Dear Diary
Tara called me today and told me the one thing I had been dreading my whole life Gran died last week, I begged him to take me home so many times when since she got sick but he refused. I have to leave him I can't wait any more we married senior year and I have endured his ways for three years now, he promised me so many things but all he has done is taken me away from my family and friends. He kept me isolated from everyone and anyone who could help me escape him but I finally figured it out, I found the combination to his safe and I am taking the money and leaving in a few days when the bruises heal, I know I will have to run for a while but I will send Tara money to keep up Grans house until I can go home he can't hunt me forever right?
Dear Diary
Tonight's the night I am finally going to be free of him, he has a business dinner and he won't be taking me I talked back to him yesterday and now my face is just too bruised to take in public, of course it's my fault again only this time I did want him to hit I did want him to lose his temper. I refused him sex knowing the reaction it would cause but now my plan can go on without a hitch, when he leaves I will pack what's necessary and take the money and run for my life.
Dear Diary
Things went terribly wrong I followed my plan to the t but how could I have known he would forget his phone and come back for it, he is usually such a control freak he never forgets anything just my luck this time he would. Things got bad quick he grabbed me from behind while I was packing and beat me until I couldn't see strait I swear I thought I would die this time I even prayed for death anything was better than this torture, when he thought I was done being punished he climbed on top of me begging my forgiveness and forcing himself on me. Lord help me I made it through the night in the morning I woke before him felling sore and disoriented as I went to make him breakfast, three eggs two sausage links a rare steak and two pieces of toast. He was never big on coffee but he loved his orange juice in the morning. The pills were prescribed for me a few months ago he thought I had taken them all but he was mistaken, he sat at the table devouring his food while I stood next to him in case he needed anything as usual finally his glass was empty and he shoved his plate forward letting me know I should clean up. I was washing his plate when I heard the glass break followed by a thud he was out, I moved so fast packing my bag and grabbing the money from the safe I kept feeling like I forgot something but I did it I got away from him I just pray he doesn't find me.
Sookie stepped from the greyhound bus and breathed in the night air she had been running for six years and thanks to Tara who has been keeping tabs on her abuser she knew he wasn't following her and finally she felt safe to come home. It was early June and hot in Bontemps Sookie had been traveling for so long she stated to think this day might never come, there were so many people she couldn't wait to see but the first thing she needed to do was say hi to gran.
She placed her bags on the back steps and walked the short way through the cemetery, Sookie knew this was going to be hard to face but when she saw the tomb stone with her Grans name on it she couldn't help the over flow of emotions that hit her.
The stone was beautiful white marble with English lettering on the front of it she fell to her knees sobbing uncontrollable she couldn't turn off the anger the sadness or the fear her Gran had always been there for her and thanks to him she will never get to return the favor. She curled her body into a ball on the cool grass wishing she would have listened the things people had told her when she was younger, wishing she could go back to junior year in high school and walk away from the handsome bad boy.
Ten years ago so many things were telling her to run the other way but he knew all the right things to say, he even had Gran fooled until the night I came home with a broken wrist. Of course I made an excuse for him he had told me it was an accident he was stressed and his temper got the best of him when he saw me talking to Eric Northman, he pulled me away dragging me into the alley and squeezed my wrist until something snapped.
Gran flipped her lid screaming and cursing him as she grabbed her purse and headed out the door, I followed her to his house begging her not to be hard on him telling her it was an accident one of many lies I told to cover for him. He opened the door with a sweet an innocent expression on his face begging her forgiveness and swearing it was a complete accident, Gran didn't believe him but she had always let me make my own mistakes so she gave him a warning and we headed home.
The thought of how loving her Gran was made her break down again causing her not to hear the footsteps coming up behind her "are you ok" a deep voice said from behind her. Sookie stood quickly dusting herself off as she turned "I'm fine I just" her words cut short as she stood looking at the last person she thought she would run into in Bontemps.
Last thing she heard he had gotten married and moved away years ago and now he stood in front of her all six foot three of the blood god she had crushed on all through grade school. "Eric" her voice caught in her throat as she remembered all the times she had fantasized about him while her husband forced himself on her, "wow how are you?" His eyes moved up and down her body a gorgeous grin spread across his face "Sookie Stackhouse sorry Sookie what is your married name again?" he said smiling, "its Stackhouse" she said not wanting to say his name out loud as if it would make him appear.
The two of them walked back through the cemetery to her house while he explained what brought him back to Bontemps, he talk slow and sweet making it hard to focus on the actual words that were coming out of his mouth but by the time they reached the back porch to her family home she had learned that he did get married and move away but it didn't work out after a year they filed for a divorce and parted on good terms.
Sookie hoped he wouldn't ask her about her marriage to the captain of the football team she knew the horror story that was her life six years ago would make Eric run for the hills, they were standing at the bottom of the stairs when Eric started to talk again and she panicked. She wasn't ready to talk about the life that was the only good thing about living on the run no one knew your past so you could be anyone you wanted without any questions, "well I need to get inside and get settled it was nice seeing you again" she said grabbing her bags and dragging them into the house.
Eric looked puzzled he had no clue what had happened in the last few seconds that could have scared her so badly, he turned and walked back across the yard and disappeared into the trees. With the door closed and locked behind her Sookie looked around the empty kitchen and again was overwhelmed by the sadness of knowing she would never again walk in to this house and be greeted by her Grans warm embrace.
Sookie walked through the house and she was amazed at how well Tara had kept it up there wasn't a speck of dust or a thing out of place, she carried her bags into the little white bedroom that was across the hall from her grans and started to unpack when she heard a knock at the door that made her jump and her first thought was that he had found her. She took a couple deep breaths to calm herself down before she walked to the front door, she reached for the handle and hesitated if it was him what would she do.
She watched her hand as it shook around the knob and she pulled it back as she remembered the beatings when she had tried to leave before, "Sookie you in there it's me Tara" her heart skipped a beat and a tear fell from her eye as relief flooded over her. "Hello Sook" Tara was growing impatient by the time She wiped her face with her hands and pulled the door open, Tara looked at her face and she knew pulled her into her arms squeezing her tightly telling her everything would be alright.
Tara was married town Sheriff Andy Bellfleur and Sookie knew and they in the old Bellfleur mansion down the road , Tara had begged her to stay with them when she came back but Sookie was dine running and hiding she wanted to live a normal life in her own home. The two of them walked through the house while Tara pointed out the security measures her and Andy had installed, she had always known Andy didn't care for her and it made her happy to know he loved her best friend enough to help keep her safe.
After they had a coke and a bite to eat Tara left giving her a hug and reminding her to lock up, Sookie closed the door and set the alarm before heading for bed. Tomorrow would be easier she told herself over and over again trying to make the tension leave her body so she could fall asleep, when all else failed she closed her eyes and pictured Eric's face as he walked with her and the sound of his voice when he spoke about his life and she felt herself drifting off to sleep.
Dear Diary
I dreamt about my daughter last night what she would look like the sound of her voice she was so beautiful when I held her in my arms and looked at her I felt safe and warm, I tried to hide her form him I swear I did but I didn't hear him coming. He snatched her from my arms and she turned to dust in his hands, when I woke up I couldn't breathe and I remembered that night. I was afraid to tell him face to face and I knew how he would react but I was sure I couldn't kill my baby I sent him a text telling him I was pregnant and his first response was who's is it. At that moment I wished it was someone else's and for the next couple of weeks I was sure I didn't care if he was involved or not, I was preparing to tell gran the next morning but that night he came to my bedroom window begging for forgiveness and telling me he loved me. I believed his lies I always did and I always regretted it, I opened the window and let him in and we made love so passionately that I cried. Our hand intertwined and draped over my belly I really thought everything would be alright until he covered my face with the pillow and pounded my stomach using out hands as a weapon. I felt the life drain out of me as the bleeding started and I actually wanted my life to end with hers, the pounding stopped when he was sure the damage was done and he held me while I cried and he repeated two words over and over again NO BABIES. I kept this a secret never telling anyone and when he showed up the next night crying he swore his fear made him do he was scared and panicked and he swore he would never hurt me again and I stayed so young and stupid.