AN: This is my first Fanfic so tell me what you think and if I should keep going.

**SM owns everything I own none of it this is just my brains thoughts**

BPOV

I could feel his warm hard body pressed firmly up against my backside as his hand roamed over my hip and thigh and over my stomach. I lay there with my eyes closed looking like I was asleep but most decidedly awake. He slowly pulled me onto my back and began to lay gentle wet kisses on my mouth and down my neck. I smiled softly on his lips and with that he was hovering over me ravishing every part of my body all at once. I enjoyed knowing that after all these years he still wanted me this way and dam he was good at what he was doing. As much as I wanted to roll over and be asleep he had done all the hard work to get us in this position and I couldn't turn him down after all what kind of wife would I be? What kind of wife in deed?

What kind of wife are you Bella? You have been married to Edward Cullen for 9 years now and he is the love of your life any women would be lucky to have him for five minutes let alone a life time. Here you sit alone in the living room the kids are tucked into bed fast asleep and your Adonis of a husband lay half naked (probably) up stairs falling asleep. Get up and go up there you are missing an opportunity for quiet uninterrupted sex with your husband! With that thought running through my head I turned on the TV and snuggled into the corner of the couch figuring if I watch an hour of Lifetime TV he would be fast asleep when I finally went to bed.

How did I get here? How did I get to the place where I sit and hope my husband falls asleep so I don't have to have sex with him. I love him with every part of my being I always have. I still find him extremely sexy and do want him I think about sometimes all day but when evening comes and the opportunity is there I just have no interest.

It wasn't always this way…..

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I cannot believe my parents thought it was a good idea to move me this summer I don't know anyone at this school. Who cares if this is where my dad got a job whoopdy Doo like I care that my dad is now the Chief of police this should be great I'm sure everyone will want to hang out with me now! It is my freshman year I have no friends and it is official I hate my life!

I don't fit in here I don't have the right clothes and don't really care to. These people all look way to happy to be here this early. It's overcast and not warm at all. I was pulled abruptly from my thoughts of distain and desire to shut my eyes when the most amazing thing walked into the class room. He was tall(ok that's not saying much I'm kinda short) he had this copper yet dark brown hair that looked like he had just fallen out of bed but in the most perfect way possible. He had a smirk on his face as he strolled through the door with a few girls who seemed to be drooling right on his stark white Nikes. It was obvious he was popular and only served to remind me of how inadequate I was and anonymous worse yet invisible.

I would replay this exact scene five more times today and each time got a little worse. By the end of the day I was tired and fed up I could see this year going by really slow and painfully. I stood at my locker tossing my books in and getting my jacket out so I could head home to my room my sanctuary and read.

SMACK!

HOLY FUCK! That hurt! My locker door slammed into my head as this petite little thing barreled into me. I caught a hold of her and steadied her to her feet while using a few more choice words. She turned around and smiled as she apologized apparently her lug of a boyfriend thought it would be funny to give her a little nudge with his hip and since she weighed all of 98 lbs that sent her careening my way. This is how I met Alice. She was a tiny thing with short spiky black hair a smile a mile wide and loud did I mention loud?

Alice turned and introduced herself to me while flipping off her boyfriend. She noticed right away that my head was bleeding and insisted on taking me to the bathroom to clean it up. I went just to shut her up and also to get away from all the people that were now starring at me. I think I liked being invisible better. It was from that moment on that Alice and I became friends. We spent almost every weekend together well her and her boyfriend Jasper who was a really nice guy and he felt really bad for injuring me on my first day at a new school. It went along like this with little to no change for two years.

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The beginning of junior year was pretty uneventful I picked up Alice and proceeded to wait the extra 20 minutes while she finished getting ready and then we walked into first period together not caring much that we had arrived 15 minutes after the last bell. We got assigned our lockers and I was disappointed to learn mine was on the second floor on the other side of the school and Alice's was right outside her third period class and nowhere near mine! There was one interesting development she had an awfully cute neighbor. Edward Cullen had been assigned the locker right next to hers. He was a bit taller now than he had been freshman year and still had that freshly fallen out of bed brown hair with the perfect hint of copper in it. I had kept my eye on him over the last two years and had continued to be completely invisible to him.

I had come out of my shell a bit by now. Alice had done her best to convert my style to something a bit more upbeat and colorful while I did my best to avoid the bright colors she kept insisting I put on. Over the course of the year Edward and gotten a little chatty with Alice and I in between classes and at lunch. I assumed it was because he and Jasper knew each other from Football and Baseball and he was just tolerating me. Alice and I sat in the hall at lunch in early May as Edward closed his locker he took out his wallet and was digging around in it for God knows what. Alice hopped up like a little rabbit and snatched it out of his hand. She sat down next to me and we began flipping through the photos in his wallet mostly pictures of girls. Alice began by saying so Eddie what one is she? Who gets that engine of yours all revved up? He just simply said someone in his wallet and snatched it back and walked away.

A week later Alice Jasper and the rest of our Life Science class found ourselves on a bus on our way up to the Olympic Rainforest for a weekend of exploring and lectures. We were placed in groups by Mr. Mittmin and as luck would have it Alice, Jasper and I ended up in the same group. We were perfectly fine with the three of us but at the last minute Edward was added to our group and surprisingly he didn't look like he was going to die. We spent the weekend hiking through the woods while Mr. Mittmin went on about the eco system all I heard was blah blah blah I was too busy staring at Edward and trying not to fall flat on my ass or face. It was natural that Alice and Jasper were stuck together like glue and that left Edward to deal with me. He was polite and even caught me a few times saving me from having a mud wrestling match with myself. Edward got quite a bit of enjoyment out of watching me slip and slide my way through the weekend and I found him laughing at me quite often. I was beginning to feel a bit stupid I mean I don't mind a chuckle every now and then but this was getting to be a bit too much.

Early Sunday morning we headed out for one last hike just before dawn. Mr. Mittmin wanted us to see the morning dew or some shit so off we went. I found myself sitting on a fallen tree next to Edward in the quiet still of the morning it was cold and damp. I tried desperately to keep my teeth from chattering but I was fucking freezing. I closed my eyes and wrapped my arms around my small frame and concentrated. I sat very still and all of a sudden I felt this warmth envelope me and the most amazing smell over take me. I opened my eyes as I felt Edward lean in and whisper in my ear you're missing the sunrise open your eyes. I felt his warm breath float down my neck and sneak up under my hair. I shivered and got goose bumps not from the cold now. He had placed his jacket around me and remained a bit closer than he had been. I watched as the dew became a haze of steam as the morning sun began to seep through the canopy of the forest it was magical. Just as I began to turn and thank Edward he was up and moving with the rest of the group back to camp. Once we were back and packed up we piled onto the bus. Everyone seemed to stay in their work groups so I ended up sitting next to Edward for the ride home. I can't say that I was disappointed at all. I drifted off to sleep about an hour into the ride and once again I got a nose full of that wonderful sent and felt the weight of his coat draped over me. This time it was over him as well. I sat as still as possible and was no longer able to sleep I sat that way for the rest of the trip home.

Monday morning came and Alice was acting crazy well more crazy than normal. I couldn't quite figure it out she just kept grinning at me and nudging me and giggling I had half a mind to smacker and shaker her a little to get her to snap out of it. There I sat in third period French class when the class phone rang. Mr. Bonfilio looked at me and said Miss Swan you have an item that needs to be picked up from the office you may go now since we are so close to the end of class. I gathered my things and off I went. What could be down at the office it wasn't my birthday or Valentine 's Day not that I would get anything for Valentines' day I had no clue. I got about 500 feet from the office when all of a sudden I was slammed up against the lockers and my little pixie of a best friend was shrieking DID YOU GET THEM YET? Completely disoriented and puzzled I said WHAT? She calmed down and grabbed my hand and led me the rest of the way to the office. I walked in and there right there on the counter were 6 pink roses the secretary looked at me and just said plainly Isabella Swan? I said yes and she said there ya go.

I was more confused now than before when Alice tackled me. I had never gotten flowers before and I was sure they had made a mistake. I heard in the distance of the fog I was in Alice poking me to read the card! I picked it up very slowly. The writing on the front simply said Isabella Swan.

Dear Isabella,

I know we don't know each other that well but I had a great time this last weekend getting to know you more. I was hoping that you might let me get to know you better and go out with me? I will understand if you think I am a nut case and blow me off. At any rate keep the flowers they remind me of you.

Edward C.

With that I was once again smashed up against the wall with Alice screaming in my ear. I waited until after lunch was over and found Edward at his locker. I was still a bit confused and unsure of how or why this had happened. I stood very quiet and still as he closed his locker I came into view and for the first time I was close enough to look right into the most amazing deep green eyes I had ever seen. I had seen his eyes before plenty of times but those beautiful green eyes had never been looking at me. I smiled at him as I fidgeted and looked down at my feet. I bit my bottom lip and chewed until I thought it might come off. I heard a very soft Hey as I slowly turned my gaze upward. I looked at him and whispered I would love for you to get to know me better I….I mean I would like to get to….Oh God this is not happening what I mean is YES. He just looked at me and gave me this little smirk and I thought I had melted into a puddle right there. I heard him speak and all he said was thanks now can I walk with you to Science?

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Three weeks had passed and we were having fun hanging out with Alice and Jasper going to the beach and hanging out over at Alice's house. Neither of us had brought the other home to meet the parents and that was ok I mean who wants to meet the father with a gun. It was now the last day of school and Edward's parents were having a big BBQ to kick off summer and welcome home his older brother Emmett who had just finished his first year of college and was home now. Edward had made it very clear that he wanted me there and to bring my swim suite for the pool he said something about pool volley ball all I heard was swim suite and all I could think of was seeing Edward in a swim suite all wet in the sun. Ok so we had kissed a bit and hugged but that was it. Each time we would say goodbye our kisses got longer and deeper to the point I wanted to toss him on the ground and just rip his shirt off…Bella…Bella…..I was jarred from my little fantasy and looked up at Edward

um ya?

Do you want me to come pick you up?

No no that's ok I will just come over at 5:30 is that ok?

Sure thing see you in a few hours.

I arrived home quickly showered and shaved all the important areas and put some lotion on dried my hair and put it up in a messy bun. I was so giddy I felt like I was channeling Alice. I put on my navy blue bikini that Alice insisted on and put on some white cotton shorts and a light pink tank top. I figured the pink along with the bikini would keep Alice off my fashion challenge back for the day. I tossed my iPod and a book in my bag along with my towel and a change of clothes for when the sun went down. I was in my truck and on my way. It didn't take long to pull up to the Cullen's home it was a large brick home with a grand staircase that lead up to the front door. I sat in my truck becoming very nervous there were a few cars there already I could see Jasper's jeep so I knew Alice was already here and that helped a bit. I hoped Edward's mom and dad would like me and not wonder what in the world there god of a son was doing with a peasant such as myself. I climbed out of my truck and walked up the steps and rang the bell. I could hear music and a few people laughing. The door swung open and I was greeted by a huge wall of flesh that was topped off with dark brown hair and a very familiar looking grin. It was Emmett, Edward's older and much larger brother. It's not that Edward was little he was just not as broad and muscle bound as his brother. Edward was chiseled and had muscle in all the right places. Emmet stepped to the side and allowed me into the house. I heard my name being called and looked around to see Edward running down the steps and pushing his brother to the side. He picked me up into a warm bear hug and kissed my forehead and placed me back on my feet. He turned and introduced me to Emmet and I was removed from the ground again into another hug. I let out a squeak and then heard a loud smack. He put me down and I heard Emmet yell Fuck that hurt Rose! She moved around him and I saw an amazingly gorgeous girl she was slim yet athletic and blond with just the right shade of tan to her skin.

Hi I'm Rosalie Emmet's much better half.

Hi I'm Bella Edwards um Edwards Girlfriend…I don't think I had actually said that out loud yet I liked the way it sounded.

We all emptied the house and went to the back yard where the pool was. Edward walked me over to the BBQ and tapped his father on the shoulder. He turned and good God these Cullen men are all gorgeous!

Dad I would like you to meet Isabella Swan….Bella this is my dad Carlisle.

Nice to meet you Mr. Cullen

Please Bella call me Carlisle.

We were joined by a beautiful woman with the warmest smile I think I had ever seen I know where Edward gets it.

Mom this is Isabella Swan…..Bella this is my mom Esme

It's a pleasure to meet you Mrs. Cullen

Oh Bell Edward here talks about you so much I feel like I know you already please call me Esme.

Well that wasn't too bad the afternoon was so much fun we played Frisbee and had that dreaded volley ball match in the pool. Once we were done playing volley ball I felt Edward swim up behind me and put his arms around my waist and rest his hands on my stomach. He pulled me tight against his chest and I could feel every single muscle ripple up my back. He leaned down and whispered in my ear…You haven't seen the rest of the house wanna go for a walk? His breath was warm in my ear I had been starring at him all day in those black board shorts that hung low on his hips and that amazing trail of hair that led into an abyss of lustful thoughts I had been fighting all day. He kissed the back of my neck and let his tongue slide out just a bit as he did and I shivered. I turned my head and told him that a tour would be great.

We hopped out of the pool I slipped my shorts on and toweled off a bit as did he. He took my hand and we walked back into the house he showed me the kitchen and living room the TV room and formal dining room. We came back around to the stairs I had seen Edward come down earlier in the day and as he led me up he pointed out funny family photos. He showed me where the bathrooms were on this floor and then opened a door at the far end of the hall…

He opened it and I stepped in it was a good size room painted in dark blue with dark wood trim. There was a large queen sized bed in the center of the room made up in dark blue and brown colors. There was a desk by the window and a flat screen TV mounted on the wall opposite the bed. He turned to me and said…This is my room and then cocked that smirk that could melt me into a puddle in two seconds. I gave him a little grin and said I kindda figured.

He shut the door behind him and walked over to where I stood at the foot of his bed and took my face in his hands and leaned down and kissed me. He placed his lips on mine and let his tongue graze my bottom lip I quickly opened my mouth and let his tongue in as he pulled me into him. He was still in his swim suite and still a bit damp I let my hand snake up around his neck and down his back I could hear his breathing pick up and as his breathing picked up his hands went down my back and lightly spread across my ass. I couldn't help but let a small moan escape my mouth and he pulled back and stared at me.

I have been waiting to do that all day he said as he leaned into pick up where he had left off. I could feel the weight of him moving us backward until the back of my legs hit his bed. Shit shit shit what am I doing my brain was moving a mile a minute. I knew I wasn't ready to go all the way with him but I also knew I wasn't ready to stop whatever it was we were doing. He gently placed his hand on my lower back and pushed forward until we were lying on his bed. He pulled up from me and looked at me as if to make sure I was ok I just pulled him in close to continue our kiss. Our hands roamed down our sides and tangled in each other's hair. I told him at one point my legs were falling asleep and he sat up and put his hand under me and in one smooth motion moved me up so my head lay on his pillows. He crawled up next to me and began lightly grazing his hand over my stomach and I lay there completely in ahhh of him. He leaned down and started laying wet open mouthed kisses on my neck and just slightly lower. As he did this my breathing pick up and his hand moved slowly up and ghosted over my left breast. I felt him grind into my right leg and I could feel exactly what all of this was doing to him and it felt amazing! I was completely lost in this moment and felt at home in his arms. He gently and slowly moved the top of my bikini on my left side away revealing my breast to him he never took his eyes off of mine. I closed my eyes and let out a calming breath giving him silent permission to continue. He dipped his head down and kissed his way down until his lips met my hard aching nipple. He paused for what seemed like hours and then I felt the warmest wet sensation I had ever felt it was his mouth fully enveloping my breast for the first time. I was so thankful my bottoms were still a little damp because if they weren't they would have been soaking by now. He ground harder against me and let out a moan over my breast…..Ugh Edward….that was all I could get to come out of my mouth. His right hand trailed slowly down my body and down my left thigh and back up the inside of my right thigh. I pushed up toward his hand with my hips and he dipped his hand into my shorts and bikini bottoms. I felt one of his fingers slide down my folds but not entering and then back up. He stopped but didn't remove his hand and looked up at me with heavy eyes. My eyes shot open at the loss of contact. My breathing was erratic at best and all I could say was Edward in a voice I am sure he barley could hear. I closed my eyes and ran my hand up his back and through his damp hair.

He let one finger slip into my now dripping wet folds and graze over my clit. Now I will admit I had touched myself before but my GOD this felt amazing. He trailed that finger down and dipped it very slowly into my center. I came undone. I began to squirm and wiggle and that only served to drive him forward. He added a finger to the first and began circling my clit faster and faster all the while grinding into my right hip. He moved from my breast to my mouth and back again to my breast. I felt my stomach tighten and I arched my back….Edward….Edward…UGHHHHHHHH!

I lay there trembling and breathing so fast I thought I might pass out. He waited for my breathing to return to normal and removed his hand from my bottoms. I could see he was still hot and bothered and I looked at him and snaked my right hand down and rubbed his hard length through his swimsuit. Fuck….Belllllla….Was all he said and it was so soft and quiet I almost didn't hear it. He went back to my breast suckling and moaning as I worked him on top of his suite. I moved up and undid his drawstring and as I dipped my fingers just inside of the waist band his bedroom door flew open with a loud voice screaming EDDIE WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU! Edward's head shot up and he practically through me under him completely. EMMET DUDE GET THE FUCK OUT YOU ASSHOLE! I am sure I must have been as red as a tomato. Emmet just stopped and stammered oh dude I'm sorry mom is asking for you and I….GET THE FUCK OUT!

Edward looked down at me and apologized. I hid my face in his shoulder and began to giggle quietly.

I'm sorry Edward

You're sorry? Your gorilla of a brother didn't just barge in on you groping your girlfriend.

I know but we need to get back down stairs and well you didn't I mean you are still…..

It's OK I will live and I was more interested in you..

This would prove to be a common theme for us he was tender and unselfish. He was passionate but never demanding. So how did I end up on this couch alone and content to be here?