things that he has, and he hasn't seen through my hardships. Even if we have
stuff in common, we're very different people. And even if he never does
understand, he'll never have to lie to me. Ever.
You'll say you
understand, you'll never understand
I'll say I'll
never wake up knowing how or why
I don't know
what to believe in, you don't know who I am
You'll say I
need appeasing when I start to cry
But never is a
promise and I'll never need a lie
So…what'd you think? Sorry if I made
you a bit out of character, Rena. ^^ I tried. Ooh! I see more chocolate! One
sec. Okies then, If you like it, great! If you don't, that's your problem. But
please don't flame me, okies??? ^^ Thankies! ^^
