The rain came gently, pattering down the roof like the
soft feet of a cat. Darkness playfully hid about
the mansion, skittering away wherever
the soft illumination of one of the many antiquated
lamps fell upon it. The stairs creaked their response.
The man felt his heart leap into his
throat the minute she walked in. It could not be
helped. No amount of careful preparation
could make this any easier, make rejection any
less painful.
The time was right. It was now or never.
His silence, the blankness of his pages would
never win her over. As sadly comforting
as knowing that a clean piece of paper
could never be rejected, he would have
to take the chance of marring the void
in hopes that doing so would make her understand
how he felt.
"You look as if you're not feeling well,
Vincent. Is something the matter?" She set the glass
of water she had come down to get and
gently touched her friend's elbow, a
slight crease of worry marking her brow.
He jerked slightly at her touch, his heart
lodged deeper in his throat than ever.
"No...! I-I'm perfectly fine..." He stammered,
cursing his inability to play it cool in this situation
when he'd always prided himself on his level head
and quick thinking. Such was love.
She raised an eyebrow suspiciously, his denial not
being very believable. "Are you certain? I mean,
you really look like you should go and lie down or
something. You look positively ill."
"I-I'm fine, okay!" He blurted out, a look of horror
crossing his face simultaneously. Oh God. He should
have just kept the slate blank. It seemed the
more he opened his mouth, the deeper his foot
became entrenched.
"Well... if you say so." She replied, clearly befuddled
by his actions and a bit taken back by his words. She
picked up her glass and turned to leave when he took her
hand.
"No... Lucrecia... I... what I meant to say was...
I mean..." He faltered, feeling like the biggest fool
in the world standing here holding the hand of the
woman he was so very desperately in love with that
he could not even form a complete sentence.
What had ever made him think this was a good idea?
Now she would just think he was insane, some demented
little moth blinded by her light. He had been such a fool.
No words could tell her how he felt about her. And so,
his heart still pounding away at a frantic coda,
he bent his head and
kissed her hand gently.
"Lucrecia... I just...I think that... we might be
good together... No, I know we would. It feels like
destiny brought us together, to be here right now.
Like we were meant to be, even though I know this
must sound like pure lunacy to you." He had paused to
get her reaction, but too frightened to stop he
continued
pouring his heart out.
"I know it seems impossible and pure folly, but
I really feel that we were meant to be.
You're everything that I want and all that I've
asked for; you're all that I dream about.
You're absolutely perfect, I mean, who :wouldn't:
want to be the one you love?" He grasped her hand
tighter, the intensity of his words bleeding out of
him like a mortal wound. He had to
finish. He had to tell her exactly how he felt,
lay everything out on the table right now
before it was too late.
"Everything about you is beautiful, Lucrecia. Your
heart, your soul, your mind. Everything you are
is everything I want." Just being near her made
him feel that everything was simpler, everything
was right with the world.
She was so amazing he knew he would
do anything for her, without question, even
be able to watch her walk away and he would
still love her forever.
Even the possibility of rejection didn't
frighten him anymore. No, he would simply
live and breathe for them both, her home would
always be inside his heart.
And knowing this gave him the courage to finally
finish.
"I don't know if you understand me, or if
I've frightened you, Lucrecia. If I have, I'm
most sorry. I mean no harm.
But this is how I feel." He planted a last kiss on
her soft hand and released it gently, the ghost
of a smile lingering at his lips. It was okay
that his blank page was covered in so many
irrefutable words, things he could never take back.
That was fine. He never intended to. He would
wear them on his sleeve along with his heart.
Forever if that's what
it took.
Softly she smiled.
"Anyone who wouldn't want to be loved by you is a fool."
She murmured, her eyes meeting his for a brief second.
Then she turned and walked away.
